Today was a cleaning day. Not me cleaning the house but getting my teeth cleaned at the dentist. I had to drop hubby off at work at 815 this morning so I could be down south to my dentist at 9am. I got there 25 minutes early, traffic was good and I caught all green lights. So I kicked back the car seat, set my alarm and relaxed with my eyes closed.
When it was time, I went into the office. I saw Sandy and made a $75 payment. She added it to my debt and told me we only have $320 left to pay! Yeah! We are making some headway! I got called back and got my teeth cleaned, no cavities but I lost a filling in a back tooth so I will have to have it filled. I asked them to get it pre-approved by the dental insurance to make sure they will pay for it. In the meantime I will keep the food out of the hole. Luck for me it isn't sensitive.
After I was done, I drove back to hubby's school and went inside to wait for him. He had a very important meeting with the VA to do a presentation on computers that he is recommending for the veteran students and they are a little bit more expensive than the ones they are currently getting. He had graphs and charts and full knowledge of all things. They were impressed and went with his suggestions. I am so proud of all the work he put into it and how he did. I didn't get to see it, mind you, but he did tell me all about it.
After he was done telling me about it, he drove me home and dropped me off. It was the last day of the month and so it was Inventory day. He had to finish up down here in the Springs so he could head up to Denver to do Inventory there too. It's 10pm when he called me and told me he had just gotten done working in Denver and was now headed back to the school to punch out, and then he would be home. So I expect him to finally get home about 1130 or midnight. One long day for him!
My sister, Collette, the one visiting from Nevada, called me and then she, my mom and my niece, all came over to visit. It was nice, I gave them a tour of the house, showing off the pinball machine and the playhouse out in the backyard. She told me about the nursing school and how she got free e-books from a friend of her's that is a year ahead of her and how she got free scrubs for school. Things are going her way and I'm glad. She will be an excellent nurse.
I sat outside reading for an hour, enjoying the slight breeze and swinging. Then I went into the house and ate some leftover Beef Stroganoff for dinner. Fed the beasties and pet the dogs. Tomorrow hubby is going to drop me off at the Zoo before he goes to work, about 10am, so I can be there for my 1-4pm shift. He will pick me up at 410pm and bring me home. I will hang out at the zoo in the Docent Resource Center until it is time for my shift. As much as I enjoy holding the joey and playing Docent, I hate the traffic and parking of the Zoo that happens over the summer so I am ready for it to be done. I have tomorrow and Saturday left to do then I am done for the summer. I won't work again until the fall, when all the kids have gone back to school.
Tuesday, June 30, 2015
Monday, June 29, 2015
Monday, June 29, 2015
Today was a waiting day. This morning I got up and was almost dressed when Rose showed up to help walk the dogs. She was a few minutes early so I threw on my sneakers and left. Didn't have time to brush my teeth.
We took the street around in the big circle and while I was throwing away a poop bag in someone's trash, Cookie got in front of me and I tried to step around her on the curb, but twisted my ankle really bad again. I was in severe pain for several minutes and tried to send Rose home to get my husband to come get me in the car but she was reluctant to leave. So I called him on the phone but he didn't answer, he was downstairs and didn't take his phone with him. So I hobbled on back home. I switched dogs with her, had her take Baby since Baby was pulling to go really fast and I couldn't walk that fast. I took the Bobsey twins, Kira and Cookie. When I got home, I iced my ankle after giving hubby a guilt trip. Then he had to get ready to go to work. I was dropping him off so I could have the car so I could go see my sister who was in town for a couple of days but even though I called and texted messages to her, she never contacted me. Oh well, sounds like she was too busy.
I visited with my neighbor, Janice, for a while. Looked at some of her childhood mementos she had gotten from her parents, who are clearing out their house she grew up in because they recently sold it. We looked some of them up on eBay and Etsy, just to see how much they are worth. It was a lot of fun.
Then I watched some Mystery Diagnosis episodes on YouTube, that ever wonderful place of videos. Then I sat down and did the budget while sitting outside in the swing. Pleasant place for dealing with money issues. It wasn't until I was writing to my cousin that I realized I forgot to add two bills to the budget, the $100 payment to the dentist and the $75 payment to the IRS. Better put those in tomorrow.
I picked up hubby at the end of the day and we went over to Short Stop, a Colorado Springs famous burger joint, and ate dinner, cheeseburgers and fries and a coke. We sat there and talked about the shops that were in this little shopping center and how they have changed over the years. It was a lot of fun. By the time we got home, hubby's back was bothering him so I fed all the beasties while he went to soak in a tub.
The good news today is I didn't think about suicide like I usually do. Usually it passes through my mind, wondering how I would do it or think that if I did it, my parents, my daughter, my hubby, would be very sad. I think my sisters would just shrug it off and come to the wake but not really be affected. Frankly, I think my parents would be sad but would just shake their head and say "That's just Kari. Always wanting attention." Then just going on with their life. But today I didn't hink that way. I was happy all day. Today was a good day. Even waiting for my sister to call, I didn't mind just staying home waiting. I didn't let it affect my life.
We took the street around in the big circle and while I was throwing away a poop bag in someone's trash, Cookie got in front of me and I tried to step around her on the curb, but twisted my ankle really bad again. I was in severe pain for several minutes and tried to send Rose home to get my husband to come get me in the car but she was reluctant to leave. So I called him on the phone but he didn't answer, he was downstairs and didn't take his phone with him. So I hobbled on back home. I switched dogs with her, had her take Baby since Baby was pulling to go really fast and I couldn't walk that fast. I took the Bobsey twins, Kira and Cookie. When I got home, I iced my ankle after giving hubby a guilt trip. Then he had to get ready to go to work. I was dropping him off so I could have the car so I could go see my sister who was in town for a couple of days but even though I called and texted messages to her, she never contacted me. Oh well, sounds like she was too busy.
I visited with my neighbor, Janice, for a while. Looked at some of her childhood mementos she had gotten from her parents, who are clearing out their house she grew up in because they recently sold it. We looked some of them up on eBay and Etsy, just to see how much they are worth. It was a lot of fun.
Then I watched some Mystery Diagnosis episodes on YouTube, that ever wonderful place of videos. Then I sat down and did the budget while sitting outside in the swing. Pleasant place for dealing with money issues. It wasn't until I was writing to my cousin that I realized I forgot to add two bills to the budget, the $100 payment to the dentist and the $75 payment to the IRS. Better put those in tomorrow.
I picked up hubby at the end of the day and we went over to Short Stop, a Colorado Springs famous burger joint, and ate dinner, cheeseburgers and fries and a coke. We sat there and talked about the shops that were in this little shopping center and how they have changed over the years. It was a lot of fun. By the time we got home, hubby's back was bothering him so I fed all the beasties while he went to soak in a tub.
The good news today is I didn't think about suicide like I usually do. Usually it passes through my mind, wondering how I would do it or think that if I did it, my parents, my daughter, my hubby, would be very sad. I think my sisters would just shrug it off and come to the wake but not really be affected. Frankly, I think my parents would be sad but would just shake their head and say "That's just Kari. Always wanting attention." Then just going on with their life. But today I didn't hink that way. I was happy all day. Today was a good day. Even waiting for my sister to call, I didn't mind just staying home waiting. I didn't let it affect my life.
Sunday, June 28, 2015
Sunday, June 28, 2015
Today was a brave day. I had gone to sleep before 11pm last night so when I woke up rested at 7am, I said "NO!" and tried to go back to sleep, but as the fates would have it, I was away. So I got down my glasses and my Dave Ramsey's book, Total Money Makeover, and started to read. I read until about 8 and by then I was uncomfortable lying in bed so I got up and came downstairs to the craft room.
I got the computer and onto YouTube and started watching more Mystery Diagnosis episodes, cleaning up a couple of days worth of email, which means deleting 90% of it without looking at it. Mostly because it is sale ads or Brad's Deals and we don't have any money. And I don't want to find out what I desperately need that I didn't know I needed until I saw it and there was a great deal on it.
I found out it's Cassie's husband, Drew's birthday, he turned 26 today. I have a present for him I just couldn't remember when it was so all I have to do is get it wrapped and have hubby mail it off tomorrow. I also have some other things to send off to Cassie so it can all go in one box.
I am finding Dave Ramsey's book, Total Money Makeover very interesting. So far I haven't gotten into the steps you have to take, just the hype before the meat of it. Telling me that I will have to sacrifice and "Live as no one else will so you can live as no one else will." Live as no one else will - sacrifice and budget and plan for your money, pay off your debts in total, so you can Live as no one else will - live debt free, pay for things with cash, have an emergency fund, live free from the stress that debt causes you. He states that is is a simple, common sense approach and maybe, just maybe, hubby and I are at that point of our lives where it will make sense and we can do it.
My sister, Collette, is in town. After I was done working at the Zoo on Saturday, we stopped by my parents' house and tried to visit but caught mom and dad napping and Collette and her husband , Paul, out visiting his son for the evening. They weren't due back until late. I got Collette's number from them, called and left a message on her phone and left a message with the parents to contact me and let me know when we could get together to visit. Frankly, I wasn't sure if I would hear from her at all as I haven't had any contact with her in the past year, maybe longer. I have called and left her messages, texted her, and wrote her a letter. I called her about when Cassie was getting married but still got no response. So wasn't sure I would hear from her this time either. But just to cover my bases, this morning I sent her a text message. That was as far as I was willing to go.
Surprise, surprise, she called me back this morning and asked me if I was going to be at our other sister's house for the bbq this evening. I told her I hadn't been invited. She said yes you had, I specifically asked if you were and Laura said yes. Sebastian's Graduation Party and Juan's Adoption Party. I said yes, we had been invited to that but I thought it was next month because Laura sent me a text message that the adoption had been moved to next month. But Collette said no, it was tonight so I said we would be there. Then as soon as I hung up the phone, I told hubby and he made a Suddenly Salad Classic Pasta Salad to take. I also grabbed the fudge striped cookies that neither of us like but I got for hubby and he didn't even open them to tell me he didn't eat cookies like that. So the cookies were perfect for the kids, being fudge striped and fudge bottomed. So we were set. I grabbed a power bank for charging cell phones to give to Sebastian for his graduation gift and told Juan that I would make him a special scarf in his favorite colors, which turn out to be blue, white and orange. Told him I could probably manage the blue and white variegated yarn but the orange was probably not going to happen. I'll see what I can do.
We ate dinner at my sister's house, I positioned myself away from the crowd, choosing to hang out with some of the kids in the living room watching Naked And Afraid. Then they got a rousing card game going out on the deck and the kids abandoned me. My stress level of dealing with lots of people at one time isn't good, so I stayed in the living room. I saw Laura twice in passing and Collette only a few times too. I told Collette I would come by on Monday afternoon, after I dropped hubby off at work, then said good bye to Laura. and all the kids.
When hubby and I got home, I took an anxiety pill because I was stressing over not being more social in the family situation but Laura and all the kids is pretty overwhelming to me. I can handle it at the Zoo, because I am doing something the guests and kids all want to see and I focus on one person at a time. Kind of hard to do that with my family. And trying to have a conversation with anybody while all this activity is going on is really beyond me at this point anymore.
We got the beasties fed, I watched a couple of Mystery Diagnosis episodes and then we headed upstairs. Since I have moved my computer downstairs to the craft room table, I am finding that I am relaxing more upstairs. I watch tv, Netflix, Hulu, Amazon Prime. I read and I crochet. I am not hanging out in bed all day anymore. I don't know if it is coming off one of my psychotropics, Geodon, the increased exercise or the higher level of human interaction, but I am mentally in a very good state and usually wake up refreshed and happy. Even if I want to sleep in, I 'm not sleeping in half the day. Lately I have been awake by 9. Last Sunday was the latest I slept in and that was 1030.
I weighed myself this morning and I was at 183.5 after eating my container of yogurt and drinking a can of Pepsi, so the walking and only eating when I am hungry is working too. And when I eat, I've been eating good food, fruits, veggies, salad, chicken, Beef Stroganoff, one of my specialties! And I am will to try a taco bake so I can see if I can eat ground beef again. I'm even having a desire to cook again! Hubby sure like that!
I got the computer and onto YouTube and started watching more Mystery Diagnosis episodes, cleaning up a couple of days worth of email, which means deleting 90% of it without looking at it. Mostly because it is sale ads or Brad's Deals and we don't have any money. And I don't want to find out what I desperately need that I didn't know I needed until I saw it and there was a great deal on it.
I found out it's Cassie's husband, Drew's birthday, he turned 26 today. I have a present for him I just couldn't remember when it was so all I have to do is get it wrapped and have hubby mail it off tomorrow. I also have some other things to send off to Cassie so it can all go in one box.
I am finding Dave Ramsey's book, Total Money Makeover very interesting. So far I haven't gotten into the steps you have to take, just the hype before the meat of it. Telling me that I will have to sacrifice and "Live as no one else will so you can live as no one else will." Live as no one else will - sacrifice and budget and plan for your money, pay off your debts in total, so you can Live as no one else will - live debt free, pay for things with cash, have an emergency fund, live free from the stress that debt causes you. He states that is is a simple, common sense approach and maybe, just maybe, hubby and I are at that point of our lives where it will make sense and we can do it.
My sister, Collette, is in town. After I was done working at the Zoo on Saturday, we stopped by my parents' house and tried to visit but caught mom and dad napping and Collette and her husband , Paul, out visiting his son for the evening. They weren't due back until late. I got Collette's number from them, called and left a message on her phone and left a message with the parents to contact me and let me know when we could get together to visit. Frankly, I wasn't sure if I would hear from her at all as I haven't had any contact with her in the past year, maybe longer. I have called and left her messages, texted her, and wrote her a letter. I called her about when Cassie was getting married but still got no response. So wasn't sure I would hear from her this time either. But just to cover my bases, this morning I sent her a text message. That was as far as I was willing to go.
Surprise, surprise, she called me back this morning and asked me if I was going to be at our other sister's house for the bbq this evening. I told her I hadn't been invited. She said yes you had, I specifically asked if you were and Laura said yes. Sebastian's Graduation Party and Juan's Adoption Party. I said yes, we had been invited to that but I thought it was next month because Laura sent me a text message that the adoption had been moved to next month. But Collette said no, it was tonight so I said we would be there. Then as soon as I hung up the phone, I told hubby and he made a Suddenly Salad Classic Pasta Salad to take. I also grabbed the fudge striped cookies that neither of us like but I got for hubby and he didn't even open them to tell me he didn't eat cookies like that. So the cookies were perfect for the kids, being fudge striped and fudge bottomed. So we were set. I grabbed a power bank for charging cell phones to give to Sebastian for his graduation gift and told Juan that I would make him a special scarf in his favorite colors, which turn out to be blue, white and orange. Told him I could probably manage the blue and white variegated yarn but the orange was probably not going to happen. I'll see what I can do.
We ate dinner at my sister's house, I positioned myself away from the crowd, choosing to hang out with some of the kids in the living room watching Naked And Afraid. Then they got a rousing card game going out on the deck and the kids abandoned me. My stress level of dealing with lots of people at one time isn't good, so I stayed in the living room. I saw Laura twice in passing and Collette only a few times too. I told Collette I would come by on Monday afternoon, after I dropped hubby off at work, then said good bye to Laura. and all the kids.
When hubby and I got home, I took an anxiety pill because I was stressing over not being more social in the family situation but Laura and all the kids is pretty overwhelming to me. I can handle it at the Zoo, because I am doing something the guests and kids all want to see and I focus on one person at a time. Kind of hard to do that with my family. And trying to have a conversation with anybody while all this activity is going on is really beyond me at this point anymore.
We got the beasties fed, I watched a couple of Mystery Diagnosis episodes and then we headed upstairs. Since I have moved my computer downstairs to the craft room table, I am finding that I am relaxing more upstairs. I watch tv, Netflix, Hulu, Amazon Prime. I read and I crochet. I am not hanging out in bed all day anymore. I don't know if it is coming off one of my psychotropics, Geodon, the increased exercise or the higher level of human interaction, but I am mentally in a very good state and usually wake up refreshed and happy. Even if I want to sleep in, I 'm not sleeping in half the day. Lately I have been awake by 9. Last Sunday was the latest I slept in and that was 1030.
I weighed myself this morning and I was at 183.5 after eating my container of yogurt and drinking a can of Pepsi, so the walking and only eating when I am hungry is working too. And when I eat, I've been eating good food, fruits, veggies, salad, chicken, Beef Stroganoff, one of my specialties! And I am will to try a taco bake so I can see if I can eat ground beef again. I'm even having a desire to cook again! Hubby sure like that!
