Today was a good day. I woke up at 1030am and remembered my dream. It was unusual about these babies that monks would take out and put in public. These were special babies that only the monks knew where they came from. The babies were silent, make no sounds whatsoever. They were considered holy and were left in various places by the monks. People would see them and some would take care of them. They were like regular babies but grew into creatures that looked like humans but were the size of spider monkeys. They were as agile as spider monkeys. But they started out as babies. There was one that an asian woman found in a cemetery. She spent all all her time with the baby. You couldn't take the babies home, they had to stay in the public. No harm ever came to them. My sister, Collette, was doing a documentary on one that she found. I was the person to take care of it and she filmed it. The babies were always girls. I loved the baby, wanted the baby for my very own. I would feed her and hold her. She turned into an agile girl the size of a spider monkey. She would jump onto my shoulder and onto my arms. That's when I woke up. I had prayed to God and asked him to talk to me and this is the message he sent. I am going to talk to Father Paul and see what it means. If Father Paul can't help me figure it out, then I will talk to Steve, my therapist.
After I wrote my morning pages, I ate some breakfast then went upstairs and got dressed. I made the bed then came back downstairs. I got on the computer and read some Debbie McComber. I wrote a little bit of a letter to my nephew, who is in prison. I printed out a letter to him and mailed it off to him. I checked on my orders on Amazon, my Zero Belly Diet book and my two other adult coloring books. Those are not pornography but are detailed pictures that are meant to be colored in by gel pens or colored pencils. I had ordered gel pens and another adult coloring book and gotten them already. I started reading a companion book to the Dining on a Dime Cookbook called Quick & Easy Menus on a Dime - delicious, affordable meals in 30 minutes or less. When they talk about 30 minutes or less, she is talking about 30 minutes before you cook the meal. And that doesn't include prep work you may have to do earlier in the day, like cutting up veggies or the meat.
Today I was trying to figure out what to make with the white meat of the chicken I boned yesterday. I finally decided to ask hubby to make chicken spaghetti when he got home so I called him. He said sure and went back to work. When he came home he said that he didn't feel like cooking and cleaning the kitchen so he wanted to take me out to dinner. We got paid today so I said ok, and we went to Village Inn. We had a nice dinner and had good service. We ordered a couple of pieces of pie to take home and left. We went to my parents to take my mom some fingerless gloves I forgot to give her when they dropped by my house earlier. I had them made for my mom by my cousin Coleen. Mom liked them so much she is paying Coleen to make her 4 more pairs. They are going to trade a pair for a potato bag, which is a special bag to cook potatoes and sweet potatoes in the microwave.
Tomorrow I am going to meet with Father Paul again. I have a couple of questions to ask him. Why do we pray to Mother Mary and the saints to intercede on our behalf to God? Isn't that like praying to another God? If we can pray directly to God, why do we need to go through another person?
After my meeting with Father Paul, then I am going to an Estate Sale that is being held down the street from my parents' place. Mom says the woman was a size 4 but I definitely am not but I am going to look for clothes that I can use to make fabric flowers for Cassie's and Becky's bouquets. Hubby is going to spend the day cleaning and wants me out of the house for most of it. I will do my best to abide him.
Friday, January 30, 2015
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
Today was a home day, I woke up just before 10, thinking I told my friend I would be up and dressed by then, but I wasn't. She wasn't coming over, she had emailed me her forms and texted me her information to be printed on the forms before printing them. I offered to let hubby print her flyers for her event at the home show this weekend. It is taking a couple of hours after work but hubby is doing it. Then he needs to cut 500 papers in quarters for her drawing. This was a special favor for me that hubby is doing. I am having this done for my friend because she is trying to earn extra money and doesn't have the money to spend on printing right now.
Anyways, I got up and did my morning pages, trying to do something I read about in the Catholic Times, ow whatever it was called. A woman talks to God, and God talks back to her. She recommends that you do journalling. You sit before a page and pray, then write down your questions to God. Then you pray and when you stop thinking about all the answers you have, whatever comes up next is from God. I journalled about forgiveness. About how I was forgiven by God and the Church and know that I need to follow suit and forgive those in my past. I prayed and thought about the the question and came up with a story I read in the bible about a man going to his master, a man he owes a great deal of money to. He pled his case that he could not pay the man back and the master forgave the man his debt. The man went home. There he encountered a man who owed him money. The man demanded that this other man pay him what he was owed. Now this is the part I am a little foggy about but I think the man have the other man arrested and put into debtor's prison. When the master heard what the man had done, he called him to come see him. I forgave you your debt when you said you could not pay me what was owe, the master said, but when faced with the same situation, you threw the man in debtor's prison. Now I revoke my forgiveness and you shall be thrown in debtor's prison, and the man was led away. In order for me to receive forgiveness, I must forgive those that trespass against me, as we say in The Lord's Prayer. When I meet with Father Paul on Saturday, it is one of the things I will talk to him about. And I will pray about it.