Friday, June 26, 2015
Friday, June 26, 2015
Today was a thankful day. I so didn't want to get up this morning. I woke up before the alarm, as I have been prone to do recently, and I laid there thinking how much I did and did not want to go walking. But I got up and turned off the alarm as hubby had gotten up much earlier and left to go to work at 830. So I got dressed and waited for Rose to show up, secretly hoping today would be a day she would oversleep and I would not have to go. Accountability is one of the reasons I asked her to help me. Not just because there is no way I can walk all three by myself right now but also so I would have to get up, get dressed and go out and walk. Rose was prompt.
I leashed up the dogs, they were excited to hear the door bell ring. But they sat facing the door, wiggling, while I put on the leads. I handed out Kira and Cookie to Rose, went and got the grocery store bags to put in my back pocket, and leashed up Baby. Then we were off. I headed down the street, barely getting my feet to touch the ground as Baby was pulling hard on the leash in the beginning. She has gotten pretty good at walking and only circled me a dozen times. Cookie, as usual, was my pooper, as she normally doesn't get out of bed until 10 and when Rose shows up, it's 9, and Cookie hasn't been outside yet. Being the dutiful dog owner, I bag my poop and carry it to the nearest trash can or home.
We walked the whole Misty Drive today, and as fast as Baby was leading up, managed it in only 25 minutes. I surprised myself by not being winded at all when we made it home. The dogs were panting. My fat, little sausages are all out of shape and need this workout. Baby isn't overweight but is really enjoying the exercise. I am hoping to work up to 5 days a week. That may require hubby and I to take them out on the weekend and that is ok with me.
When we arrived home, Rose and I agreed to meet up on Monday and she went home. I came in and got some tea. I wasn't overheated today, it was cooler out so I didn't feel flushed either. I sat at the computer on my craft table and let the rattie boys out. Baby is very interested in the rats and sits at attention with her head sitting on the table, hoping for a nose to nose interaction. The one time it happened, I had looked away for a second and Zeke ended up on the ground. So I am much more vigilant now, lest we have an accident we all can't walk away from.
Janice, my neighbor, called and asked if I wanted to go out garage sale-ing. I told her I had $4 in my wallet so sure! So it took my a couple of minutes to get the rattie boys back in their cage, get shoes on and grab my Kum and Go cup with tea. Then we were off. I figured we had food, gas, and it was the weekend, hubby and I were set so I was fine to spend the change in my purse and the $4 in paper money I had. There really wasn't anything I needed so I figured I would just end up with some books or some baby clothes for the grandkids.
We hit several sales and I was a very frugal shopper! I didn't count the change I had, just kept reaching in and pulling out change for whatever few items I wanted at each sale. I supported the two lemonade stands the kids were hosting and walked away with so much. For $4 in paper money and a lot of change, I got: 4 pairs of 2.25 reader glasses(you know, eye glasses you buy at the drug store to read with?), a set of glass beads, 3 books for the granddaughters, 2 plants, 4 Got Milk puzzle pictures framed with glass, a floor lamp and 20 VHS movies. The set of glass beads is a brand new package that was never opened that has larger beads and 4 sets of seed beads and bugle beads. I got it to give to Rose since she is not taking other beads right now. It was only 50 cents but is worth about $7. I fire I will give her that and offer to let her borrow my tools. I also bought some crimp beads. I need to find my bead board this weekend and offer to lean that to her too. In July I will start paying her $10 a week to help me walk.
Hubby was home when Janice and I got back from garage sale-ing so it was nice to have him help me bring all the stuff in and then spend some time with him before he had to go back to work. I tried to pick out VHS movies that I thought he would like but he wasn't really interested in any of them. Oh well, I tried. He was impressed with my haul. It is amazing all the stuff you can get when you hit the sales just right with a little bit of change.
Once hubby went back to work, I wrote my cousin a letter on facebook and then went outside to sit in the swing and read. Emma, our grey cat, was at the window meowing for me to come out and play with her. So I pet her, talked to her, swung with her, and read my book for an hour and a half. By that time the sky was getting overcast and it looked like we were going to get some rain, so I came in.
I watched some episodes of the Little Couple and by then, hubby had come home. We figured out what we wanted to eat tonight and this weekend and made a quick trip to the store. We were good and didn't get junk food, which was pretty hard considering we were both hungry. My impulse purchase was a container of old fashioned potato salad and Ruffles Potato Chips. I'm sensing a theme.
When we got home, we put away the food and I started dinner. I hadn't cooked in awhile and I was really craving my Beef Stroganoff. I take the basic recipe from Dining on a Dime Cookbook that I bought off of LivingOnADime.com and tailor it to us. Hubby loves it and I have been craving it but steak has been too expensive as of late so I haven't been able to make it. And tonight we found a one pound steak for $7! Perfect! And I add onions and peas to mine to make it a one dish meal. And the way I cook it, there is a tang to it.
While we eat dinner we turn on the tv and there was the season finale of The Briefcase. I have seen a couple of episode of it before and just kind of forgotten about it so it was interested in watching it. Well hubby watched about half of it and then we were done eating and he thought it was just evil. Pitting two desperate families against each other, making them decide if how much money they would save for themselves while giving the family sad tales about the other desperate family. See, I don't view it that way. I see two families that signed up to participate on tv, needing money for various reasons. Everybody is in debt. They have a decision to make, how much do they need to keep for their family and how much social responsibility do they feel. It generated a conversation between hubby and I. I told him that I would take as much money as I needed to pay all of our debts off, not counting the mortgage, plus $5000, and give the rest to the other family, as I consider us truly blessed. Hubby said he could see doing a 50/50 slplit. We both agreed we would want to give the other family something. I like shows like this that would make me think about what I would do and watch to see what others do.
Tomorrow I have to bath the dog again and then go work at the Zoo. Also I may get up early enough to go to confession but bathing the dog is pretty high up there. A lot of it depends on how late hubby sleeps.
I leashed up the dogs, they were excited to hear the door bell ring. But they sat facing the door, wiggling, while I put on the leads. I handed out Kira and Cookie to Rose, went and got the grocery store bags to put in my back pocket, and leashed up Baby. Then we were off. I headed down the street, barely getting my feet to touch the ground as Baby was pulling hard on the leash in the beginning. She has gotten pretty good at walking and only circled me a dozen times. Cookie, as usual, was my pooper, as she normally doesn't get out of bed until 10 and when Rose shows up, it's 9, and Cookie hasn't been outside yet. Being the dutiful dog owner, I bag my poop and carry it to the nearest trash can or home.
We walked the whole Misty Drive today, and as fast as Baby was leading up, managed it in only 25 minutes. I surprised myself by not being winded at all when we made it home. The dogs were panting. My fat, little sausages are all out of shape and need this workout. Baby isn't overweight but is really enjoying the exercise. I am hoping to work up to 5 days a week. That may require hubby and I to take them out on the weekend and that is ok with me.
When we arrived home, Rose and I agreed to meet up on Monday and she went home. I came in and got some tea. I wasn't overheated today, it was cooler out so I didn't feel flushed either. I sat at the computer on my craft table and let the rattie boys out. Baby is very interested in the rats and sits at attention with her head sitting on the table, hoping for a nose to nose interaction. The one time it happened, I had looked away for a second and Zeke ended up on the ground. So I am much more vigilant now, lest we have an accident we all can't walk away from.
Janice, my neighbor, called and asked if I wanted to go out garage sale-ing. I told her I had $4 in my wallet so sure! So it took my a couple of minutes to get the rattie boys back in their cage, get shoes on and grab my Kum and Go cup with tea. Then we were off. I figured we had food, gas, and it was the weekend, hubby and I were set so I was fine to spend the change in my purse and the $4 in paper money I had. There really wasn't anything I needed so I figured I would just end up with some books or some baby clothes for the grandkids.
We hit several sales and I was a very frugal shopper! I didn't count the change I had, just kept reaching in and pulling out change for whatever few items I wanted at each sale. I supported the two lemonade stands the kids were hosting and walked away with so much. For $4 in paper money and a lot of change, I got: 4 pairs of 2.25 reader glasses(you know, eye glasses you buy at the drug store to read with?), a set of glass beads, 3 books for the granddaughters, 2 plants, 4 Got Milk puzzle pictures framed with glass, a floor lamp and 20 VHS movies. The set of glass beads is a brand new package that was never opened that has larger beads and 4 sets of seed beads and bugle beads. I got it to give to Rose since she is not taking other beads right now. It was only 50 cents but is worth about $7. I fire I will give her that and offer to let her borrow my tools. I also bought some crimp beads. I need to find my bead board this weekend and offer to lean that to her too. In July I will start paying her $10 a week to help me walk.
Hubby was home when Janice and I got back from garage sale-ing so it was nice to have him help me bring all the stuff in and then spend some time with him before he had to go back to work. I tried to pick out VHS movies that I thought he would like but he wasn't really interested in any of them. Oh well, I tried. He was impressed with my haul. It is amazing all the stuff you can get when you hit the sales just right with a little bit of change.
Once hubby went back to work, I wrote my cousin a letter on facebook and then went outside to sit in the swing and read. Emma, our grey cat, was at the window meowing for me to come out and play with her. So I pet her, talked to her, swung with her, and read my book for an hour and a half. By that time the sky was getting overcast and it looked like we were going to get some rain, so I came in.
I watched some episodes of the Little Couple and by then, hubby had come home. We figured out what we wanted to eat tonight and this weekend and made a quick trip to the store. We were good and didn't get junk food, which was pretty hard considering we were both hungry. My impulse purchase was a container of old fashioned potato salad and Ruffles Potato Chips. I'm sensing a theme.
When we got home, we put away the food and I started dinner. I hadn't cooked in awhile and I was really craving my Beef Stroganoff. I take the basic recipe from Dining on a Dime Cookbook that I bought off of LivingOnADime.com and tailor it to us. Hubby loves it and I have been craving it but steak has been too expensive as of late so I haven't been able to make it. And tonight we found a one pound steak for $7! Perfect! And I add onions and peas to mine to make it a one dish meal. And the way I cook it, there is a tang to it.
While we eat dinner we turn on the tv and there was the season finale of The Briefcase. I have seen a couple of episode of it before and just kind of forgotten about it so it was interested in watching it. Well hubby watched about half of it and then we were done eating and he thought it was just evil. Pitting two desperate families against each other, making them decide if how much money they would save for themselves while giving the family sad tales about the other desperate family. See, I don't view it that way. I see two families that signed up to participate on tv, needing money for various reasons. Everybody is in debt. They have a decision to make, how much do they need to keep for their family and how much social responsibility do they feel. It generated a conversation between hubby and I. I told him that I would take as much money as I needed to pay all of our debts off, not counting the mortgage, plus $5000, and give the rest to the other family, as I consider us truly blessed. Hubby said he could see doing a 50/50 slplit. We both agreed we would want to give the other family something. I like shows like this that would make me think about what I would do and watch to see what others do.
Tomorrow I have to bath the dog again and then go work at the Zoo. Also I may get up early enough to go to confession but bathing the dog is pretty high up there. A lot of it depends on how late hubby sleeps.
Thursday, June 25, 2015
Thursday, June 25, 2015
Today was a discovery day. I woke up at 845, ready to get up and go to my Prayer Shawl meeting but since hubby had went back downstairs last night to listen to music when I was ready to go to sleep, I wasn't able to talk to him about what time he had to be in today. He said he was getting up at 915 so he could leave just after 10, so I rolled over and tried to go back to sleep since I wouldn't be able to go to my meeting today. But I was awake so I decided to read instead while he still slept.
Once hubby got up to get ready, I turned on the tv and put on Lie to Me on Netflix. I kissed hubby goodbye, he was not going to Denver today but just going to be in the Colorado Springs school. So he would be coming home for lunch. He told me he was so low on pot that he wouldn't be able to stretch it out until we got paid again so I told him to take the last $20 out of the account and go buy some. We had stocked up on food and gas so were good to go until next Tuesday.
Hubby has a medical mj license, he has self medicated for most of his life to treat depression and stomach problems. He has been off of it during his life and also for short period of times during our marriage and frankly, he is a much better person on. He is a responsible pot smoker and holds a full time job, doesn't get drop down high and functions just fine. He doesn't sit there and smoke until there is nothing left, a $40 pot buy will last him for 2 weeks, if not longer.
Anyway, I spent the morning in bed watching Lie to Me on Netflix. Then I got up, came downstairs and fed all the beasties. I started to watch Law & Order: SVU but got the computer and started watching medical mysteries episode. Something I used to watch when we had cable. I opened the rattie boys' door and let them come out to explore. That is how I spent my day. I started on the second cowl scarf for Cassie's mother-in-law, crocheting, and also crocheted the prayer shawl a little bit. Did really well on the cowl scarf, I really like the way it is coming out.
Hubby came home at lunch after going to the pot store and getting his stuff. He dropped it off at home because his work is a drug free zone. The first case in Colorado of an employee that was fired from his job because he was a medical mj user was upheld for the employer, saying they didn't have to give him back his job. It the company has a drug free policy and even if the employee has a medical mj license, the company is not required to keep him. So hubby is very careful to keep that part of his personal life, personal.
We did get a call back from the physician's assistant that the skin cancer biopsy came back. It showed that the spot was pre-cancerous and that is good news! Now when hubby goes back to have the stitches removed, he will have to have additional skin frozen off to kill any part of the spot off. The good news is it wasn't melanoma so additional cutting isn't necessary. Hubby is much relieved. I was rejoicing also.
Hubby didn't work late tonight, he came home just before 8pm. He came in the house, greeted all the barking dogs, who were excited to see him, then we went and sat on the front swing. It's a nice place to swing and talk about our day. We had an intense rain shower earlier and the earth was smelling rather green. The sky was now clear and it was beautiful out. We stayed out until it was time to come in and feed the beasties again.
Dinner was a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, half a sandwich for me, and chicken kiev for him. Now we are going upstairs to watch a movie before we go to sleep.
Tomorrow Rose is coming over at 9 to help me walk the dogs again and I'm pretty proud of myself for doing it 3 times this week. Then I need to go through our paperwork and get a copy of our bankruptcy discharge to send to a couple of people. It's supposed to be about 10 degrees cooler so might end up wearing my jeans instead of shorts.
Once hubby got up to get ready, I turned on the tv and put on Lie to Me on Netflix. I kissed hubby goodbye, he was not going to Denver today but just going to be in the Colorado Springs school. So he would be coming home for lunch. He told me he was so low on pot that he wouldn't be able to stretch it out until we got paid again so I told him to take the last $20 out of the account and go buy some. We had stocked up on food and gas so were good to go until next Tuesday.
Hubby has a medical mj license, he has self medicated for most of his life to treat depression and stomach problems. He has been off of it during his life and also for short period of times during our marriage and frankly, he is a much better person on. He is a responsible pot smoker and holds a full time job, doesn't get drop down high and functions just fine. He doesn't sit there and smoke until there is nothing left, a $40 pot buy will last him for 2 weeks, if not longer.
Anyway, I spent the morning in bed watching Lie to Me on Netflix. Then I got up, came downstairs and fed all the beasties. I started to watch Law & Order: SVU but got the computer and started watching medical mysteries episode. Something I used to watch when we had cable. I opened the rattie boys' door and let them come out to explore. That is how I spent my day. I started on the second cowl scarf for Cassie's mother-in-law, crocheting, and also crocheted the prayer shawl a little bit. Did really well on the cowl scarf, I really like the way it is coming out.
Hubby came home at lunch after going to the pot store and getting his stuff. He dropped it off at home because his work is a drug free zone. The first case in Colorado of an employee that was fired from his job because he was a medical mj user was upheld for the employer, saying they didn't have to give him back his job. It the company has a drug free policy and even if the employee has a medical mj license, the company is not required to keep him. So hubby is very careful to keep that part of his personal life, personal.
We did get a call back from the physician's assistant that the skin cancer biopsy came back. It showed that the spot was pre-cancerous and that is good news! Now when hubby goes back to have the stitches removed, he will have to have additional skin frozen off to kill any part of the spot off. The good news is it wasn't melanoma so additional cutting isn't necessary. Hubby is much relieved. I was rejoicing also.
Hubby didn't work late tonight, he came home just before 8pm. He came in the house, greeted all the barking dogs, who were excited to see him, then we went and sat on the front swing. It's a nice place to swing and talk about our day. We had an intense rain shower earlier and the earth was smelling rather green. The sky was now clear and it was beautiful out. We stayed out until it was time to come in and feed the beasties again.
Dinner was a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, half a sandwich for me, and chicken kiev for him. Now we are going upstairs to watch a movie before we go to sleep.