I did get dressed and out of the bedroom to downstairs today. The dogs were much happier and so was I. Hubby called me several times and we love chatted. He was going to come home for a late lunch so I offered to make dinner for him to eat when he came. He thought that would be very nice and so I made the beef stroganoff I have been trying to make for the last week. I used the recipe from Dining on a Dime cookbook and added to it to truly make it a full balance dinner. We didn't have salad stuff so I added an onion to it, along with adding canned peas just before I served. Let it heat up a little and it was good. I almost forgot to cook the noodles. I was standing at the stove, had my cookbook sitting on the stove while I measured the ingrediants. When the noodles started to boil over, I reached up and turned them down. At least that is what I thought I did, but what I actually did was turn on the burner my cookbook was sitting on. I burned my book badly and melted the the binding. Tomorrow I will see if the book has dried and then I will see if it is still usable. I am going to reorder it as it is a really good book.
Anyway, I made some substitutions in the recipe. It called for cream of mushroom soup and I used cream of celery, since I don't like mushrooms. The trick is not to add the sour cream until about 10 minutes before you serve it. The noodles were ice cold by the time hubby got home, he got delayed and I had set the table, lit a candle and dished up the noodles while I waited for him, expecting him to come in at any time. We zapped the noodles in the microwave and we put the beef stroganoff on top. He loved it! And I felt good that I was able to feed my hubby. It was a good feeling that I want to have again, so I am going to try to make dinner on a regular basis. And he said that when he went back to work, he was feeling really good, the meal was a good thing. It brought some peace into his hectic day.
The only thing I didn't do was make the cake I was going to make and I will do that tomorrow. I pulled out a whole chicken so I can boil it down tomorrow and make a chicken barely soup for dinner. I am going to look a bread recipe for the breadmaker and do that too. I want to make my hubby happy and I want to have the meal ready for when he comes home for lunch. That is my goal for tomorrow.
Anyways, I got up and did my morning pages, trying to do something I read about in the Catholic Times, ow whatever it was called. A woman talks to God, and God talks back to her. She recommends that you do journalling. You sit before a page and pray, then write down your questions to God. Then you pray and when you stop thinking about all the answers you have, whatever comes up next is from God. I journalled about forgiveness. About how I was forgiven by God and the Church and know that I need to follow suit and forgive those in my past. I prayed and thought about the the question and came up with a story I read in the bible about a man going to his master, a man he owes a great deal of money to. He pled his case that he could not pay the man back and the master forgave the man his debt. The man went home. There he encountered a man who owed him money. The man demanded that this other man pay him what he was owed. Now this is the part I am a little foggy about but I think the man have the other man arrested and put into debtor's prison. When the master heard what the man had done, he called him to come see him. I forgave you your debt when you said you could not pay me what was owe, the master said, but when faced with the same situation, you threw the man in debtor's prison. Now I revoke my forgiveness and you shall be thrown in debtor's prison, and the man was led away. In order for me to receive forgiveness, I must forgive those that trespass against me, as we say in The Lord's Prayer. When I meet with Father Paul on Saturday, it is one of the things I will talk to him about. And I will pray about it.
I did get dressed and out of the bedroom to downstairs today. The dogs were much happier and so was I. Hubby called me several times and we love chatted. He was going to come home for a late lunch so I offered to make dinner for him to eat when he came. He thought that would be very nice and so I made the beef stroganoff I have been trying to make for the last week. I used the recipe from Dining on a Dime cookbook and added to it to truly make it a full balance dinner. We didn't have salad stuff so I added an onion to it, along with adding canned peas just before I served. Let it heat up a little and it was good. I almost forgot to cook the noodles. I was standing at the stove, had my cookbook sitting on the stove while I measured the ingrediants. When the noodles started to boil over, I reached up and turned them down. At least that is what I thought I did, but what I actually did was turn on the burner my cookbook was sitting on. I burned my book badly and melted the the binding. Tomorrow I will see if the book has dried and then I will see if it is still usable. I am going to reorder it as it is a really good book.
Anyway, I made some substitutions in the recipe. It called for cream of mushroom soup and I used cream of celery, since I don't like mushrooms. The trick is not to add the sour cream until about 10 minutes before you serve it. The noodles were ice cold by the time hubby got home, he got delayed and I had set the table, lit a candle and dished up the noodles while I waited for him, expecting him to come in at any time. We zapped the noodles in the microwave and we put the beef stroganoff on top. He loved it! And I felt good that I was able to feed my hubby. It was a good feeling that I want to have again, so I am going to try to make dinner on a regular basis. And he said that when he went back to work, he was feeling really good, the meal was a good thing. It brought some peace into his hectic day.