Tomorrow Rose is coming over at 9 to help me walk the dogs again and I'm pretty proud of myself for doing it 3 times this week. Then I need to go through our paperwork and get a copy of our bankruptcy discharge to send to a couple of people. It's supposed to be about 10 degrees cooler so might end up wearing my jeans instead of shorts.
Wednesday, June 24, 2015
Wednesday, June 24, 2015
Today was a accomplishing day. I woke up on time this morning, at 845am. I talked to hubby, because he offered to take me into the Zoo this morning and when I woke up, I realized that he was on break so needed to be at work at 1030am. That meant that we would need to leave soon in order for him to drop me off at the zoo and still get to work on time. He took a couple of minutes to wake up and when I was done getting dressed, he said it was ok, he would drop me off in time to get to work by 1130. I got up at 845 because Rose, my teenage next door neighbor, was coming over at 9am to help me walk the dogs.
Rose showed up at 9 and the dogs were excited and ready. I got them leashed up quickly and off we went. I was going to take the longer walk, all away around Misty, but when I reached Shadowglen, I decided a 20 minute walk was called for today since hubby and I needed to leave early and I still had a couple of things to do before we left, like make lunch for me to take with me to the Zoo.
When I got home, I thanked Rose and we agreed to meet again on Friday at 9am. Then, since I will not be going any other place, I will walk the full Misty Road. Then I went inside and drank a couple of glasses of my unsweetened iced tea. And I ate a cup of yogurt for breakfast, washed my face and make a salami sandwich for lunch. I also packed a nectarine and 4 coconut cookies. Then I put a bunch of ice in my 55 oz Kum and Go cup and filled it with iced tea so take to the Zoo with me. In the meantime hubby was getting ready to leave.
We had a nice drive up to the Zoo, not in a hurry, running on time. I started talking to hubby about our financial situation and about the book I had been reading, Slaying the Debt Dragon. About how they paid off $127,000 in debt in 4 years. And that the first step would be gathering up all our information about how much each of our debts were and coming up with a grand total of them. He started to get upset, saying the we owe $1700 in PayDay loans and it didn't matter how much we were in debt, they were THE priority. I told him I agreed with him, that the payday loans were the first priority but we also had other things being paid at the same time. And I explained the cascade effect, of paying off your highest priority or highest interest rate debt first while you were making minimum payments on the rest then when the first debt was paid off, taking that money and applying it to the next highest interest rate or the lowest amount bill. And we talked about our taxes due and what I had set up with federal. Money conversations are very tensing for him since we have been living paycheck to paycheck and we never seem to have much money. But we talked and were fine by the end of it. We are going to sit down this weekend and do up a list of our debts. I will work on our budget and come up with how much we can apply to debt repayment each month based on his minimal paycheck and we will take it from there. We should be able to calculate how long it will take up to pay off all our debt.
Hubby dropped me off at the Zoo and agreed to pick me up at 410pm, in front of the Zoo. I went and hung out until it was my shift to hold the joey. Today we had a great crowd and tons of people, adults and children, were excited to see and touch the baby wallaby, our joey, and the Australian lizard, the blue tongue skink. Time passed quickly.
Hubby picked me up and drove me home. He had been having a very productive day but was glad for the break of coming to get me. He came in the house to make himself a sandwich and then left. I spent the rest of the evening on the computer researching medical conditions, like polycephaly, which means having 2 heads. That lead me to Abbey and Britany, conjoined twins that look like a two headed person. I had watched their reality show when I had cable, that followed them and we got to learn a little about what life was like for them. I watched their documentary Joined For Life. It was interesting. After it was over, I watched another documentary about the tiniest girl in the world. At 2 years of age, she was only 7 and a half pounds and still wore newborn sized clothing. She has primordial dwarfism. Then I watch a documentary about a woman who was in a coma for 20 years and woke up and started talking.
When hubby came home, I was reading out in the front yard swing. It started getting pretty chilly out today, the rain cooled the earth down quite a bit. We went inside, at spaghetti and retired.
Tomorrow I have my Prayer Shawl meeting at my church, which will be fun. But I won't get to sleep in since the meeting starts at 9. I think I will get up at 845, eat some yogurt and go in just after 9. But hubby did talk about dropping me off and going into work to clock in, do what he needs to do in Colorado Springs, then coming to pick me up, drop me off at home before heading to Denver, so we will see.
Rose showed up at 9 and the dogs were excited and ready. I got them leashed up quickly and off we went. I was going to take the longer walk, all away around Misty, but when I reached Shadowglen, I decided a 20 minute walk was called for today since hubby and I needed to leave early and I still had a couple of things to do before we left, like make lunch for me to take with me to the Zoo.
When I got home, I thanked Rose and we agreed to meet again on Friday at 9am. Then, since I will not be going any other place, I will walk the full Misty Road. Then I went inside and drank a couple of glasses of my unsweetened iced tea. And I ate a cup of yogurt for breakfast, washed my face and make a salami sandwich for lunch. I also packed a nectarine and 4 coconut cookies. Then I put a bunch of ice in my 55 oz Kum and Go cup and filled it with iced tea so take to the Zoo with me. In the meantime hubby was getting ready to leave.
We had a nice drive up to the Zoo, not in a hurry, running on time. I started talking to hubby about our financial situation and about the book I had been reading, Slaying the Debt Dragon. About how they paid off $127,000 in debt in 4 years. And that the first step would be gathering up all our information about how much each of our debts were and coming up with a grand total of them. He started to get upset, saying the we owe $1700 in PayDay loans and it didn't matter how much we were in debt, they were THE priority. I told him I agreed with him, that the payday loans were the first priority but we also had other things being paid at the same time. And I explained the cascade effect, of paying off your highest priority or highest interest rate debt first while you were making minimum payments on the rest then when the first debt was paid off, taking that money and applying it to the next highest interest rate or the lowest amount bill. And we talked about our taxes due and what I had set up with federal. Money conversations are very tensing for him since we have been living paycheck to paycheck and we never seem to have much money. But we talked and were fine by the end of it. We are going to sit down this weekend and do up a list of our debts. I will work on our budget and come up with how much we can apply to debt repayment each month based on his minimal paycheck and we will take it from there. We should be able to calculate how long it will take up to pay off all our debt.
Hubby dropped me off at the Zoo and agreed to pick me up at 410pm, in front of the Zoo. I went and hung out until it was my shift to hold the joey. Today we had a great crowd and tons of people, adults and children, were excited to see and touch the baby wallaby, our joey, and the Australian lizard, the blue tongue skink. Time passed quickly.
Hubby picked me up and drove me home. He had been having a very productive day but was glad for the break of coming to get me. He came in the house to make himself a sandwich and then left. I spent the rest of the evening on the computer researching medical conditions, like polycephaly, which means having 2 heads. That lead me to Abbey and Britany, conjoined twins that look like a two headed person. I had watched their reality show when I had cable, that followed them and we got to learn a little about what life was like for them. I watched their documentary Joined For Life. It was interesting. After it was over, I watched another documentary about the tiniest girl in the world. At 2 years of age, she was only 7 and a half pounds and still wore newborn sized clothing. She has primordial dwarfism. Then I watch a documentary about a woman who was in a coma for 20 years and woke up and started talking.
When hubby came home, I was reading out in the front yard swing. It started getting pretty chilly out today, the rain cooled the earth down quite a bit. We went inside, at spaghetti and retired.
Tomorrow I have my Prayer Shawl meeting at my church, which will be fun. But I won't get to sleep in since the meeting starts at 9. I think I will get up at 845, eat some yogurt and go in just after 9. But hubby did talk about dropping me off and going into work to clock in, do what he needs to do in Colorado Springs, then coming to pick me up, drop me off at home before heading to Denver, so we will see.
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Today was a coordinating day. Hubby woke me up with a start after he got out of the shower and told me we had 15 minutes to get ready and leave to take him into work if he was going to get in on time. I was in the midst of a really detailed dream about being out in this rocky area camping with other people. It was a contest to see who could collect the most gold jewelry, like 24 karat gold. And we were meeting in secret because if anyone outside of the contest knew that we were doing this, they would rob us. So this one young couple had a handful of gold jewelry and we weighed it and figured out it was worth $10,000. They won! Then some bandits started coming towards us, our lookout on the mountain top told us. I put their jewelry in a small glass vase that was opaque and hid it in the dirt under a shed that was on legs. Then I went to the campground where the fire pit was. The bandits came and tortured us but I told them I didn't know what they were talking about. So they left. I went back to get the glass vase the gold was hidden in but the shed had been torn down and the area was built up with commerce. But when I asked someone where the shed had gone, she told me it had been torn down but all the stuff in it and around it and under it were in a pile and I was free to look through it. And I found the glass vase with the gold in it. It was an unassuming little thing and it had been sealed up so nobody knew the gold was in it. And that is where I woke up suddenly.
The dream has stuck with me all day and I am trying to figure out what it means.
I got dressed and dropped hubby off at work, he was only a few minutes late as we had to go get air in our car tire. We have a tire with a slow leak in it and we are having to put air in it every day until we can afford to replace it and it's matching tire. We are hoping to be able to do so in the beginning of July as that paycheck should be a big one.
I went to therapy and caught all the green lights getting there so I had 25 minutes to wait. So I set the alarm on my phone, closed my eyes and leaned the seat back. Now I wasn't sleeping, I had the radio on low, but I was kind of meditating, letting my mind relax, settling. I was tired and wouldn't have minded drifting off but I just laid there until it was time to go in.
Talking to Steve today, I found out he still hadn't gotten my insurance company to pay him yet and he hadn't gotten the bug worked out for the error he has been getting all this time. I hope he gets it worked out as he owes me a really big refund since I have since met my deductible with my company. We also talked about that my thoughts of suicide are still there and that when I have those thought, I try to figure out why. And the only thing I can figure is that I am at a loss on what my role is now. My child doesn't need me as a mom anymore. She is married and has a life a couple of hours away from me, has her new best friend, her mother-in-law, and all her friends up there. I haven't seen her since the wedding and though we still talk, mostly, twice a week, the conversations are shorter as she is also calling other people or if I say something she doesn't like, then she will cut the conversation shorter.
Steve told me that I was still Cassie's mom. The relationship hubby and I have with the twins isn't like the relationship with Cassie and Cassie will always need me as her mom. My relationship is changing, for a healthy change, from one as a mother/daughter to adult/adult. And I need to get life beyond being revolved around Cassie. I told him I was trying but I didn't know who I was or what I wanted. I was getting to the point where the other day I asked hubby if he would consider moving to Australia, to which he said the country probably doesn't want us as we don't have any skills they need. Steve said that was a start. In all reality, hubby and I have lived all around the United States in several states and traveled in others and both chose to live here. We can afford it, the weather is tolerable and we like our house. Besides, with 3 dogs, 6 cats, 2 rats, 2 cockiteils and fish, nobody else will take us!
After therapy, I have a noon appointment with my doctor, Dr Heather Sena. She is a nice lady, a fairly new doctor for us. We talked about my diabetes and how I have lost about 10 pounds, I'm down to 184 without my clothes on. I forgot to talk to her about how a couple of my toes go numb when I go walking so I will have to mention it another time. My dad has a handicap parking pass as his whole feet go numb. So I will definitely have to mention it in September.
I sat and read in the parking lot after that since I got in and out so quickly and I knew hubby wasn't ready to go to lunch yet. But then I called him, started the car and took a new way to get to the freeway faster. You know it is called a freeway, a highway, or the interstate, depending on what part of the country you live in.
Hubby went on lunch and took me home. We heated up Holly's brauts and hot dog and ate lunch. Then he had to go back to work. I took my book and went outside and sat in the swing, reading. When I finished my book, I came inside and got on the computer. The rattie boys was sleeping, as they do until the evening. Hubby came home, we ate a light dinner of leftovers and now we are heading upstairs to watch a movie before going to sleep.
Tomorrow I have Rose coming over in the morning to help me walk the dogs, then hubby is going to drop me off at the Zoo before he goes in and I will hang out before my shift from 1 to 4. then he will take lunch and come pick me up and take me home. Time to hold the joey!
The dream has stuck with me all day and I am trying to figure out what it means.
I got dressed and dropped hubby off at work, he was only a few minutes late as we had to go get air in our car tire. We have a tire with a slow leak in it and we are having to put air in it every day until we can afford to replace it and it's matching tire. We are hoping to be able to do so in the beginning of July as that paycheck should be a big one.
I went to therapy and caught all the green lights getting there so I had 25 minutes to wait. So I set the alarm on my phone, closed my eyes and leaned the seat back. Now I wasn't sleeping, I had the radio on low, but I was kind of meditating, letting my mind relax, settling. I was tired and wouldn't have minded drifting off but I just laid there until it was time to go in.
Talking to Steve today, I found out he still hadn't gotten my insurance company to pay him yet and he hadn't gotten the bug worked out for the error he has been getting all this time. I hope he gets it worked out as he owes me a really big refund since I have since met my deductible with my company. We also talked about that my thoughts of suicide are still there and that when I have those thought, I try to figure out why. And the only thing I can figure is that I am at a loss on what my role is now. My child doesn't need me as a mom anymore. She is married and has a life a couple of hours away from me, has her new best friend, her mother-in-law, and all her friends up there. I haven't seen her since the wedding and though we still talk, mostly, twice a week, the conversations are shorter as she is also calling other people or if I say something she doesn't like, then she will cut the conversation shorter.
Steve told me that I was still Cassie's mom. The relationship hubby and I have with the twins isn't like the relationship with Cassie and Cassie will always need me as her mom. My relationship is changing, for a healthy change, from one as a mother/daughter to adult/adult. And I need to get life beyond being revolved around Cassie. I told him I was trying but I didn't know who I was or what I wanted. I was getting to the point where the other day I asked hubby if he would consider moving to Australia, to which he said the country probably doesn't want us as we don't have any skills they need. Steve said that was a start. In all reality, hubby and I have lived all around the United States in several states and traveled in others and both chose to live here. We can afford it, the weather is tolerable and we like our house. Besides, with 3 dogs, 6 cats, 2 rats, 2 cockiteils and fish, nobody else will take us!
After therapy, I have a noon appointment with my doctor, Dr Heather Sena. She is a nice lady, a fairly new doctor for us. We talked about my diabetes and how I have lost about 10 pounds, I'm down to 184 without my clothes on. I forgot to talk to her about how a couple of my toes go numb when I go walking so I will have to mention it another time. My dad has a handicap parking pass as his whole feet go numb. So I will definitely have to mention it in September.
I sat and read in the parking lot after that since I got in and out so quickly and I knew hubby wasn't ready to go to lunch yet. But then I called him, started the car and took a new way to get to the freeway faster. You know it is called a freeway, a highway, or the interstate, depending on what part of the country you live in.
Hubby went on lunch and took me home. We heated up Holly's brauts and hot dog and ate lunch. Then he had to go back to work. I took my book and went outside and sat in the swing, reading. When I finished my book, I came inside and got on the computer. The rattie boys was sleeping, as they do until the evening. Hubby came home, we ate a light dinner of leftovers and now we are heading upstairs to watch a movie before going to sleep.
Tomorrow I have Rose coming over in the morning to help me walk the dogs, then hubby is going to drop me off at the Zoo before he goes in and I will hang out before my shift from 1 to 4. then he will take lunch and come pick me up and take me home. Time to hold the joey!
Monday, June 22, 2015
Monday, June 22, 2015
Today was a dilating day. I woke up this morning at 550am, so early! Even though I had only gone to sleep about midnight, I was wide awake so I picked up my book and started to read. It was sunny out and I didn't need to turn on a light. Now I have to explain that we don't have any curtains up in the windows of our house, just shears on the windows that face the street. So when the sun comes up, it will come right in the window. Actually, our bedroom windows face south and west so the rising sun doesn't shine in my window but the light will be seen from the window. So maybe that is why I wake up so early sometimes. So I was awake and I didn't have to get up and get ready until 7 so I decided to read. I'm reading False Memories by Dean Koontz, at least that is what I think the title is. It is really good and Dean Koontz is my 2nd favorite author. In fact I had this idea about two years ago to write to him and ask him for an autographed picture for my mom for Mother's Day and he sent me a personalized autographed book for her instead. He is a really great and caring man!
So I read until the alarm went off and hubby got up. I jumped in the shower ahead of him, got dressed and went down to feed the beasties. Hubby came down soon and we left for his school. He was pretty tense as his boss went off on vacation and didn't approve, as of last week, the $200 reimbursement that we were owed from hubby doing Graduation. So if his boss didn't approve it today, we would have to take out a $200 payday loan to get through the week until next Tuesday. So I dropped hubby off at work and went back home.