The only thing I didn't do was make the cake I was going to make and I will do that tomorrow. I pulled out a whole chicken so I can boil it down tomorrow and make a chicken barely soup for dinner. I am going to look a bread recipe for the breadmaker and do that too. I want to make my hubby happy and I want to have the meal ready for when he comes home for lunch. That is my goal for tomorrow.
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Today was a busy day. I had to get up and out of the house by 745 this morning to be able to drop hubby off at work at 8 and get to my doctor's appointment by 815. I was told by the receptionist to be there at 815 even though my appointment wasn't until 845. She said I had paperwork to fill out in advance, so I show up at 815. The paperwork to fill out? A half page. She verified almost my entire file of personal information and even wanted both of my insurance cards. Sheesh! I was getting ticked off by the time she was done. I guess they need to do that for the new year but really!
I had a doctor's appointment with an Orthopedist because my left shin aches in the middle when weight is applied. I mentioned it to my general doctor and she thought I should see the specialist. So they do call me back into the waiting room a couple of minutes before my appointment and then the medical assistant took my vitals. My weight was up, 200.6lbs. My blood pressure was a little high but I can blame that on the check-in girl. Not that she was a girl, she was a woman but I didn't like her.
They gave me a pair of disposable shorts to put on so the doctor could see my shin. I just got changed and sat down to text my friend to complain about how long I thought I was going to have to wait when there was a knock at the door and the doctor comes in with his assistant. He listened to me, had me walk, had me jump up and lay down on the table. There he poked and prodded my shin. He found a couple of lumps and they were painful. He looked at the xray but didn't see much of anything, so he is ordering an MRI. And because we have had my mom, my aunt and my gramma diagnosed with Osteopina, he also ordered a bone density test. Since he is a surgeon, I will follow up with the nurse practitioner mid-February.
After I finished with the doctor's, I had time to get to my therapy appointment but I had already called and cancelled because I didn't think I would be done on time. I got out of there about an hour after I went in. So when I left, I went back to Hobby Lobby. I found another floral bouquet marked down to $8.50, some ribbon for 50% off and some fabric glue for regular price. So I whipped out my handy smart phone and got a coupon to use for the fabric glue, 40% off. Yeah, everything I got was marked down! Score!!!
I managed to get back to hubby's work and we drove me home and dropped me off. He was taking a short lunch so only stayed a moment. I made some lunch and took my Pepsi and when upstairs to the computer. And that is where I spent the rest of my day, watching tv and playing on the computer.
I had a doctor's appointment with an Orthopedist because my left shin aches in the middle when weight is applied. I mentioned it to my general doctor and she thought I should see the specialist. So they do call me back into the waiting room a couple of minutes before my appointment and then the medical assistant took my vitals. My weight was up, 200.6lbs. My blood pressure was a little high but I can blame that on the check-in girl. Not that she was a girl, she was a woman but I didn't like her.
They gave me a pair of disposable shorts to put on so the doctor could see my shin. I just got changed and sat down to text my friend to complain about how long I thought I was going to have to wait when there was a knock at the door and the doctor comes in with his assistant. He listened to me, had me walk, had me jump up and lay down on the table. There he poked and prodded my shin. He found a couple of lumps and they were painful. He looked at the xray but didn't see much of anything, so he is ordering an MRI. And because we have had my mom, my aunt and my gramma diagnosed with Osteopina, he also ordered a bone density test. Since he is a surgeon, I will follow up with the nurse practitioner mid-February.
After I finished with the doctor's, I had time to get to my therapy appointment but I had already called and cancelled because I didn't think I would be done on time. I got out of there about an hour after I went in. So when I left, I went back to Hobby Lobby. I found another floral bouquet marked down to $8.50, some ribbon for 50% off and some fabric glue for regular price. So I whipped out my handy smart phone and got a coupon to use for the fabric glue, 40% off. Yeah, everything I got was marked down! Score!!!
I managed to get back to hubby's work and we drove me home and dropped me off. He was taking a short lunch so only stayed a moment. I made some lunch and took my Pepsi and when upstairs to the computer. And that is where I spent the rest of my day, watching tv and playing on the computer.