I got home and ate some breakfast then Rose, the teenager from next door, came over at 9 so we could walk the dogs. I decided we should walk around the block instead of down to the park and it worked out really well. I took a shorter street to see how long that would be to walk and it was only 20 minutes so Wednesday, we will walk all the way around the block and that should be 30 minutes, which is good. But today we only walked for 20 minutes and I asked her if she wanted to get any more beads but she said she was good.
Then I had some time to kill, so I kept reading my book. But soon it was 1005 and my eye appointment was at 1030 so I had to leave. It only takes 15 minutes to get to the eye doctor so I was early. I didn't have to wait long before they called me back. The technician measured my eyes, then did all these tests and told me my pupilairy distance is 62, which you have to know to order glasses online. I found out that the readers I am using are not strong enough. I am using 1.75 readers and the tests show 2.25 readers would be the best. Also I do have a little problem seeing at night driving so I have a slight prescription for that.
Then they dilated my eyes. When they do that, they send you back out into the waiting room. There I got into a discussion, or rather a one sided conversation, with a man with dementia. His wife told him to stay in the waiting room while she went back and we talked. He told me lots of stories from his past. It was interesting and a little confusing and I didn't quite understand until she came back and told me he had dementia. She and I talked a little and then I got called back to see Dr Dewey. Because I have diabetes, I have to get my eyes checked every year. Full workup. So we talked and I told him that my dry eye problem had gone away for the most part. My A1c was down to 6.6 and I had lost some weight. My blood sugars we around normal, around 120. Everything else ;looked normal. I was good to go for another year.
Now hubby has decided that he is not going to go back to Dr Dewey again because Dr Dewey refused to give him his pupilairy distance (which is also 62) and he was insisting that hubby go get his eyeglasses from this particular company, saying they did the best glasses but hubby wanted to get glasses online from a company that came recommended from several of his friends. We did get hubby's script, he got his pupilairy distance from the technician and we ordered a pair of prescription sunglasses from this online company. They are great and we will be ordering his reading and computer glasses from them too soon.
After I got done with Dr Dewey I drove back to hubby's school to pick him up. We then went and got a $200 payday loan and got some lunch on our way to his doctor's appointment. Today was the day they were cutting the skin cancer off and sending it in for biopsy. The physician's assistant (PA) was personable and put us at ease. When she took the biopsy she used an 8mm cookie cutter after numbing him up and cut the whole thing off. Then she gave him 5 stitches to put him back together. He was relaxed and still the whole time. I was on the opposite side of him so I didn't look.
Hubby was in a much better mood afterwards. The stress of seeing this thing on him growing and raising and crusting up was getting to him. He was much happier. We still have to wait for the biopsy report to come back and tell us what kind of skin cancer it was and they may have to excise more of the area around it but for right now, it's gone.
We drove home, stopping at Walgreens to pick up prescriptions. Then he went and laid down while I fed the animals. I ate some of my leftovers for dinner but could only eat a couple of bites. When he woke up, it was around 5 and we decided to take the overdue library books back, pay off our fine and check out a couple of other books. Our library is undergoing some renovations so it was interesting to see the construction. Things will be a little hectic for the next several months there. I found a couple of books to check out and hubby found a bunch of graphic novels to read.
Then we went to the grocery store to pick up a few more odds and ends we needed and we went home. He went into his office and I came to my craft room. Later in the evening, when the sun was going down and we were in shadows but it was still light out, we went out and sat in the swing out front. We stayed out there until it got dark, talking, then he got his iPad and we watched an episode of Apprentice UK Series 10 Episode 1, which was on YouTube. We sat cuddled together in the swing, with his arm around me and my legs over his legs. It was very romantic and I see us spending lots of time sitting in that swing over the summer. And maybe even during the winter on all the nice days we have. Hubby felt the same way and just came by and hugged me, saying that that was really nice. He can see us living out there.
Tomorrow I will have to drop hubby off at work and go to therapy. Then I have a doctor's appointment with Dr Sena, my internest, to check on my diabetes. I have to tell her that while I walk, a couple of my toes go numb on my left foot. The feeling comes back after I get home and sit down for awhile but it feels weird and I think it may be associated with my diabetes. Just another thing to get checked out.
So I read until the alarm went off and hubby got up. I jumped in the shower ahead of him, got dressed and went down to feed the beasties. Hubby came down soon and we left for his school. He was pretty tense as his boss went off on vacation and didn't approve, as of last week, the $200 reimbursement that we were owed from hubby doing Graduation. So if his boss didn't approve it today, we would have to take out a $200 payday loan to get through the week until next Tuesday. So I dropped hubby off at work and went back home.
I got home and ate some breakfast then Rose, the teenager from next door, came over at 9 so we could walk the dogs. I decided we should walk around the block instead of down to the park and it worked out really well. I took a shorter street to see how long that would be to walk and it was only 20 minutes so Wednesday, we will walk all the way around the block and that should be 30 minutes, which is good. But today we only walked for 20 minutes and I asked her if she wanted to get any more beads but she said she was good.
Then I had some time to kill, so I kept reading my book. But soon it was 1005 and my eye appointment was at 1030 so I had to leave. It only takes 15 minutes to get to the eye doctor so I was early. I didn't have to wait long before they called me back. The technician measured my eyes, then did all these tests and told me my pupilairy distance is 62, which you have to know to order glasses online. I found out that the readers I am using are not strong enough. I am using 1.75 readers and the tests show 2.25 readers would be the best. Also I do have a little problem seeing at night driving so I have a slight prescription for that.
Then they dilated my eyes. When they do that, they send you back out into the waiting room. There I got into a discussion, or rather a one sided conversation, with a man with dementia. His wife told him to stay in the waiting room while she went back and we talked. He told me lots of stories from his past. It was interesting and a little confusing and I didn't quite understand until she came back and told me he had dementia. She and I talked a little and then I got called back to see Dr Dewey. Because I have diabetes, I have to get my eyes checked every year. Full workup. So we talked and I told him that my dry eye problem had gone away for the most part. My A1c was down to 6.6 and I had lost some weight. My blood sugars we around normal, around 120. Everything else ;looked normal. I was good to go for another year.
Now hubby has decided that he is not going to go back to Dr Dewey again because Dr Dewey refused to give him his pupilairy distance (which is also 62) and he was insisting that hubby go get his eyeglasses from this particular company, saying they did the best glasses but hubby wanted to get glasses online from a company that came recommended from several of his friends. We did get hubby's script, he got his pupilairy distance from the technician and we ordered a pair of prescription sunglasses from this online company. They are great and we will be ordering his reading and computer glasses from them too soon.
After I got done with Dr Dewey I drove back to hubby's school to pick him up. We then went and got a $200 payday loan and got some lunch on our way to his doctor's appointment. Today was the day they were cutting the skin cancer off and sending it in for biopsy. The physician's assistant (PA) was personable and put us at ease. When she took the biopsy she used an 8mm cookie cutter after numbing him up and cut the whole thing off. Then she gave him 5 stitches to put him back together. He was relaxed and still the whole time. I was on the opposite side of him so I didn't look.
Hubby was in a much better mood afterwards. The stress of seeing this thing on him growing and raising and crusting up was getting to him. He was much happier. We still have to wait for the biopsy report to come back and tell us what kind of skin cancer it was and they may have to excise more of the area around it but for right now, it's gone.
We drove home, stopping at Walgreens to pick up prescriptions. Then he went and laid down while I fed the animals. I ate some of my leftovers for dinner but could only eat a couple of bites. When he woke up, it was around 5 and we decided to take the overdue library books back, pay off our fine and check out a couple of other books. Our library is undergoing some renovations so it was interesting to see the construction. Things will be a little hectic for the next several months there. I found a couple of books to check out and hubby found a bunch of graphic novels to read.
Then we went to the grocery store to pick up a few more odds and ends we needed and we went home. He went into his office and I came to my craft room. Later in the evening, when the sun was going down and we were in shadows but it was still light out, we went out and sat in the swing out front. We stayed out there until it got dark, talking, then he got his iPad and we watched an episode of Apprentice UK Series 10 Episode 1, which was on YouTube. We sat cuddled together in the swing, with his arm around me and my legs over his legs. It was very romantic and I see us spending lots of time sitting in that swing over the summer. And maybe even during the winter on all the nice days we have. Hubby felt the same way and just came by and hugged me, saying that that was really nice. He can see us living out there.
Tomorrow I will have to drop hubby off at work and go to therapy. Then I have a doctor's appointment with Dr Sena, my internest, to check on my diabetes. I have to tell her that while I walk, a couple of my toes go numb on my left foot. The feeling comes back after I get home and sit down for awhile but it feels weird and I think it may be associated with my diabetes. Just another thing to get checked out.
Sunday, June 21, 2015
1st Day of Summer, Sunday, June 21, 2015
Today was a relaxing day. I started off by sleeping it. I didn't wake up until 1030am! That's the latest I have slept in for awhile. It's been a really busy weekend for me.
Friday, I came downstairs and stayed at my craft table, talking to the rattie boys and playing on the computer. Then I had to get ready to go to a Red Hat function. Judtihmary and Joanne were picking me up about 5. So I got dressed in my black skirt, purple tshirt and new black 1/2 inch heel flats. Perfect for what we had planned for the evening! The ladies picked me up and we went downtown to a restaurant called Croquettes. It was a hip mid-sized place. Judithmary said they were a non-gluten place but I didn't really think that after seeing their menu. I got the chicken salad sandwich and regular fries. Normally all their fries are tossed in a truffle oil, that's what they are known for, but truffle just tastes like dirt to me so I preferred them without it. The bread on my sandwich was homemade, a little thick so halfway through the sandwich, I just opened the bread and ate the chicken salad off the bread. Then I ate about 2/3rds of my fries. We skipped dessert and went for a walk downtown.
Downtown has a lot of statues and art around so that is what we were seeing. We were also out displaying our outfits, showing off. We got a lot of comments, How do you do, ladies? and You all look very nice today. We even got one group of guys that sang One Eyed, One Horse Flying Purple People Eater, at us. But unfortunately, there were a lot of homeless people downtown and we cut our walk short. We ended up at the candy store where I bought almost a pound of salt water taffy, which is hubby's favorite, just to let him know I was thinking of him. We walked back to our cars and Judithmary, Joanne and I went to Dairy Queen. Now I had my mouth set on an Orange Julius but their machine was down so I got a mango/pineapple smoothie. Though I drank it, it really didn't do it for me.
When I got home that night, around 830pm, hubby wasn't home yet. He had been working in Denver all day and stayed late to finish processing the books he got in, getting them into the computer system and getting them up on the shelves for sale for Monday. He walked in just as I started to feed the dogs. He fed the cats and cleaned out the litter boxes. I fed the rats.
Saturday, we both woke up early, around 830am. He jumped up and mowed the lawn right away while it was still cool. Didn't stop him from sweating, though! Then he came in and cleaned my bathroom. Not spick and span clean, but a general wipedown. It looks much better than it did before. Then it was time for me to get ready to head out to the Zoo.
On Saturdays, I have been working at the Zoo, holding our joey and Australian lizards. During June and the first week of July I will have all 30 hours of Docent work in, so I will have met my 30 hour obligation for our fiscal year. So if I don't want to, I don't have to work anymore for the rest of our fiscal year, but that's not what I'm going to do. I'm just getting my obligation out of the way so when I do work, I will be over my hours and not have to cram them in at the end of the fiscal year again, like I've done for the past 2 years. In fact, I signed up to work 2 more Saturdays in July. I might sign up to work some more Wednesdays but not sure if I want to keep this pace up at the Zoo. It's getting hotter and I generally don't like to work when it's really hot. I have no plans to work in August at all.
So hubby drove me up to the Zoo. Our car started to overheat in the stop and go of the traffic to get on the Zoo grounds so we sped up some going up the hill. One of the staff spotted us and balled me out, and we explained what happened. He then offered us water for the car if we needed it and I left. I reminded hubby that we had to stop by Holly's house on the way home so I could drop off Abbey's birthday present and we could have a hot dog or a brat. Abbey was turning 2 and I had gotten her a marker/watercolor pad, some watercolors and washable markers. I had also gotten her a spirit stick, a baton type of stick with glitter and small colors microballs in it that you can stand on end and watch. Kids love them. Heck, I love them. I will have to get one for myself, they are a good way to distract yourself from bad thoughts.
So when hubby picked me up from the Zoo, I was in a great mood. The animal handling had gone well, the guests had been steady and time passed quickly. The other Docent was Kay and I was grateful for her as I had no one else signed up to work with me as of Wednesday. So I was caught off guard when hubby told me he was really mad at me. I was scheduling up his weekends and he had no time to do anything he wanted to do, which was to do nothing. He didn't want to go to Holly's, she was my friend and he didn't know anybody there. Heck, I wouldn't know anybody else there besides Holly and Austin but I told him I only wanted to stay 15-20 minutes. Drop off Abbey's present and go home. But that wasn't good enough for him and I sat there thinking that he had a no win situation here for me and no matter what I said or did, I was still coming off as selfish and inconsiderate. In truth, I asked him to clean my bathroom and take me to the Zoo. I asked to stop by my friend's house for 15-20 minutes. The rest of the evening and the next day, Father's Day, was his. I wanted to go to church on Sunday. And he said he had no time to himself ever. Not during the week, not on his downtime during the weekend. So I told him to just go home, I would drive myself over to Holly's and then I would go to my parents house by myself after. I wanted to take my dad his father's day present.
He was still bitching and moaning when I dropped him off and made a sarcastic comment about holding dinner, what time was I going to be home? I told him I didn't know, and I left. By that point I was upset at him and wanted to get over to Holly's.
Holly's was a bbq and though I accepted some cake, I didn't eat the frosting, I took 2 hot dogs and two brats with me to go. I figured maybe hubby didn't have to cook then. Then I left and went to my parents' house. I had called them to see if they were home but didn't get an answer, but figured they were out working in the yard. I was right, as when I pulled up, dad was just getting his tools together to take in the garage. Mom had just gotten out of the shower and they were ready to sit down and visit. I gave dad his tshirt, it said Dad, The Man, The Myth, The Legend. I told him I was giving him something to wear for Father's Day. Dad really liked it.
I visited with them for about an hour, saw all the work they have done on the yards and left. I wanted to go someplace else and not go home for a couple of hours since I was still upset at hubby, but I went home anyway. He was just making a homemade pizza with cheddar and mozzarella cheeses, spaghetti sauce and ham and pineapple on my half. Pepperoni on his half. Pepperoni is now too spicy for me to eat sometimes so I like the ham and pineapple. We sat down and ate, then went upstairs to watch the thrid Jurassic Park movie. He fell asleep pretty early and I stayed up until 3 reading.
Sunday, I woke up at 1030am, and he was already up. He was doing ok, determined not to go to church with me but he did make breakfast, fried eggs, bacon and toast, white bread. We ate and then it was 1130 and I still had to take a shower before church, so I didn't go today. We decided to relax for an hour, change into our new bathing suites and take the dogs out to the front driveway and give them a bath. With Baby's skin condition, she was really smelling pretty rank. So we brought the dogs out one by one, hosed them down and lathered them up. Rinse them off and let them shake out the water. Then we towel dried them and brought out the next one. Back into the house they went. Apparently that is the secret to keeping the dogs from wanting to come out the front door, because after that, they stayed away from the door.
After we were done with the dogs, hubby brought out the two person swing I bought off of Brad's Deals from KMart. I wanted to put it together and put it in the front yard. Now I knew this was going to be a scaled down version of the expensive swing my parents have but I figured it was good enough for us. I would be able to sit in it with hubby in the evening and I could sit in it during the day reading. So we put the swing together. It took a little bit of figuring out, but we got it together and it worked. We tested it out, sitting there swinging, me reading my book and him on his iPad. Until the biting flies bit him one too many times, then he went in. I was doing good, most bugs don't bit me anymore, including mosquitoes, so I was safe to stay out there until the sun hit a certain point and I lost my shade. Then I went inside. I hung out with the rats, hubby hung out in his office, each of us doing our own thing. He was getting his downtime.
Hubby made dinner but I was not hungry. we hadn't eaten lunch either but I just didn't feel like eating, so when he made dinner, he ate alone. Even now, the only thing I want is a green olive. Just one. I know this is not a good way to lose weight but the heat does this to me, making me not want to eat and food makes me queasy. So I'm just going to go with it. Maybe I will eat a pb&j later.
Friday, I came downstairs and stayed at my craft table, talking to the rattie boys and playing on the computer. Then I had to get ready to go to a Red Hat function. Judtihmary and Joanne were picking me up about 5. So I got dressed in my black skirt, purple tshirt and new black 1/2 inch heel flats. Perfect for what we had planned for the evening! The ladies picked me up and we went downtown to a restaurant called Croquettes. It was a hip mid-sized place. Judithmary said they were a non-gluten place but I didn't really think that after seeing their menu. I got the chicken salad sandwich and regular fries. Normally all their fries are tossed in a truffle oil, that's what they are known for, but truffle just tastes like dirt to me so I preferred them without it. The bread on my sandwich was homemade, a little thick so halfway through the sandwich, I just opened the bread and ate the chicken salad off the bread. Then I ate about 2/3rds of my fries. We skipped dessert and went for a walk downtown.