Monday, January 26, 2015
Monday, January 26, 2015
Today was an exhilarating day. I got up, showered, got dressed and made it out of the house by 830 this morning! I felt good, I felt ready to get on with the day. I was dropping hubby off at work and driving over to Judithmary's house. She is the Queen of our Red Hat Chapter, The Ladies of the Red and Purple Cloth. She just had a procedure to put in a pace maker in on Thursday and she wanted to come over. She had called me on Sunday, my oops, I forgot to call her on Saturday, and told me that she had a gout attack right after the surgery. Hubby has gout and talked to Judithmary. He recommended that she drink lots and lots of cherry juice, it will help flush the crystals out of the joint. So when I arrived today, imagine my surprise that Judithmary answered the door herself, and was walking around quite well. She said to give hubby a hug because the cherry juice really worked and she was able to get around without much problem. We walked into her craft room and she showed me the bulky yarns she had gotten, red and purple yarn. She wanted me to see if I could make a shawl out of the purple and trim it in the red bulky yarn. I told her to get another 4 skeins of the purple and I would take the two she had and get started. I have a general design in my mind for the shawl, and I am going to practice it on some practice yarn, scrap yarn first to make sure I can do what I am thinking. She wants it holey, loose and airy. The holey and loose are capable but the airy can't be done with chunky yarn. I will do my best.
She really was feeling good, the implantation of the pacemaker was giving her extra energy and she was fighting at the bit to go to the store, the arts and craft store, Hobby Lobby. She wanted to get some stuff for the dolls she has been turning into Red Hat Dolls. We whisked away in her SUV, and landed in Hobby Lobby. While she was shopping, we went down one isle that had floral bouquets with rhinestone buttons on them, just what I was looking at on the button shelf. Buying the rhinestone buttons individually would be $3.99 each, where as I could buy a purple daisy floral bouquet with 5 flowers, each having a rhinestone button in the center, for $8.50. Sold! I should have looked for a second one, but I am going back tomorrow and will see if I can find another one marked down, I need the buttons. I also need flower wire and styrofoam balls to use to make the pinecone bouquet I am making for my daughter. The styrofoam balls are to put the fabric flowers on and hold them up. The wire will go through the button, down through the fabric flowers, through the styrofoam ball and down into the stem of the bouquet. I have to get the ribbon and some twine.
Well, Judithmary shopped until her foot started throbbing then we went home and I headed off to the Chapel Hills Mall to go buy a rosary and the cheat sheets that tell me how to use it. I found the store, All Things Catholic, and went in looking for rosaries. They had a range of prices from $6 all the way up to decorative ones for over $100. I got one of the $6, figuring it would serve me now and I could use it as a pattern and make one for myself out of the beads I have at home. I would need to buy the crucifixes at the hobby store.
After my purchase, I headed over to hubby's work, so we could exchange the car. He offered to buy me lunch but I am trying to start sticking to a budget and eat at home, so that is what I did when we got there. I spent the rest of the afternoon upstairs with the dogs and exploring things Hubby got home around 6 and though we were going to have the stacked chicken enchiladas, he wanted to make a pizza instead, so he did. I ate it but it didn't taste very good to me, a lot of foods do that now. This new medication I have been on for about 4 months has really changed the way everything tastes and I am having a hard time finding food that tastes good anymore.
I am so happy! I have been given absolution for all my past and am starting anew. Yeah!
She really was feeling good, the implantation of the pacemaker was giving her extra energy and she was fighting at the bit to go to the store, the arts and craft store, Hobby Lobby. She wanted to get some stuff for the dolls she has been turning into Red Hat Dolls. We whisked away in her SUV, and landed in Hobby Lobby. While she was shopping, we went down one isle that had floral bouquets with rhinestone buttons on them, just what I was looking at on the button shelf. Buying the rhinestone buttons individually would be $3.99 each, where as I could buy a purple daisy floral bouquet with 5 flowers, each having a rhinestone button in the center, for $8.50. Sold! I should have looked for a second one, but I am going back tomorrow and will see if I can find another one marked down, I need the buttons. I also need flower wire and styrofoam balls to use to make the pinecone bouquet I am making for my daughter. The styrofoam balls are to put the fabric flowers on and hold them up. The wire will go through the button, down through the fabric flowers, through the styrofoam ball and down into the stem of the bouquet. I have to get the ribbon and some twine.
Well, Judithmary shopped until her foot started throbbing then we went home and I headed off to the Chapel Hills Mall to go buy a rosary and the cheat sheets that tell me how to use it. I found the store, All Things Catholic, and went in looking for rosaries. They had a range of prices from $6 all the way up to decorative ones for over $100. I got one of the $6, figuring it would serve me now and I could use it as a pattern and make one for myself out of the beads I have at home. I would need to buy the crucifixes at the hobby store.
After my purchase, I headed over to hubby's work, so we could exchange the car. He offered to buy me lunch but I am trying to start sticking to a budget and eat at home, so that is what I did when we got there. I spent the rest of the afternoon upstairs with the dogs and exploring things Hubby got home around 6 and though we were going to have the stacked chicken enchiladas, he wanted to make a pizza instead, so he did. I ate it but it didn't taste very good to me, a lot of foods do that now. This new medication I have been on for about 4 months has really changed the way everything tastes and I am having a hard time finding food that tastes good anymore.