Downtown has a lot of statues and art around so that is what we were seeing. We were also out displaying our outfits, showing off. We got a lot of comments, How do you do, ladies? and You all look very nice today. We even got one group of guys that sang One Eyed, One Horse Flying Purple People Eater, at us. But unfortunately, there were a lot of homeless people downtown and we cut our walk short. We ended up at the candy store where I bought almost a pound of salt water taffy, which is hubby's favorite, just to let him know I was thinking of him. We walked back to our cars and Judithmary, Joanne and I went to Dairy Queen. Now I had my mouth set on an Orange Julius but their machine was down so I got a mango/pineapple smoothie. Though I drank it, it really didn't do it for me.
When I got home that night, around 830pm, hubby wasn't home yet. He had been working in Denver all day and stayed late to finish processing the books he got in, getting them into the computer system and getting them up on the shelves for sale for Monday. He walked in just as I started to feed the dogs. He fed the cats and cleaned out the litter boxes. I fed the rats.
Saturday, we both woke up early, around 830am. He jumped up and mowed the lawn right away while it was still cool. Didn't stop him from sweating, though! Then he came in and cleaned my bathroom. Not spick and span clean, but a general wipedown. It looks much better than it did before. Then it was time for me to get ready to head out to the Zoo.
On Saturdays, I have been working at the Zoo, holding our joey and Australian lizards. During June and the first week of July I will have all 30 hours of Docent work in, so I will have met my 30 hour obligation for our fiscal year. So if I don't want to, I don't have to work anymore for the rest of our fiscal year, but that's not what I'm going to do. I'm just getting my obligation out of the way so when I do work, I will be over my hours and not have to cram them in at the end of the fiscal year again, like I've done for the past 2 years. In fact, I signed up to work 2 more Saturdays in July. I might sign up to work some more Wednesdays but not sure if I want to keep this pace up at the Zoo. It's getting hotter and I generally don't like to work when it's really hot. I have no plans to work in August at all.
So hubby drove me up to the Zoo. Our car started to overheat in the stop and go of the traffic to get on the Zoo grounds so we sped up some going up the hill. One of the staff spotted us and balled me out, and we explained what happened. He then offered us water for the car if we needed it and I left. I reminded hubby that we had to stop by Holly's house on the way home so I could drop off Abbey's birthday present and we could have a hot dog or a brat. Abbey was turning 2 and I had gotten her a marker/watercolor pad, some watercolors and washable markers. I had also gotten her a spirit stick, a baton type of stick with glitter and small colors microballs in it that you can stand on end and watch. Kids love them. Heck, I love them. I will have to get one for myself, they are a good way to distract yourself from bad thoughts.
So when hubby picked me up from the Zoo, I was in a great mood. The animal handling had gone well, the guests had been steady and time passed quickly. The other Docent was Kay and I was grateful for her as I had no one else signed up to work with me as of Wednesday. So I was caught off guard when hubby told me he was really mad at me. I was scheduling up his weekends and he had no time to do anything he wanted to do, which was to do nothing. He didn't want to go to Holly's, she was my friend and he didn't know anybody there. Heck, I wouldn't know anybody else there besides Holly and Austin but I told him I only wanted to stay 15-20 minutes. Drop off Abbey's present and go home. But that wasn't good enough for him and I sat there thinking that he had a no win situation here for me and no matter what I said or did, I was still coming off as selfish and inconsiderate. In truth, I asked him to clean my bathroom and take me to the Zoo. I asked to stop by my friend's house for 15-20 minutes. The rest of the evening and the next day, Father's Day, was his. I wanted to go to church on Sunday. And he said he had no time to himself ever. Not during the week, not on his downtime during the weekend. So I told him to just go home, I would drive myself over to Holly's and then I would go to my parents house by myself after. I wanted to take my dad his father's day present.
He was still bitching and moaning when I dropped him off and made a sarcastic comment about holding dinner, what time was I going to be home? I told him I didn't know, and I left. By that point I was upset at him and wanted to get over to Holly's.
Holly's was a bbq and though I accepted some cake, I didn't eat the frosting, I took 2 hot dogs and two brats with me to go. I figured maybe hubby didn't have to cook then. Then I left and went to my parents' house. I had called them to see if they were home but didn't get an answer, but figured they were out working in the yard. I was right, as when I pulled up, dad was just getting his tools together to take in the garage. Mom had just gotten out of the shower and they were ready to sit down and visit. I gave dad his tshirt, it said Dad, The Man, The Myth, The Legend. I told him I was giving him something to wear for Father's Day. Dad really liked it.
I visited with them for about an hour, saw all the work they have done on the yards and left. I wanted to go someplace else and not go home for a couple of hours since I was still upset at hubby, but I went home anyway. He was just making a homemade pizza with cheddar and mozzarella cheeses, spaghetti sauce and ham and pineapple on my half. Pepperoni on his half. Pepperoni is now too spicy for me to eat sometimes so I like the ham and pineapple. We sat down and ate, then went upstairs to watch the thrid Jurassic Park movie. He fell asleep pretty early and I stayed up until 3 reading.
Sunday, I woke up at 1030am, and he was already up. He was doing ok, determined not to go to church with me but he did make breakfast, fried eggs, bacon and toast, white bread. We ate and then it was 1130 and I still had to take a shower before church, so I didn't go today. We decided to relax for an hour, change into our new bathing suites and take the dogs out to the front driveway and give them a bath. With Baby's skin condition, she was really smelling pretty rank. So we brought the dogs out one by one, hosed them down and lathered them up. Rinse them off and let them shake out the water. Then we towel dried them and brought out the next one. Back into the house they went. Apparently that is the secret to keeping the dogs from wanting to come out the front door, because after that, they stayed away from the door.
After we were done with the dogs, hubby brought out the two person swing I bought off of Brad's Deals from KMart. I wanted to put it together and put it in the front yard. Now I knew this was going to be a scaled down version of the expensive swing my parents have but I figured it was good enough for us. I would be able to sit in it with hubby in the evening and I could sit in it during the day reading. So we put the swing together. It took a little bit of figuring out, but we got it together and it worked. We tested it out, sitting there swinging, me reading my book and him on his iPad. Until the biting flies bit him one too many times, then he went in. I was doing good, most bugs don't bit me anymore, including mosquitoes, so I was safe to stay out there until the sun hit a certain point and I lost my shade. Then I went inside. I hung out with the rats, hubby hung out in his office, each of us doing our own thing. He was getting his downtime.
Hubby made dinner but I was not hungry. we hadn't eaten lunch either but I just didn't feel like eating, so when he made dinner, he ate alone. Even now, the only thing I want is a green olive. Just one. I know this is not a good way to lose weight but the heat does this to me, making me not want to eat and food makes me queasy. So I'm just going to go with it. Maybe I will eat a pb&j later.
Thursday, June 18, 2015
Thursday, June 18, 2015
Today was a shopping day. Last night hubby and I got the munchies and decided to get up early for the Thursday and go have breakfast at Dunkin Donuts. So this morning when the alarm went off at 9, hubby and I talked briefly about sleeping in and skipping the dunuts but decided to do the budget real quick, check off what bills had been paid and what we still needed to pay. So we pulled up the bank account and did some quick figuring. We wrapped that up and then got ready and went to Dunkin Donuts.
It was nice, there was lots of donuts to choose from but this time I decided to just have the jellied donut holes, 4 of them. And when the donut guy gave me the chocolate holes by mistake, he gave me the jellied holes and told me to keep the chocolate ones too. Bonus! Hubby got some cake donuts and we both go drinks. Since the conversation pit was occupodoed, we sat at a table. It was nice, we had a little over an hour before hubby had to be at work. We are some donuts and then left to go to the Kum and Go to get air in our car tire, a daily occurrence. Then we had to go to both our banks to deposit some money in each account. Before we left home, we checked both accounts and made sure that in our account my social security disability deposit goes into, that we covered the overdraft in there and that there was enough money for the mortgage to be paid. And there was. The deposit was did was so there would be a couple of dollars left in each account, just in case.
After that was over, I dropped hubby off and went to Walmart. I was looking for a present for Abbey, Holly's daughter that was turning 2 in a couple of days. Her birthday party is Saturday and she likes art projects. I remember Crayola used to make a type of painting book that you just used a brush with water on it and when you put it on the page, it would turn colors. But I couldn't find that at Walmart. I looked for watercolors and painting books or finger paints but couldn't find that there either. Last night I dreamed about going to Target to find everything so I headed down the road after buying 2 tomato plants, some Vitamin D, and a sparkly spirit stick. The spirit stick has colored beads and stars in it and when you turn it one way, it all floats down and it's made for small kids and grown ups with needs for meditation.
I was headed to Target when I decided to go to Hobby Lobby instead. There I found finger paints and large tablets but decided on a marker and watercolor tablet with washable markers and watercolors for Abbey. I got a gift bag and a sewing kit, the sewing kit so I can fix hubby's pants. This all came to $23. I expected to spend under $20 but the sewing kit ran it over. I got the sewing kit for 40% off due to being able to pull up a coupon on my phone. Took a few minutes but well worth it! I downloaded the ap Retail Me Not and have used it many times at both Michael's and Hobby Lobby. You can also get coupons for Joanne's and a bunch of other places too!
Then I called hubby and he said we could switch out the car anytime. Since I was just going to go home and play with the animals, talk to the neighbors, get on the computer, but mostly wanted to go home to take off my boots and my socks, I went over and picked him up at the school. Then he drove me home and dropped me off. Tried to talk him into changing into a short sleeve shirt because the temperature was going up to 86 today, but he was happy in his long sleeve shirt with the sleeves pulled up to his elbows. And he had a short sleeved shirt in his office if he got too hot.
I spent the rest of the day doing a few projects. I went next door and told Dave, Rose's dad, that I was going with hubby to a doctor's appointment in the morning so I wouldn't be able to go walking. Turns out hubby isn't taking me to the doctor's so he can leave from there and go directly to Denver. Bummer! But I will get to sleep in, so maybe not so bad. But I did want to be there when the physician's assistant looked at and removed the skin cancer from his arm. But oh, well! He wants to get up to Denver as soon as possible in the morning.
I started going through our massive collection of usb drives and marking some of the permanent ones, like all the ER ones and the one with all the seasons of Northern Exposure. And I wanted to find the one with Little Women of LA and Little People on it. I did but the Little Women of LA wouldn't play so I will have to try that out on the tv. If it still won't play I will have to have hubby reload the show so I can watch them. I think they have another season out now too. Going through all the flash drives is a lot of work and I haven't finished. We have a lot of them. Our tv in the bedroom is a smart tv. You can load stuff onto the flash drive and plug it directly into the tv. The tv also picks up the wireless internet and we play Hulu Plus, Netflix, Amazon and YouTube on it. There is a bunch of other things on there that we could get if we subscribe to them but we seem to be set.
Hubby came home on time tonight and picked up Panda Express for dinner. I had eaten some pasta salad for dinner earlier, I got hungry. Hubby didn't get off until 830pm and normally I can wait but tonight I couldn't. We ate, he went downstairs to smoke for a little, pot is legal here in Colorado, you know. He is also paying the mortgage. We like paying it as soon as we have the money two weeks early. Takes a little interest off. Now we are going upstairs to finish watching Jurassic Park 2. Then we are going to rewatch another episode of Last Man on Earth on Hulu Plus. Since he has to get up so early, we are going to call it an early night.
Tomorrow I plan on taking it easy at the house. Watch a couple of episodes of Homicide Hunter on the USB drives, when I find it, and start to work on the craft room. Do some crochet. Plan dinner. Yes, I'm going to try and cook something! Will let you know how it turns out.
It was nice, there was lots of donuts to choose from but this time I decided to just have the jellied donut holes, 4 of them. And when the donut guy gave me the chocolate holes by mistake, he gave me the jellied holes and told me to keep the chocolate ones too. Bonus! Hubby got some cake donuts and we both go drinks. Since the conversation pit was occupodoed, we sat at a table. It was nice, we had a little over an hour before hubby had to be at work. We are some donuts and then left to go to the Kum and Go to get air in our car tire, a daily occurrence. Then we had to go to both our banks to deposit some money in each account. Before we left home, we checked both accounts and made sure that in our account my social security disability deposit goes into, that we covered the overdraft in there and that there was enough money for the mortgage to be paid. And there was. The deposit was did was so there would be a couple of dollars left in each account, just in case.
After that was over, I dropped hubby off and went to Walmart. I was looking for a present for Abbey, Holly's daughter that was turning 2 in a couple of days. Her birthday party is Saturday and she likes art projects. I remember Crayola used to make a type of painting book that you just used a brush with water on it and when you put it on the page, it would turn colors. But I couldn't find that at Walmart. I looked for watercolors and painting books or finger paints but couldn't find that there either. Last night I dreamed about going to Target to find everything so I headed down the road after buying 2 tomato plants, some Vitamin D, and a sparkly spirit stick. The spirit stick has colored beads and stars in it and when you turn it one way, it all floats down and it's made for small kids and grown ups with needs for meditation.
I was headed to Target when I decided to go to Hobby Lobby instead. There I found finger paints and large tablets but decided on a marker and watercolor tablet with washable markers and watercolors for Abbey. I got a gift bag and a sewing kit, the sewing kit so I can fix hubby's pants. This all came to $23. I expected to spend under $20 but the sewing kit ran it over. I got the sewing kit for 40% off due to being able to pull up a coupon on my phone. Took a few minutes but well worth it! I downloaded the ap Retail Me Not and have used it many times at both Michael's and Hobby Lobby. You can also get coupons for Joanne's and a bunch of other places too!
Then I called hubby and he said we could switch out the car anytime. Since I was just going to go home and play with the animals, talk to the neighbors, get on the computer, but mostly wanted to go home to take off my boots and my socks, I went over and picked him up at the school. Then he drove me home and dropped me off. Tried to talk him into changing into a short sleeve shirt because the temperature was going up to 86 today, but he was happy in his long sleeve shirt with the sleeves pulled up to his elbows. And he had a short sleeved shirt in his office if he got too hot.
I spent the rest of the day doing a few projects. I went next door and told Dave, Rose's dad, that I was going with hubby to a doctor's appointment in the morning so I wouldn't be able to go walking. Turns out hubby isn't taking me to the doctor's so he can leave from there and go directly to Denver. Bummer! But I will get to sleep in, so maybe not so bad. But I did want to be there when the physician's assistant looked at and removed the skin cancer from his arm. But oh, well! He wants to get up to Denver as soon as possible in the morning.
I started going through our massive collection of usb drives and marking some of the permanent ones, like all the ER ones and the one with all the seasons of Northern Exposure. And I wanted to find the one with Little Women of LA and Little People on it. I did but the Little Women of LA wouldn't play so I will have to try that out on the tv. If it still won't play I will have to have hubby reload the show so I can watch them. I think they have another season out now too. Going through all the flash drives is a lot of work and I haven't finished. We have a lot of them. Our tv in the bedroom is a smart tv. You can load stuff onto the flash drive and plug it directly into the tv. The tv also picks up the wireless internet and we play Hulu Plus, Netflix, Amazon and YouTube on it. There is a bunch of other things on there that we could get if we subscribe to them but we seem to be set.
Hubby came home on time tonight and picked up Panda Express for dinner. I had eaten some pasta salad for dinner earlier, I got hungry. Hubby didn't get off until 830pm and normally I can wait but tonight I couldn't. We ate, he went downstairs to smoke for a little, pot is legal here in Colorado, you know. He is also paying the mortgage. We like paying it as soon as we have the money two weeks early. Takes a little interest off. Now we are going upstairs to finish watching Jurassic Park 2. Then we are going to rewatch another episode of Last Man on Earth on Hulu Plus. Since he has to get up so early, we are going to call it an early night.
Tomorrow I plan on taking it easy at the house. Watch a couple of episodes of Homicide Hunter on the USB drives, when I find it, and start to work on the craft room. Do some crochet. Plan dinner. Yes, I'm going to try and cook something! Will let you know how it turns out.
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Today was a medium day. I started off my day by getting up at 845am to get ready to walk the dogs with Rose. Today was a bit of a test to see if Rose would show up, and she did! Right at 9am, she ran the doorbell and I was ready for her. I got the leashes on the dogs and out the door we went. She took Kira and Cookie and I took Baby. I had her start out with Baby but Baby was pulling her down the road so I switched. Cookie and Kira pull some but being smaller dogs, they don't do as badly as Baby does when we first start out walking. Baby is learning how to walk on a leash and she is getting better. In the beginning she would walk circles around you and pull this way and that. But now she is not walking quite so much in circles and after about 8 to 10 minutes, she relaxes into the grove.
We made it down to the park and started to go in but the grass was really wet and the bugs were pretty thick so I decided to skip the park and just head back. That cut the walk down to 20 minutes. Tomorrow Rose has a family function so she is not going to walk the dogs. I set up the next time for Friday at 9am. She is a teenager and would rather sleep in and go in the afternoon but it just gets too hot to do it later. Both for me and the dogs. So she is ok for Friday. I asked her if she wanted to come in and get some more beads but she just wanted to go home and go back to bed.
I went in and got a big glass of iced tea and went upstairs to see hubby. He had a doctor's appointment at 1030 and I was going in with him. The plan was he was going to drop me off at the zoo after the doctor's appointment so I wouldn't have to try and find parking. Then he would pick me up on his lunch hour when I got done at 4pm.
Hubby didn't want to go to the doctor's. It was an appointment to see about getting the bump removed from his eyelid. He had gotten a couple of other bumps on his face too but we weren't there to see about those. We wanted to know if the bump on his eye was something that was bad. Dr Pelton was very nice and looked at hubby. He said the bump on his eyelid was the same as the bumps on his face and they were benign. To remove it was simple and only required him using this lazer like pen to melt the stuff that was the bump. The whole visit and removal would be $83. Well, we are short money this month but it was important to hubby to get this removed so we said yes. The whole procedure took only a couple of minutes.
The bad news we got from Dr Pelton was that a spot that hubby had on his arm was a Basal Cell Carcinoma, skin cancer. Hubby has an appointment with our regular doctor July 20th but tomorrow I am going to call the office and see if they can't get him in sooner. Hubby is a little freaked out that he has skin cancer. Dr Pelton assured us that he won't die from it but we do want it to get taken care of soon.
Then hubby took me up to the Zoo. It was a nice sunny day, a little warm so I was wearing my tan shorts and my Docent t-shirt. I still had on my ankle sleeve for my sprained ankle but I was walking just fine this morning. I'm not going to stop wearing the ankle sleeve for awhile, until after I see the doctor next week. And probably for a week or two after that, just for the extra support.
The shift at the Zoo went well. We held the joey and a blue tongue skink, at different times, of course. It started to rain about 20 minutes before we were done. So Thea, the head keeper, came and got the joey, whose name is Fiona, about 5 minutes early. I tried to call hubby but his phone was off so I just kept trying. I walked down to the front of the Zoo and waited for him. I caught him just as he was getting ready to drive up to the Australian exhibit to pick me up. I surprised him by jumping into the car just as he was waiting for the gate to open!
He had had a stressful day, getting used to working for a new guy. The school is going through budget crisis and they might have to get rid of a person in his department. That stresses hubby out. And the guy that hubby is working for has all this extra work he wants hubby to do and hubby is trying to figure out when he can do it since he is so stretched as it is. But he vented to me on the way home and felt much better by the time we got home. He packed up some food to eat later since he has to work until 915pm, kissed me and left.
I spent the rest of the day and evening in the craft room. For a while I had the rattie boys in the bathroom with me running around. Tonight they got chicken, pasta and tomatoes. Plus their rattie food. The boys are getting much more comfortable with me and spent some time exploring the bathroom and me. I had a good time petting them and feeding them little tidbits.
We made it down to the park and started to go in but the grass was really wet and the bugs were pretty thick so I decided to skip the park and just head back. That cut the walk down to 20 minutes. Tomorrow Rose has a family function so she is not going to walk the dogs. I set up the next time for Friday at 9am. She is a teenager and would rather sleep in and go in the afternoon but it just gets too hot to do it later. Both for me and the dogs. So she is ok for Friday. I asked her if she wanted to come in and get some more beads but she just wanted to go home and go back to bed.
I went in and got a big glass of iced tea and went upstairs to see hubby. He had a doctor's appointment at 1030 and I was going in with him. The plan was he was going to drop me off at the zoo after the doctor's appointment so I wouldn't have to try and find parking. Then he would pick me up on his lunch hour when I got done at 4pm.
Hubby didn't want to go to the doctor's. It was an appointment to see about getting the bump removed from his eyelid. He had gotten a couple of other bumps on his face too but we weren't there to see about those. We wanted to know if the bump on his eye was something that was bad. Dr Pelton was very nice and looked at hubby. He said the bump on his eyelid was the same as the bumps on his face and they were benign. To remove it was simple and only required him using this lazer like pen to melt the stuff that was the bump. The whole visit and removal would be $83. Well, we are short money this month but it was important to hubby to get this removed so we said yes. The whole procedure took only a couple of minutes.
The bad news we got from Dr Pelton was that a spot that hubby had on his arm was a Basal Cell Carcinoma, skin cancer. Hubby has an appointment with our regular doctor July 20th but tomorrow I am going to call the office and see if they can't get him in sooner. Hubby is a little freaked out that he has skin cancer. Dr Pelton assured us that he won't die from it but we do want it to get taken care of soon.
Then hubby took me up to the Zoo. It was a nice sunny day, a little warm so I was wearing my tan shorts and my Docent t-shirt. I still had on my ankle sleeve for my sprained ankle but I was walking just fine this morning. I'm not going to stop wearing the ankle sleeve for awhile, until after I see the doctor next week. And probably for a week or two after that, just for the extra support.
The shift at the Zoo went well. We held the joey and a blue tongue skink, at different times, of course. It started to rain about 20 minutes before we were done. So Thea, the head keeper, came and got the joey, whose name is Fiona, about 5 minutes early. I tried to call hubby but his phone was off so I just kept trying. I walked down to the front of the Zoo and waited for him. I caught him just as he was getting ready to drive up to the Australian exhibit to pick me up. I surprised him by jumping into the car just as he was waiting for the gate to open!
He had had a stressful day, getting used to working for a new guy. The school is going through budget crisis and they might have to get rid of a person in his department. That stresses hubby out. And the guy that hubby is working for has all this extra work he wants hubby to do and hubby is trying to figure out when he can do it since he is so stretched as it is. But he vented to me on the way home and felt much better by the time we got home. He packed up some food to eat later since he has to work until 915pm, kissed me and left.
I spent the rest of the day and evening in the craft room. For a while I had the rattie boys in the bathroom with me running around. Tonight they got chicken, pasta and tomatoes. Plus their rattie food. The boys are getting much more comfortable with me and spent some time exploring the bathroom and me. I had a good time petting them and feeding them little tidbits.
Monday, June 15, 2015
Monday, June 15, 2015
Today was an early day. I started out the morning looking forward to walking my dogs with my neighbor's teenage daughter, Rose, at 9am. I set the alarm for 830am, to make sure I could wake up properly, nice and slow, then have time to get dressed and be ready for when she came over. So I got up, hubby got up, and I got dressed and waited for Rose but she didn't come. In the meantime hubby had gotten ready for work and took off. I waited and watched tv, tried to go back to sleep but to no avail. I figured that since she was so punctual last time she came over a week ago that maybe she had just forgotten since I told her last Tuesday that I wasn't going to walk until today. No harm, no foul, as they say. So I considered taking the dogs on my own but really didn't feel like taking two walks, one with the two small ones, Kira and Cookie, and then one with our big one, Baby. So I moved on downstairs to the kitchen.
By now it was lunch time and I was hungry since I didn't eat any breakfast. I fed the animals earlier and now it was my turn. I made a ham and swiss cheese sandwich and drank some of my wonderful iced tea that hubby was so kind as to make for me last night. We take a gallon size glass jar and put 2 Luzianne family sized ice tea bags in it then fill it up with cold water. Then we put the whole thing in the fridge and let it sit overnight. By morning, the tea is ready. Now I like my tea on the weak side, that's why I only use two family sized tea bags. So I drank a lot of tea.
Then I ate the rest of my large popcorn from the movies on Sunday. Seeing two movies made me eat most of the popcorn but I decided to finish off the rest of it. And save the container so I can take it back for the free refill as I am likely to do later in the week, or next Saturday.
Rose came over later in the afternoon to apologize for sleeping in and not coming over. I told her I should have reminded her when it was closer and it was fine. We set up Wednesday as the next day to meet at 9. I told her I understood from her dad that she was going to start babysitting and she told me she was going to save up money to get her own car next year. I told her in July I could start paying her $10 a week for helping me to walk. I will look at our finances and see if I could stretch it to $15 a week. But I think $10 for 3 times a week is fair for 30 minutes worth of work each day.
Hubby called and I told him we were out of lunch meat and cheese so he went to the store and got that and dog and cat wet food. He also picked up some roast beef and rolls. Then he brought everything home and we made him a couple of sandwiches to take with him to Denver.
I spent the rest of the night downstairs in the craft room, on the computer and playing with rattie boys. When I cleaned out their cage, I put them in the travel cage and took them up to the bathroom with me. I brought their evening food and hand fed then choice bits. They got some running around time and we got some good interaction. I pet and kissed them both.
Dinner was a tart cherry salad that hubby had picked up while he was at the grocery store. I fed the ratties some cheese, bacon and chicken. Hubby got home about 10pm. He has decided to take the day off tomorrow so I am hoping it will be a dry day, it's raining right now, and we can put up the two person swing I bought for the front yard. I have therapy in the morning then Holly and Abbey are supposed to come over for lunch.
By now it was lunch time and I was hungry since I didn't eat any breakfast. I fed the animals earlier and now it was my turn. I made a ham and swiss cheese sandwich and drank some of my wonderful iced tea that hubby was so kind as to make for me last night. We take a gallon size glass jar and put 2 Luzianne family sized ice tea bags in it then fill it up with cold water. Then we put the whole thing in the fridge and let it sit overnight. By morning, the tea is ready. Now I like my tea on the weak side, that's why I only use two family sized tea bags. So I drank a lot of tea.
Then I ate the rest of my large popcorn from the movies on Sunday. Seeing two movies made me eat most of the popcorn but I decided to finish off the rest of it. And save the container so I can take it back for the free refill as I am likely to do later in the week, or next Saturday.
Rose came over later in the afternoon to apologize for sleeping in and not coming over. I told her I should have reminded her when it was closer and it was fine. We set up Wednesday as the next day to meet at 9. I told her I understood from her dad that she was going to start babysitting and she told me she was going to save up money to get her own car next year. I told her in July I could start paying her $10 a week for helping me to walk. I will look at our finances and see if I could stretch it to $15 a week. But I think $10 for 3 times a week is fair for 30 minutes worth of work each day.
Hubby called and I told him we were out of lunch meat and cheese so he went to the store and got that and dog and cat wet food. He also picked up some roast beef and rolls. Then he brought everything home and we made him a couple of sandwiches to take with him to Denver.
I spent the rest of the night downstairs in the craft room, on the computer and playing with rattie boys. When I cleaned out their cage, I put them in the travel cage and took them up to the bathroom with me. I brought their evening food and hand fed then choice bits. They got some running around time and we got some good interaction. I pet and kissed them both.
Dinner was a tart cherry salad that hubby had picked up while he was at the grocery store. I fed the ratties some cheese, bacon and chicken. Hubby got home about 10pm. He has decided to take the day off tomorrow so I am hoping it will be a dry day, it's raining right now, and we can put up the two person swing I bought for the front yard. I have therapy in the morning then Holly and Abbey are supposed to come over for lunch.
Sunday, June 14, 2015
Sunday, June 14, 2015
Today was a Firsts day. I woke up early this morning and couldn't get back to sleep so I started reading my Slaying the Debt Dragon: How one family paid off $147,000 in debt in 4 years. I'm reading about the different techniques they applied to get that much debt paid off so fast. Then I'm going to talk to hubby about writing down all our debts and starting to tackle it. I don't think that hubby and I will go as far as not eating meat in order to save that money to put towards bills. But I am intrigued with the idea of being able to pay off all our debts and our mortgage in a quicker fashion than 30 years so hubby can retire before he turns 72.
Eventually I got up and heated up some Hearty Chicken Casserole for breakfast for us and then we jumped in the shower. Still using the hallway shower as this paycheck is all dedicated to paying bills and the Dentist bill, except for a small amount we were using for going to the movies today.
Hubby had to go to the school to let in someone that would otherwise not be able to gain access to the closed school. And then he had to gas up and turn in the rental truck. And do that on our own dime with having to wait until Thursday to get reimbursed. I hate that part about this company. Same thing about the food he had to buy for himself while he was up in Denver over the weekend for the school, but that's how it is done, so no use getting upset about it. We do get the money back, it just ties our money up for a while.
So I had to go to mass by myself. On my way there, I almost changed my mind, not wanting to go alone. But I went and I'm glad I did. Father Jim was talking about Contemplative Prayer, just meditating on God, not using words but focusing on things that God has created or done. I call it Basking in His Glory. And that is what I have been doing lately, not being able to really pray but just telling God, let me bask in your glory. I had been think that I haven't been praying like I used to and that I really need to do it more when I came to mass today. I'm glad I did come because this sermon was exactly what I needed to hear.
After mass, I turned my phone back on and called hubby. He was finished with everything and waiting for me at the truck rental place for me to pick him up. I made good time getting across town and met him in time to make the 230pm showing of Jurassic World, the latest Dino movie with Chris Pratt. It was good fun with fake science. If scientist ever get good enough to make dinosaurs, Lord help us! Their time is past and chaos will reign if they ever see the light of day again.
Seeing the movie was really good, it's been a while since hubby and I went out like this. We had a lot of fun watching the movie, sharing a large soda and a large popcorn with extra butter. When the movie was over I stopped in the restroom. While I did that, hubby took the time to ask the cleaning crew what time the movie San Andreas started. They said in 10 minutes. So when I came out of the restroom, hubby suggested that we, being middle aged, are invisible and to prove it, directed me in that theater. We walked in, past the same cleaning crew that hubby talked to when we exited the first movie, and sat down. I expected that at any moment, staff would come in and demand to see our ticket stubs. We would be called out as theives. But no such thing happened and we enjoyed a second movie!
Now lest you thing I do such a thing on a regular basis, this is the first time I have ever done something like this. And when I go to confession this coming Saturday, I shall be very contrite and accept my recompense.
It was a very good day with hubby. We had fun, got into a little mischief, and picked up some dinner to go.
Eventually I got up and heated up some Hearty Chicken Casserole for breakfast for us and then we jumped in the shower. Still using the hallway shower as this paycheck is all dedicated to paying bills and the Dentist bill, except for a small amount we were using for going to the movies today.
Hubby had to go to the school to let in someone that would otherwise not be able to gain access to the closed school. And then he had to gas up and turn in the rental truck. And do that on our own dime with having to wait until Thursday to get reimbursed. I hate that part about this company. Same thing about the food he had to buy for himself while he was up in Denver over the weekend for the school, but that's how it is done, so no use getting upset about it. We do get the money back, it just ties our money up for a while.
So I had to go to mass by myself. On my way there, I almost changed my mind, not wanting to go alone. But I went and I'm glad I did. Father Jim was talking about Contemplative Prayer, just meditating on God, not using words but focusing on things that God has created or done. I call it Basking in His Glory. And that is what I have been doing lately, not being able to really pray but just telling God, let me bask in your glory. I had been think that I haven't been praying like I used to and that I really need to do it more when I came to mass today. I'm glad I did come because this sermon was exactly what I needed to hear.
After mass, I turned my phone back on and called hubby. He was finished with everything and waiting for me at the truck rental place for me to pick him up. I made good time getting across town and met him in time to make the 230pm showing of Jurassic World, the latest Dino movie with Chris Pratt. It was good fun with fake science. If scientist ever get good enough to make dinosaurs, Lord help us! Their time is past and chaos will reign if they ever see the light of day again.
Seeing the movie was really good, it's been a while since hubby and I went out like this. We had a lot of fun watching the movie, sharing a large soda and a large popcorn with extra butter. When the movie was over I stopped in the restroom. While I did that, hubby took the time to ask the cleaning crew what time the movie San Andreas started. They said in 10 minutes. So when I came out of the restroom, hubby suggested that we, being middle aged, are invisible and to prove it, directed me in that theater. We walked in, past the same cleaning crew that hubby talked to when we exited the first movie, and sat down. I expected that at any moment, staff would come in and demand to see our ticket stubs. We would be called out as theives. But no such thing happened and we enjoyed a second movie!
Now lest you thing I do such a thing on a regular basis, this is the first time I have ever done something like this. And when I go to confession this coming Saturday, I shall be very contrite and accept my recompense.