I am so happy! I have been given absolution for all my past and am starting anew. Yeah!
Sunday, January 25, 2015
Sunday, January 25, 2015
Today was a disappointing day. I had so many plans but only managed to get dressed in a housecoat and crochet a little today. I had wanted to go to Catholic mass but got up what I considered too late. I woke up and looked at the clock and it was 1115am and mass started at noon. I could have gotten dressed and gone but I would have had to go by myself and I just wasn't up to it. In fact, I really needed to take a shower but since I had decided that I wasn't going anywhere outside of the house, I just dressed in a housecoat.
I stayed up in the bedroom watching our smart tv, watching Apprentice UK from YouTube. I was playing on the computer, getting used to this one I am using now. I missing having my 10 key pad and a home button. The screen and the keys are smaller but I am getting used to it. The mouse pad is a little different, too, and you have to press the mouse pad on one corner or another instead of having clear buttons for it. I have had situations where I had two fingers on the pad and enlarged or shrunk the screen. Trying very hard to not do that again.
I suffered from major guilt most of today, for not going to mass. Silly, I know, but I should have set a clock to be up earlier so I could have eaten and gotten up the courage to go on my own. Hubby said he would support me in my quest for my faith, going back to church and getting involved in it. Hubby said he would go with me to mass and support me but he wouldn't be joining himself. And he would only go to mass with me once a week. And Saturday mass was the one. Today would be by myself and I just couldn't do it. So I felt guilty about it. Catholic for a day, guilt trip already. Ha!
Hubby was very busy, making the stacked enchiladas, doing laundry, and cleaning up the kitchen. So when he was almost done and came upstairs to watch tv with me while doing laundry, I told him he could watch whatever he wanted and if I didn't want to watch it, I could play something on my computer and listen with ear buds, or read a book. He decided to watch the Lego movie. I watched Apprentice UK on the computer and sat next to him. When he fell asleep and his head moved to an odd angle, I laid a hand on his and woke him, telling him he should lay down flatter. He drifted on and off through the movie but was up and going afterwards. He then decided to watch a movie on Dracula, how Vlad the Impaler became a vampire. A movie about a real person becoming a fictional character. And he got the movie for me, thinking that I like horror movies so I should like this. I do like horror movies, some kinds of them, but I am not into Dracula. I must admit that the movie is not bad. The story behind it, the real life story of Vlad the Impaler, as told by hubby, is interesting. Though I don't go out of my way to read history, sometimes hubby's fascination with it is interesting. Hubby has a way of taking a subject I barely got a C in in high school, and make it interesting.
I am learning that when I am eating something, if it doesn't taste like I think is should, doesn't regale me with it's flavor, I should stop eating it. Like now, hubby brought me a brownie from the pan he bought at the store. It has frosting on top, was moist and thick. I ate 2 bites out of it, and didn't taste what my mind says it should taste like. I took another bite and tried to taste it. I barely tasted anything. To me it was flavorless. I liked the crunch of the frosting, but was that any reason to waste my time eating it? The oral fixation was there but I decided it wasn't worth the calories. I'd rather have an apple, so I gave the brownie to hubby and will get an apple later. That will make 3 servings of fruit today. I am pushing for 5, and a glass of juice can do that.
I stayed up in the bedroom watching our smart tv, watching Apprentice UK from YouTube. I was playing on the computer, getting used to this one I am using now. I missing having my 10 key pad and a home button. The screen and the keys are smaller but I am getting used to it. The mouse pad is a little different, too, and you have to press the mouse pad on one corner or another instead of having clear buttons for it. I have had situations where I had two fingers on the pad and enlarged or shrunk the screen. Trying very hard to not do that again.
I suffered from major guilt most of today, for not going to mass. Silly, I know, but I should have set a clock to be up earlier so I could have eaten and gotten up the courage to go on my own. Hubby said he would support me in my quest for my faith, going back to church and getting involved in it. Hubby said he would go with me to mass and support me but he wouldn't be joining himself. And he would only go to mass with me once a week. And Saturday mass was the one. Today would be by myself and I just couldn't do it. So I felt guilty about it. Catholic for a day, guilt trip already. Ha!
Hubby was very busy, making the stacked enchiladas, doing laundry, and cleaning up the kitchen. So when he was almost done and came upstairs to watch tv with me while doing laundry, I told him he could watch whatever he wanted and if I didn't want to watch it, I could play something on my computer and listen with ear buds, or read a book. He decided to watch the Lego movie. I watched Apprentice UK on the computer and sat next to him. When he fell asleep and his head moved to an odd angle, I laid a hand on his and woke him, telling him he should lay down flatter. He drifted on and off through the movie but was up and going afterwards. He then decided to watch a movie on Dracula, how Vlad the Impaler became a vampire. A movie about a real person becoming a fictional character. And he got the movie for me, thinking that I like horror movies so I should like this. I do like horror movies, some kinds of them, but I am not into Dracula. I must admit that the movie is not bad. The story behind it, the real life story of Vlad the Impaler, as told by hubby, is interesting. Though I don't go out of my way to read history, sometimes hubby's fascination with it is interesting. Hubby has a way of taking a subject I barely got a C in in high school, and make it interesting.
I am learning that when I am eating something, if it doesn't taste like I think is should, doesn't regale me with it's flavor, I should stop eating it. Like now, hubby brought me a brownie from the pan he bought at the store. It has frosting on top, was moist and thick. I ate 2 bites out of it, and didn't taste what my mind says it should taste like. I took another bite and tried to taste it. I barely tasted anything. To me it was flavorless. I liked the crunch of the frosting, but was that any reason to waste my time eating it? The oral fixation was there but I decided it wasn't worth the calories. I'd rather have an apple, so I gave the brownie to hubby and will get an apple later. That will make 3 servings of fruit today. I am pushing for 5, and a glass of juice can do that.
Saturday, January 24, 2015
Saturday, January 24, 2015
Today was an exhilarating day! It started early, at 615 oh-my-gosh early in the am! I was excited and scared, my meeting with Father Paul was at 7. Hubby got up to go with me, bless him. We got in the car, he scraped the ice off the windshield and then he hit the windshield fluid. That caused us to freeze up as we were driving. We pulled over and scraped the windshield again. In a few minutes we warmed up and traveled onward to the Catholic Church. Hubby didn't want to go in with me, fearing the meeting would end up focusing on him and his non-believe in the Catholics and he wanted me to have my time with Father Paul focusing on me and my situation, my desire to come back home to the beginning of my true faith, where I last felt...not whole, but something like that. I yearn for the time when I was immersed in my faith. When I was a senior in high school, I told a nun that I felt called to join the sisterhood. She told me that I should go to college and then come back when I had something more to offer, see if I still felt the same way. My life turned upside down after that. To say I would go back and change anything would be to say I don't love my daughter because if it weren't for the course my life took, all the ups and downs, I would not have had her and I can't imagine my life without her. So I would gladly go through all my pain and sorrow to the point of having her but then I would change a few things. But, I digress.
I met Father Paul in the Church lobby and introduced myself. He had me follow him to his office and we sat down. He told me that he read my email and knew he had to contact me immediately, the fear was apparent in my message. The mere thought that I was so afraid that there was no hope for me to come back, that I was afraid he was going to tell me I was going to Hell. He had to call me right then. To tell me that there is hope. I was welcomed. I could come home.
I talked a little about some of the choices I had made over the years, some of the abuses I had suffered and the betrayal of my mind. Being diagnosed with DID and PTSD and all the work I have done to get to where I am today, in a stable and loving relationship, starting to venture out of my house and trying to make friends, joining the Red Hat Society. Father Paul asked me if I was journaling and I told him I was doing it as a blog and he said good. I asked him what I had to do. He said that his beliefs and the beliefs of Pope John were the same, the Church needs to fulfill the needs of the individual. The Church needs to be a welcoming place, accepting of all and if felt like I wanted to come back, well, he was there to help me succeed. Father Paul looked me right in the eye and told me that he could pray with me and give me absolution. Forgive me all my bad choices and happenings. We prayed and I felt a sense of relief, a weight lifted. I felt fresh.
After we were finished, father Paul invited me to come to mass and celebrate with him, this special mass for a certain sect of the Catholic Church, 6 people we dedicating their lives to serving in a special way. I didn't quite catch the name of the group but I was there as one of their witnesses. Hubby had joined me for this mass. When it was over, we left as hubby was more than ready to go. He said that he would support me in my quest for my faith, and come with me to mass. Once a week. So tomorrow when I go, I will go alone. Because today he was with me.
I met Father Paul in the Church lobby and introduced myself. He had me follow him to his office and we sat down. He told me that he read my email and knew he had to contact me immediately, the fear was apparent in my message. The mere thought that I was so afraid that there was no hope for me to come back, that I was afraid he was going to tell me I was going to Hell. He had to call me right then. To tell me that there is hope. I was welcomed. I could come home.