It was a very good day with hubby. We had fun, got into a little mischief, and picked up some dinner to go.
Saturday, June 13, 2015
Saturday, June 13, 2015
Today was a satisfying day. Since hubby spent the night in Denver last night, I went to sleep with my nightstand light on, wearing my night mask. And I had the tv left on with the volume turned down to make up for not hearing him next to me at night. I slept ok, for being alone. I woke up at 7am with the dogs whining to go out so I got up and went downstairs to open the door and left it open. Then I came back upstairs to go back to sleep.
I woke up at 9, feeling good and looking forward to hearing from hubby sometime during the day. I got up, got dressed and fed all the beasties. Then I got out the cowl scarf I am making for Becky, Cassie's new mother-in-law. And I finished it. It took most of the day, working on it but now her first one is done. I was made out a special yarn, kind of fluffy and thick. I couldn't use my special stitch and the same stitch count I usually use to make my cowl scarves. I had to measure using the bigger cowl scarf I made hubby for Christmas. Now this yarn with using a double crochet came out very stiff. So I am hoping it will loosen it up by washing it in the washer. I'm hoping Becky will like it.
I have started a new prayer shawl so will be working on that next. I also have the project I am working on for myself, my Fern Moss Wrap. It's been a long time since I have worked on that. Then there is the second cowl scarf that Cassie asked me to make. So I will be dividing up my time working on these three projects in the coming days.
I thought I might go out and have breakfast or go out to lunch but decided that I would rather go to a movie with hubby when he got back. I want to see Jurasic World. I have seen the other movies and have recently become a Chris Pratt fan and he is in it, so it should be good fun. And we will buy a huge, large extra extra butter popcorn. I will take home the popcorn and eat it all, then bring my bucket back to get my free refill. High caloric intake but this craving will pass. All cravings eventually do. Though I haven't weighed myself in a while, my pants are still loose and I haven't been pigging out on anything. But tomorrow I'm going to weigh myself to see where I stand. Monday I will start walking the dogs again with Rose's help. I think my ankle is healed enough that I will be sore but I can power through it.
I didn't eat dinner tonight, just wasn't hungry. I had some fruit, some grapes earlier. I ate a cup of yogurt for breakfast then had a ham and swiss sandwich for lunch. I drank two cans of Pepsi.
I have started to feed Zeke and Dylan cheerios in the morning with two different kinds of fruit then their rat chow with two different kinds of veggies in the evening. No more runny stool! And tonight when I opened the cage door, both boys came out onto the craft table. They were so cute! After church tomorrow or after the movie, I will take the little guys and we will play in the bathroom so they can run around and get in some good exercise. And give them some cheese as a treat. When I went to tuck them in for the night, I still had the scent of velveta on my fingers and Zeke was very interested. He kept tasting my finger, a little too hard. And he didn't want to let go of it. Silly boy!
Hubby finally made it home by 11pm. That means he worked 53 hours this week so the paycheck at the first of the month will be very nice! I did do our budget, added in all the new bills for next month like the payback of the payday loans and the new IRS payment and my life insurance. Yes, that's right! I found a company that will insure me without too many medical questions. So I will have $25,000 life insurance policy. It's whole life but that's ok, it will stay with me for the rest of my life. But I added up all our bills for the second half of the month and all our paycheck is gone. We have just enough extra money to see the movie tomorrow. We will be able to pay the Dentist their full payment to make up for not being able to pay them last month. We will have a little bit of more money coming in on Wednesday when I get my social security payment but we will have to stick close to the budget.
I read an article on how to get out of the "I can't afford that!" mentality. And I think that is what hubby is into right now. He is so stressed out about money and to him, it seems like we can never get ahead. He is so upset about it. And the article explained that when you are constantly saying "I can't afford that." you are controlled by your finances. Being in control of your finances is looking at money and your bills in this manner. I choose to pay these bills instead of taking all my money and having a free for all at the Hooked on Books store. And I choose to have these comforts of a home, a car, and having my student loans forgiven, so I choose to pay my mortgage, my tax bill, my insurance and gas. The situation is still the same but it's an attitude adjustment. I'm thinking of printing out the article for hubby to read.
I woke up at 9, feeling good and looking forward to hearing from hubby sometime during the day. I got up, got dressed and fed all the beasties. Then I got out the cowl scarf I am making for Becky, Cassie's new mother-in-law. And I finished it. It took most of the day, working on it but now her first one is done. I was made out a special yarn, kind of fluffy and thick. I couldn't use my special stitch and the same stitch count I usually use to make my cowl scarves. I had to measure using the bigger cowl scarf I made hubby for Christmas. Now this yarn with using a double crochet came out very stiff. So I am hoping it will loosen it up by washing it in the washer. I'm hoping Becky will like it.
I have started a new prayer shawl so will be working on that next. I also have the project I am working on for myself, my Fern Moss Wrap. It's been a long time since I have worked on that. Then there is the second cowl scarf that Cassie asked me to make. So I will be dividing up my time working on these three projects in the coming days.
I thought I might go out and have breakfast or go out to lunch but decided that I would rather go to a movie with hubby when he got back. I want to see Jurasic World. I have seen the other movies and have recently become a Chris Pratt fan and he is in it, so it should be good fun. And we will buy a huge, large extra extra butter popcorn. I will take home the popcorn and eat it all, then bring my bucket back to get my free refill. High caloric intake but this craving will pass. All cravings eventually do. Though I haven't weighed myself in a while, my pants are still loose and I haven't been pigging out on anything. But tomorrow I'm going to weigh myself to see where I stand. Monday I will start walking the dogs again with Rose's help. I think my ankle is healed enough that I will be sore but I can power through it.
I didn't eat dinner tonight, just wasn't hungry. I had some fruit, some grapes earlier. I ate a cup of yogurt for breakfast then had a ham and swiss sandwich for lunch. I drank two cans of Pepsi.
I have started to feed Zeke and Dylan cheerios in the morning with two different kinds of fruit then their rat chow with two different kinds of veggies in the evening. No more runny stool! And tonight when I opened the cage door, both boys came out onto the craft table. They were so cute! After church tomorrow or after the movie, I will take the little guys and we will play in the bathroom so they can run around and get in some good exercise. And give them some cheese as a treat. When I went to tuck them in for the night, I still had the scent of velveta on my fingers and Zeke was very interested. He kept tasting my finger, a little too hard. And he didn't want to let go of it. Silly boy!
Hubby finally made it home by 11pm. That means he worked 53 hours this week so the paycheck at the first of the month will be very nice! I did do our budget, added in all the new bills for next month like the payback of the payday loans and the new IRS payment and my life insurance. Yes, that's right! I found a company that will insure me without too many medical questions. So I will have $25,000 life insurance policy. It's whole life but that's ok, it will stay with me for the rest of my life. But I added up all our bills for the second half of the month and all our paycheck is gone. We have just enough extra money to see the movie tomorrow. We will be able to pay the Dentist their full payment to make up for not being able to pay them last month. We will have a little bit of more money coming in on Wednesday when I get my social security payment but we will have to stick close to the budget.
I read an article on how to get out of the "I can't afford that!" mentality. And I think that is what hubby is into right now. He is so stressed out about money and to him, it seems like we can never get ahead. He is so upset about it. And the article explained that when you are constantly saying "I can't afford that." you are controlled by your finances. Being in control of your finances is looking at money and your bills in this manner. I choose to pay these bills instead of taking all my money and having a free for all at the Hooked on Books store. And I choose to have these comforts of a home, a car, and having my student loans forgiven, so I choose to pay my mortgage, my tax bill, my insurance and gas. The situation is still the same but it's an attitude adjustment. I'm thinking of printing out the article for hubby to read.
Friday, June 12, 2015
Friday, June 12, 2015
Today was a lonely day. Hubby had to leave this morning at 5am to drive to Denver, north Denver, in order to do Graduation for Colorado Technical University. This required that he take a 32 foot truck up there with everything needed for the Graduation and arrive up early in the morning. Then hubby had a 10 person crew to unload the truck and get it all set up. He set up a retail shop of memorabilia of the University and started selling.
I woke up at 9am and sat with the animals for a bit. Then I got up and got dressed, fed the animals and left. I had to go to the doctor's office to pick up hubby's prescription and drop it off at Walgreen's before my parents were due to pick me up at noon to take me to the Zoo. I managed to get it done and home in plenty of time.
I watched Maury while I was getting dressed to go work at the Zoo. I got distracted and forgot my name tag again but that was ok as Kay didn't have her name tag either. Mom and dad picked me up and took me to the Zoo because I so didn't want to walk up the hill again with my ankle and going in for the afternoon shift I would never find a parking space up in the employee area. So they dropped me off and went to the movies.
The afternoon shift was good. Our joey finally has a name, Fiona. And we got to hold her for an hour and a half today. Then we help the blue tongue skink. We got a lot of people to pet both and they were surprised at how each of them felt. It was a good afternoon.
Hubby called me when he finished his day at 730pm. He had checked into his hotel since he was spending the night up there. He got a great room on the 32nd floor and wanted to pee out the window. Silly man! We had a nice chat then he went to get some dinner.
He called me later when he was getting ready for bed. He had gotten bbq and brought it back to the room. I told him it was scary being alone and I missed him. Told him tonight I will be going to sleep with the lights on, wearing my night mask.
I woke up at 9am and sat with the animals for a bit. Then I got up and got dressed, fed the animals and left. I had to go to the doctor's office to pick up hubby's prescription and drop it off at Walgreen's before my parents were due to pick me up at noon to take me to the Zoo. I managed to get it done and home in plenty of time.
I watched Maury while I was getting dressed to go work at the Zoo. I got distracted and forgot my name tag again but that was ok as Kay didn't have her name tag either. Mom and dad picked me up and took me to the Zoo because I so didn't want to walk up the hill again with my ankle and going in for the afternoon shift I would never find a parking space up in the employee area. So they dropped me off and went to the movies.
The afternoon shift was good. Our joey finally has a name, Fiona. And we got to hold her for an hour and a half today. Then we help the blue tongue skink. We got a lot of people to pet both and they were surprised at how each of them felt. It was a good afternoon.
Hubby called me when he finished his day at 730pm. He had checked into his hotel since he was spending the night up there. He got a great room on the 32nd floor and wanted to pee out the window. Silly man! We had a nice chat then he went to get some dinner.
He called me later when he was getting ready for bed. He had gotten bbq and brought it back to the room. I told him it was scary being alone and I missed him. Told him tonight I will be going to sleep with the lights on, wearing my night mask.
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Today was a proud day. I had to get up at 730am in order to take hubby into Ryder Truck Rental so he could pick up his truck for work but I woke up just before 7 to pee and couldn't get back to sleep. Hubby also woke up when I sat up and got out of bed, asking me if I was alright. I told him I just had to pee and go back to sleep. But when I was done and back in bed, he tried and also failed to go back to sleep. He got up and went down to his office and I continued to lay here, just resting. Since I couldn't turn my mind off worrying about the rats, I had noticed some runny stool in their cage last night, I decided to read then go down and feed everybody. But first I decided to read a little of my book, determined to rest awhile longer.
When I finally go up, dressed with teeth brushed, I went downstairs and checked out the rats. Zeke and Dylan greeted me happily. They had eaten all of their new food overnight and I'm happy to say that I didn't see anymore runny stool. I pet them and fed them Cheerios and apple with nectarine.
I took hubby to Ryder so he could get his truck and dropped him off. Normally I tell him I would wait to make sure he gets his truck but this time I had my Prayer Shawl Meeting at Holy Apostle Catholic Church at 9am and I was in a hurry. So I kissed him goodbye and took off. Now here is when I mention to him that I forgot my phone at home so I told him I would just meet him at his office when I got done with my meeting at 1130am.
So I headed over to the church and discovered I was the first one there. I took out my shawl and started picking off the few animal hairs that made it through the wash and got it ready to turn over to Merium. My shawl was the 1655th shawl turned in since the church started their prayer shawl ministry. 2 other shawls were turned in at the same time. I got a lot of compliments on it. Then I started a new shawl in orange, a good fall color. Ruth and Emily sat next to me and we did carry on a good conversation. Ruth crochets also, showing me the way she did a double crochet to get a ridge. It was very pretty.
I was able to start several conversations and did well. I am getting to know people there. It's nice and now that we are meeting twice a month, I can remember more. And I didn't embarrass myself, which is always nice. I was proud of myself for finishing my first shawl and how I handled myself and also that I didn't experience any anxiety.
When I was done, I went back home to pick up my phone and call hubby to see if he was ready for me to pick him up or see if he wanted me to wait for a little bit. I'm glad I called as I found out that when I dropped him off he tried to pick up the truck and the corporate card wouldn't go through to pay for it. He was there for over an hour trying to get a hold of some higher up to process a card to pay for the truck but they were all in a meeting so he ended up calling one of the ladies that works for him to come pick him up and take him into the school. When I called he was just straightening out the situation and he said he would call me back later. I was on hold.
Later, when hubby called me back, they had gotten a corporate card and gone over to get the truck. They had just finished loading the truck and he would be driving it home himself shortly. Then he would be taking me out to dinner to Golden Corral, the all you can eat place. He got home about 2pm and we headed right out again in our car. The funny thing is hubby rents a UHaul or Ryder truck once a quarter and parks it in front of our house. Inevitably we get one neighbor or another asking if we are moving out, or if hubby is moving out. So funny!
Hubby and I are really tight on money and do have some bills that we are behind on paying, so you may ask, why did we go out to dinner? We did because hubby is leaving at 530am tomorrow morning and not coming back until Saturday night late. We try to do something special like eating out when we are going to be apart. That way we can focus on each other and talk, without the distraction of the animals and all the cooking and cleaning up.
We are trying to make an early night of it tonight so hubby can get some sleep before getting up so early. You really have to have all your faculties alert when you are driving a 32 foot truck!
When I finally go up, dressed with teeth brushed, I went downstairs and checked out the rats. Zeke and Dylan greeted me happily. They had eaten all of their new food overnight and I'm happy to say that I didn't see anymore runny stool. I pet them and fed them Cheerios and apple with nectarine.
I took hubby to Ryder so he could get his truck and dropped him off. Normally I tell him I would wait to make sure he gets his truck but this time I had my Prayer Shawl Meeting at Holy Apostle Catholic Church at 9am and I was in a hurry. So I kissed him goodbye and took off. Now here is when I mention to him that I forgot my phone at home so I told him I would just meet him at his office when I got done with my meeting at 1130am.
So I headed over to the church and discovered I was the first one there. I took out my shawl and started picking off the few animal hairs that made it through the wash and got it ready to turn over to Merium. My shawl was the 1655th shawl turned in since the church started their prayer shawl ministry. 2 other shawls were turned in at the same time. I got a lot of compliments on it. Then I started a new shawl in orange, a good fall color. Ruth and Emily sat next to me and we did carry on a good conversation. Ruth crochets also, showing me the way she did a double crochet to get a ridge. It was very pretty.
I was able to start several conversations and did well. I am getting to know people there. It's nice and now that we are meeting twice a month, I can remember more. And I didn't embarrass myself, which is always nice. I was proud of myself for finishing my first shawl and how I handled myself and also that I didn't experience any anxiety.
When I was done, I went back home to pick up my phone and call hubby to see if he was ready for me to pick him up or see if he wanted me to wait for a little bit. I'm glad I called as I found out that when I dropped him off he tried to pick up the truck and the corporate card wouldn't go through to pay for it. He was there for over an hour trying to get a hold of some higher up to process a card to pay for the truck but they were all in a meeting so he ended up calling one of the ladies that works for him to come pick him up and take him into the school. When I called he was just straightening out the situation and he said he would call me back later. I was on hold.
Later, when hubby called me back, they had gotten a corporate card and gone over to get the truck. They had just finished loading the truck and he would be driving it home himself shortly. Then he would be taking me out to dinner to Golden Corral, the all you can eat place. He got home about 2pm and we headed right out again in our car. The funny thing is hubby rents a UHaul or Ryder truck once a quarter and parks it in front of our house. Inevitably we get one neighbor or another asking if we are moving out, or if hubby is moving out. So funny!
Hubby and I are really tight on money and do have some bills that we are behind on paying, so you may ask, why did we go out to dinner? We did because hubby is leaving at 530am tomorrow morning and not coming back until Saturday night late. We try to do something special like eating out when we are going to be apart. That way we can focus on each other and talk, without the distraction of the animals and all the cooking and cleaning up.
We are trying to make an early night of it tonight so hubby can get some sleep before getting up so early. You really have to have all your faculties alert when you are driving a 32 foot truck!