I talked a little about some of the choices I had made over the years, some of the abuses I had suffered and the betrayal of my mind. Being diagnosed with DID and PTSD and all the work I have done to get to where I am today, in a stable and loving relationship, starting to venture out of my house and trying to make friends, joining the Red Hat Society. Father Paul asked me if I was journaling and I told him I was doing it as a blog and he said good. I asked him what I had to do. He said that his beliefs and the beliefs of Pope John were the same, the Church needs to fulfill the needs of the individual. The Church needs to be a welcoming place, accepting of all and if felt like I wanted to come back, well, he was there to help me succeed. Father Paul looked me right in the eye and told me that he could pray with me and give me absolution. Forgive me all my bad choices and happenings. We prayed and I felt a sense of relief, a weight lifted. I felt fresh.
After we were finished, father Paul invited me to come to mass and celebrate with him, this special mass for a certain sect of the Catholic Church, 6 people we dedicating their lives to serving in a special way. I didn't quite catch the name of the group but I was there as one of their witnesses. Hubby had joined me for this mass. When it was over, we left as hubby was more than ready to go. He said that he would support me in my quest for my faith, and come with me to mass. Once a week. So tomorrow when I go, I will go alone. Because today he was with me.
Friday, January 23, 2015
Friday, January 23, 2015
Today was a confounding day. You see, it started this morning with a call from Father Paul, the Padre of Holy Apostles Catholic Church. He was calling me to tell me that we couldn't meet tomorrow, Saturday at 8am because he forgot that he was conducting a mass, church service for those of you not Catholic. Priests hold Mass. So he said he sent me an email and I should look at it and decided of the two times, which would work better for me. After we got off the phone, I pulled up my email, yawning all the way, and saw his email. He offered me a time to meet Saturday at 7am, Yikes! or at 1pm. I emailed him back and said I would meet him at 1pm, thinking it was for Saturday. Wrong! I got another call from Father Paul at 2 saying he meant 1pm today, Friday. I said, oh so sorry, I thought you meant Satuday so we agreed on me meeting him in his office at 7am, the oh-my-goodness hour, and then I could go to mass at 8. He told me there was always hope and he would work with me to the end goal of me becoming a practicing Catholic again.
So I was up, and awake. I took my morning pill that requires I wait half an hour before eating or drinking, then I had a bowl of Lucky Charm. Yes, I know the whole point I stated when I started this blog was to start eating healthy and making myself a better person. Well, the childhood whim in me said we needed a box of sugary substance to eat first thing in the morning. Nana booboo! I alternate morning eating V8 and yogurt. Better? I think so. One of the things I learned in Weight Watchers was if you can identify a craving, it is ok to give into it, just pay attention to your portions. Which I do.
I am not trying to justify a childish whim, just resigned to to it. If you deny yourself everything and only eat what is considered healthy, you will totally blow it by eating everything in site and getting so desperate, you fail in mind as well as in body. You have to give in in a controlled way. Like tonight, this wrascally hubby of mine convinced me that Baskin Robins was calling our name and offered to go out, at 945pm, to the corner store and get me my heart's desires. It has been a very long time since I have had Baskin Robins so I said yes. Secretly he was the one who wanted it, but wouldn't have gone out to indulge if I didn't give him permission. So for the greater good of it all, I said yes. And this is where I sit now, ice cream on the table next to me, dogs at my feet and a very happy hubby at my side. Good nite!
So I was up, and awake. I took my morning pill that requires I wait half an hour before eating or drinking, then I had a bowl of Lucky Charm. Yes, I know the whole point I stated when I started this blog was to start eating healthy and making myself a better person. Well, the childhood whim in me said we needed a box of sugary substance to eat first thing in the morning. Nana booboo! I alternate morning eating V8 and yogurt. Better? I think so. One of the things I learned in Weight Watchers was if you can identify a craving, it is ok to give into it, just pay attention to your portions. Which I do.
I am not trying to justify a childish whim, just resigned to to it. If you deny yourself everything and only eat what is considered healthy, you will totally blow it by eating everything in site and getting so desperate, you fail in mind as well as in body. You have to give in in a controlled way. Like tonight, this wrascally hubby of mine convinced me that Baskin Robins was calling our name and offered to go out, at 945pm, to the corner store and get me my heart's desires. It has been a very long time since I have had Baskin Robins so I said yes. Secretly he was the one who wanted it, but wouldn't have gone out to indulge if I didn't give him permission. So for the greater good of it all, I said yes. And this is where I sit now, ice cream on the table next to me, dogs at my feet and a very happy hubby at my side. Good nite!
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Today was a momentous day. It was the day hubby and I went to the bankruptcy attorney and finalized our paperwork. We signed the Big B papers to be submitted to the court. Last night we did the pre-bankruptcy credit counselling online and went ahead and paid for the post-bankruptcy class we have to take after we are notified by the attorney that the paperwork is filed. He said to look for the letter in about a week.