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
Today was a reading day. I woke up this morning around 930am, hubby was doing his morning constitutional. Then he went downstairs for a little to spend some time in his office, which he likes to do as part of his waking up process. I got up and turned on the tv and watched Steve Harvey. I like his show. He is a good host and comes across as a fine family man, never talking bad about his wife or family. Believes in family values and helps women find good men to date that have bad dating patterns. Then I watched the Price is Right with Drew Carey. I like to guess and play the games along with the contestants. Today I came within $800 of the showcase and would have won.
Hubby had to go to work so he showered and shaved, got dressed and kissed me goodbye. I told him I loved him and sent him off with a smile. I told him I would feed the beasties and I did. Then I got on the computer and wrote a little more of a letter to my nephew Robbie. I have to get it printed out and mailed to him. But I have to print out the letter, put it in an envelope and get hubby to take it into work to weigh it and mail it as I don't have any stamps. But hubby is doing graduation for work, which means tomorrow I will take him in to get a truck from Ryder. I will drop him off at Ryder so he can pick up the truck and drive it to work. I will then go onto my prayer shawl meeting and turn in the shawl I finished. I am so proud of myself, this is the first shawl I have ever finished! I have been working on another shawl for myself that I haven't finished yet so need to get that done but this shawl I really love! Tonight hubby is going to get the camera and we are going to take a picture of it so I can put it in a scrapbook and keep track of all the things that I make. Then tomorrow I will turn it in at the Prayer Shawl Meeting at my church. It will be hard to give it up! But I will have my pictures to keep. I am working on a cowl scarf for Becky, my daughter's mother in law. It's funny to say my daughter has a mother in law as she just got married on May 16th. It's funny to think of my daughter, Cassie, as a grown up and going to have children in the next 5 years.
I'm adding my first picture ever to this blog of me with my prayer shawl that I finished! Hubby showed me how to do it. It was funny as when hubby was taking the picture, Cookie came out of the bedroom and just chose to sit down next to me, facing the camera. She is such an intense dog, it was really touching. I love my little Cookie-bear!
You can also see some of the clutter I have going on in the hallway of our upstairs, all the movies we have stacked up on the child's rolltop desk I bought at an auction for the hall. I really need to get the books and movies all put away. I think I will do that tomorrow. But I went to the auction just after we bought the house and as soon as I saw the child's rolltop desk, I knew it would be perfect for my hallway. I also bid on and bought a postage stamp baby quilt. You can see it up on the wall. Each piece of material is cut out about one inch square and sewn together. So much work for so tiny a project! I think about quilting every once in a while but then I think that I really don't want to do quilting per se, I want to do a free style picture. Where I cut out material and make a scene. Someday I will see if I can do it. Then you pin it all together and sew it.
Hubby came home for lunch as he was in Colorado Springs today. We had a really nice lunch and he brought me a Cherry Pepsi from Kum and Go. We got a little busy, a little "afternoon delight" so to say and I sent him back to work with a smile on his face.
I spent the rest of the afternoon not doing much, crocheting a little, working on Cassie's mother in law's cowl scarf. I read for awhile. I watched tv and Netflix. Later, I fed the beasties and played with the rats a little. I'm trying to give them some space but still practice what I am learning in videos about rats from YouTube. They are a little freaked out about the dogs barking and whining every time I go over to the cage so I am letting all the animals get used to each other. One of the rats seems to be having a reaction to the new tropical food that we bought so I am trying to keep an eye on them. I don't want them to get sick and die. Also I think I am feeding them too much as they don't seem eager when I feed them twice a day. Also they didn't eat all their packaged food. Tomorrow I am going to clean out the food and give them some cheerios and apple to eat. Today when I fed them apple and pear, the ate all the apple and left the pear. I also have some nectarine I bought to offer them.
Now that I know how to post pics on my blog and how to download my camera, I am hoping to start adding pics to here more often. Slowly I am learning. Maybe I can start doing housework and decluttering then post before and after pics. Something to think about.
Hubby had to go to work so he showered and shaved, got dressed and kissed me goodbye. I told him I loved him and sent him off with a smile. I told him I would feed the beasties and I did. Then I got on the computer and wrote a little more of a letter to my nephew Robbie. I have to get it printed out and mailed to him. But I have to print out the letter, put it in an envelope and get hubby to take it into work to weigh it and mail it as I don't have any stamps. But hubby is doing graduation for work, which means tomorrow I will take him in to get a truck from Ryder. I will drop him off at Ryder so he can pick up the truck and drive it to work. I will then go onto my prayer shawl meeting and turn in the shawl I finished. I am so proud of myself, this is the first shawl I have ever finished! I have been working on another shawl for myself that I haven't finished yet so need to get that done but this shawl I really love! Tonight hubby is going to get the camera and we are going to take a picture of it so I can put it in a scrapbook and keep track of all the things that I make. Then tomorrow I will turn it in at the Prayer Shawl Meeting at my church. It will be hard to give it up! But I will have my pictures to keep. I am working on a cowl scarf for Becky, my daughter's mother in law. It's funny to say my daughter has a mother in law as she just got married on May 16th. It's funny to think of my daughter, Cassie, as a grown up and going to have children in the next 5 years.
I'm adding my first picture ever to this blog of me with my prayer shawl that I finished! Hubby showed me how to do it. It was funny as when hubby was taking the picture, Cookie came out of the bedroom and just chose to sit down next to me, facing the camera. She is such an intense dog, it was really touching. I love my little Cookie-bear!
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| Me and my dog, Cookie |
You can also see some of the clutter I have going on in the hallway of our upstairs, all the movies we have stacked up on the child's rolltop desk I bought at an auction for the hall. I really need to get the books and movies all put away. I think I will do that tomorrow. But I went to the auction just after we bought the house and as soon as I saw the child's rolltop desk, I knew it would be perfect for my hallway. I also bid on and bought a postage stamp baby quilt. You can see it up on the wall. Each piece of material is cut out about one inch square and sewn together. So much work for so tiny a project! I think about quilting every once in a while but then I think that I really don't want to do quilting per se, I want to do a free style picture. Where I cut out material and make a scene. Someday I will see if I can do it. Then you pin it all together and sew it.
Hubby came home for lunch as he was in Colorado Springs today. We had a really nice lunch and he brought me a Cherry Pepsi from Kum and Go. We got a little busy, a little "afternoon delight" so to say and I sent him back to work with a smile on his face.
I spent the rest of the afternoon not doing much, crocheting a little, working on Cassie's mother in law's cowl scarf. I read for awhile. I watched tv and Netflix. Later, I fed the beasties and played with the rats a little. I'm trying to give them some space but still practice what I am learning in videos about rats from YouTube. They are a little freaked out about the dogs barking and whining every time I go over to the cage so I am letting all the animals get used to each other. One of the rats seems to be having a reaction to the new tropical food that we bought so I am trying to keep an eye on them. I don't want them to get sick and die. Also I think I am feeding them too much as they don't seem eager when I feed them twice a day. Also they didn't eat all their packaged food. Tomorrow I am going to clean out the food and give them some cheerios and apple to eat. Today when I fed them apple and pear, the ate all the apple and left the pear. I also have some nectarine I bought to offer them.
Now that I know how to post pics on my blog and how to download my camera, I am hoping to start adding pics to here more often. Slowly I am learning. Maybe I can start doing housework and decluttering then post before and after pics. Something to think about.
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Today was a discovery day. I slept in until I had to get up and go to therapy, about 930am. Hubby woke me up when the alarm went off as a lot of time I don't hear the alarm. I got dressed, pput on my ankle sleeve and sandals and left.
I talked to Steve, my therapist, about the frequency of how often I think of suicide, most every day. Not that I plan to do it, in fact I have promised Steve, hubby and myself that I wouldn't. But I still think about it. It happens or comes to me just out of the blue sometimes. Sometimes it is triggered by my exposure to suicide. And by exposure, I mean it is either brought up by a movie (Virgin Suicides), an actual suicide of a person we know or something like that.
Steve asked me to describe how I see my relationship with suicide thoughts and I told him it's like a romance. They come on suddenly and flirt, then they cause feelings like how would hubby react if I did this? What would my daughter think? Then life goes on and I am thinking about something else. Steve told me to pray when I have such thoughts. Look at it, hold it and let it open up to me, where is the thought coming from? Am I angry? Am I feeling insignificant? Lonely? Not that I know of.
Then I went home, catching hubby mowing the backyard, so I made sandwiches for lunch. Hubby said he was overheated when he came in and couldn't eat so I put his in the fridge. When hubby took me to the Zoo at noon, he ate his sandwich on the way. We stopped at my favorite place in the world, Kum and Go. I got a Cherry Pepsi and took it with me to the Zoo. I was playing Docent holding the joey and Australian lizards again. Fun!
After 3 hours at the Zoo, I met hubby down in front of the place and we stopped at Tinseltown to get the free refill on my large popcorn, then we went home. I cleaned the rats' cage and fed them and the beasties. I was tired but happy. But my ankle was pretty sore so I went next door, talked to Rose, and cancelled walking the dogs until next week.
I talked to Steve, my therapist, about the frequency of how often I think of suicide, most every day. Not that I plan to do it, in fact I have promised Steve, hubby and myself that I wouldn't. But I still think about it. It happens or comes to me just out of the blue sometimes. Sometimes it is triggered by my exposure to suicide. And by exposure, I mean it is either brought up by a movie (Virgin Suicides), an actual suicide of a person we know or something like that.
Steve asked me to describe how I see my relationship with suicide thoughts and I told him it's like a romance. They come on suddenly and flirt, then they cause feelings like how would hubby react if I did this? What would my daughter think? Then life goes on and I am thinking about something else. Steve told me to pray when I have such thoughts. Look at it, hold it and let it open up to me, where is the thought coming from? Am I angry? Am I feeling insignificant? Lonely? Not that I know of.
Then I went home, catching hubby mowing the backyard, so I made sandwiches for lunch. Hubby said he was overheated when he came in and couldn't eat so I put his in the fridge. When hubby took me to the Zoo at noon, he ate his sandwich on the way. We stopped at my favorite place in the world, Kum and Go. I got a Cherry Pepsi and took it with me to the Zoo. I was playing Docent holding the joey and Australian lizards again. Fun!
After 3 hours at the Zoo, I met hubby down in front of the place and we stopped at Tinseltown to get the free refill on my large popcorn, then we went home. I cleaned the rats' cage and fed them and the beasties. I was tired but happy. But my ankle was pretty sore so I went next door, talked to Rose, and cancelled walking the dogs until next week.
Monday, June 8, 2015
Monday, June 8, 2015
Today was a home day. Since hubby was going to Denver in the afternoon for a couple of hours today, I stayed home. So I was going to sleep in but when hubby was getting ready to leave, I woke up and was unable to go back to sleep. Now he left about 730am, so I got down my book and read until 1030. No tv, just reading. Silence. And I was ok. I have been pushing my time away from tv, trying to spend more time in my craft room, where there is no tv. I do take my computer down and play on it down there, turn on Netflix and Hulu. Hubby has told me how to find the free movies on Amazon and I am going to try that sometime. My thought is this, get used to spending time downstairs on the computer, away from tv, and when I am used to that, then I will try doing things in my craft room, like clean off my shelves and unpack the boxes of material. Baby steps.
I read my book until 1, when Rose and Soong Jung came over from next door. I had talked to Rose, after getting her father's permission, about helping me walk my dogs everyday for access to my jewelry making items; beads, wire, thread and closures. Soong Jung is her mother. So they came over and we walked the dogs today, the first day since I sprained my ankle. Today was a testing day to see if I could walk now and get back into it. It worked! I took a short break at the park but other than that I walked just fine. My ankle was a little sore afterwards but it worked out ok. Soong Jung and I talked while Rose went through my beads and collected some to work with. I sent her home with a sandwich baggie full. This week we are going on walks for 3 days. Tomorrow I can't walk, I have therapy in the morning, then working at the Zoo in the afternoon from 1 to 4pm, holding the joey.
The walk took a lot out of me. By the time we got back, I was covered in sweat, my face, my hair. I knew it was warm outside but didn't think it was that hot. The dogs' tongues were definitely hanging low by the time we got home so I told Rose that we would walk again on Wednesday at 9am. That means I need to get up earlier than I normally would but I think it will be easier on me and the dogs.
I got a call from my insurance company that they had found out who was the insurance carrier for the car that hit me and ran, and they had opened up a file with them. My agent gave me the information and I called them directly. We did a recorded statement and I found out that the driver hadn't gotten in touch with their insurance provider yet so they were still in the dark. They had filed for the police report and were waiting on that before they could authorize my claim yet. We ended the call with me checking in with her next week to see what the status is.
Hubby called me on his way to Denver, telling me he was having a productive day and was in very fine spirits. He was in a great mood and was looking forward to being home early today, around 530pm. Since he already made the Hearty Chicken Casserole a couple of days ago, that's what we were having for dinner, the evening was free. When he got home, we put some of the casserole on a pie pan and in the oven to heat up. Then he went down to the office to decompress and I cleaned out the rat cage and played with my boys. I took turns riding Dylan and Zeke around on my shoulders and when I straightened out the cage blanket, I added a hammock for them to sleep in. I think I am going to add a top cover for the hammock so they will have a little hidey hole, a little snugglely place to sleep. I think it may take them a little to get used to it.
I spent the early part the evening watching YouTube videos about training my rats, comforting them, daily cleaning rituals for them and how to feed them. I learned that rats need protein like scrambled eggs and such 3 times a week. Also how to hold them so they feel secure and how to pet them so they will feel you grooming them. Very helpful things. Then my mom called and we had a nice chat. I was expecting Cassie to call like she usually does but she didn't. I miss her but she probably ended up talking to Miranda or someone else. I left her a message on Facebook and told her I loved her and would talk to her soon. She is busy spending time with her mother-in-law who will be leaving soon for Italy. Though she will be gone for 3-5 years, she will be back to visit and I'm sure they will skype too.
Then I went upstairs and cuddled with my wonderful hubby.
I read my book until 1, when Rose and Soong Jung came over from next door. I had talked to Rose, after getting her father's permission, about helping me walk my dogs everyday for access to my jewelry making items; beads, wire, thread and closures. Soong Jung is her mother. So they came over and we walked the dogs today, the first day since I sprained my ankle. Today was a testing day to see if I could walk now and get back into it. It worked! I took a short break at the park but other than that I walked just fine. My ankle was a little sore afterwards but it worked out ok. Soong Jung and I talked while Rose went through my beads and collected some to work with. I sent her home with a sandwich baggie full. This week we are going on walks for 3 days. Tomorrow I can't walk, I have therapy in the morning, then working at the Zoo in the afternoon from 1 to 4pm, holding the joey.
The walk took a lot out of me. By the time we got back, I was covered in sweat, my face, my hair. I knew it was warm outside but didn't think it was that hot. The dogs' tongues were definitely hanging low by the time we got home so I told Rose that we would walk again on Wednesday at 9am. That means I need to get up earlier than I normally would but I think it will be easier on me and the dogs.
I got a call from my insurance company that they had found out who was the insurance carrier for the car that hit me and ran, and they had opened up a file with them. My agent gave me the information and I called them directly. We did a recorded statement and I found out that the driver hadn't gotten in touch with their insurance provider yet so they were still in the dark. They had filed for the police report and were waiting on that before they could authorize my claim yet. We ended the call with me checking in with her next week to see what the status is.
Hubby called me on his way to Denver, telling me he was having a productive day and was in very fine spirits. He was in a great mood and was looking forward to being home early today, around 530pm. Since he already made the Hearty Chicken Casserole a couple of days ago, that's what we were having for dinner, the evening was free. When he got home, we put some of the casserole on a pie pan and in the oven to heat up. Then he went down to the office to decompress and I cleaned out the rat cage and played with my boys. I took turns riding Dylan and Zeke around on my shoulders and when I straightened out the cage blanket, I added a hammock for them to sleep in. I think I am going to add a top cover for the hammock so they will have a little hidey hole, a little snugglely place to sleep. I think it may take them a little to get used to it.
I spent the early part the evening watching YouTube videos about training my rats, comforting them, daily cleaning rituals for them and how to feed them. I learned that rats need protein like scrambled eggs and such 3 times a week. Also how to hold them so they feel secure and how to pet them so they will feel you grooming them. Very helpful things. Then my mom called and we had a nice chat. I was expecting Cassie to call like she usually does but she didn't. I miss her but she probably ended up talking to Miranda or someone else. I left her a message on Facebook and told her I loved her and would talk to her soon. She is busy spending time with her mother-in-law who will be leaving soon for Italy. Though she will be gone for 3-5 years, she will be back to visit and I'm sure they will skype too.
Then I went upstairs and cuddled with my wonderful hubby.
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