We woke up to snow and ice, with snow falling with big flakes. We had to be at the attorney's at 9am so hubby shoveled the walk and scraped the car while I made sure we have all the necessary documents they needed. The drive was a little scary, even though the plows and sand trucks have been through, the continuation of snow coming down didn't help the roads any. Hubby doesn't leave the same amount of space between us and other cars that I do and when it comes to weather like this, I drive like a little old lady from Pasadena!
The good news at the attorney's was we over paid them and they gave us $40 back. Yeah! My plan was for hubby and I to go out to lunch to discuss the new changes in our budget and, not celebrate, but to reflect on how we got to the Big B and how to make sure we don't ever end back up in this place. We want to live debt free and we still have a loan for $10,000 to my parents. So we are going to figure out a payment plan and figure out how long it will take us to get there. In the mean time we are going to figure out some things we need to do, like save up for another car in 3 or 4 years, save up for a fun vacation, and save up to buy paint for the inside of the house.
Talked to the dentist today and found out that that they haven't gotten the crown pre-approved yet but said they would get right on that. I told them I would be able to make a payment the first part of February and she told me that was fine. After I make the payment then I can come in for my crown. They will allow me to keep making payments and get my crown without having to pay for it in full before it is installed.
Even though hubby's diverticulitis was still acting up, he didn't take his antibiotic on an empty stomach after doing it yesterday. It really tore his tummy up. So today I got him to eat a natural peanut butter and jelly sandwich. It helped. The pills still bothered him but didn't take him down like it did the day before. We watched the news updates on the tv but his school he works at was still open and not likely to close early. He had taken half a day off because we had the attorney appointment and because he still wasn't up to working. He went into work at 3pm and worked until 930pm.
I stayed home and crocheted a little, played on the computer and read my Living on a Dime newsletter. I took the dogs out so they could play in the snow for a little while and I stayed inside nice and cosy.
I am not overjoyed about filling the Big B, but I am relieved. It does feel like (quite literally) a huge weight/debt is lifted off of us. I want to run through the streets and jump for joy, crying "I'm FREE!". We have worked so hard for the last several years to try and meet all our financial obligations but made mistakes and over extended ourselves. Believe it or not, credit cards were only about half of our debt, but there was medical bills, a consolidation loan, a balance on a re-poed vehicle, and other little bills. It just got to be so much. By the time we went to Consumer Credit Counseling, it was too late and we had to make too much more a month. They are the ones who told us that bankruptcy was our only option. That's hard to hear. After this is over, I am looking forward to starting a savings account.
We woke up to snow and ice, with snow falling with big flakes. We had to be at the attorney's at 9am so hubby shoveled the walk and scraped the car while I made sure we have all the necessary documents they needed. The drive was a little scary, even though the plows and sand trucks have been through, the continuation of snow coming down didn't help the roads any. Hubby doesn't leave the same amount of space between us and other cars that I do and when it comes to weather like this, I drive like a little old lady from Pasadena!
The good news at the attorney's was we over paid them and they gave us $40 back. Yeah! My plan was for hubby and I to go out to lunch to discuss the new changes in our budget and, not celebrate, but to reflect on how we got to the Big B and how to make sure we don't ever end back up in this place. We want to live debt free and we still have a loan for $10,000 to my parents. So we are going to figure out a payment plan and figure out how long it will take us to get there. In the mean time we are going to figure out some things we need to do, like save up for another car in 3 or 4 years, save up for a fun vacation, and save up to buy paint for the inside of the house.
Talked to the dentist today and found out that that they haven't gotten the crown pre-approved yet but said they would get right on that. I told them I would be able to make a payment the first part of February and she told me that was fine. After I make the payment then I can come in for my crown. They will allow me to keep making payments and get my crown without having to pay for it in full before it is installed.
Even though hubby's diverticulitis was still acting up, he didn't take his antibiotic on an empty stomach after doing it yesterday. It really tore his tummy up. So today I got him to eat a natural peanut butter and jelly sandwich. It helped. The pills still bothered him but didn't take him down like it did the day before. We watched the news updates on the tv but his school he works at was still open and not likely to close early. He had taken half a day off because we had the attorney appointment and because he still wasn't up to working. He went into work at 3pm and worked until 930pm.
I stayed home and crocheted a little, played on the computer and read my Living on a Dime newsletter. I took the dogs out so they could play in the snow for a little while and I stayed inside nice and cosy.
I am not overjoyed about filling the Big B, but I am relieved. It does feel like (quite literally) a huge weight/debt is lifted off of us. I want to run through the streets and jump for joy, crying "I'm FREE!". We have worked so hard for the last several years to try and meet all our financial obligations but made mistakes and over extended ourselves. Believe it or not, credit cards were only about half of our debt, but there was medical bills, a consolidation loan, a balance on a re-poed vehicle, and other little bills. It just got to be so much. By the time we went to Consumer Credit Counseling, it was too late and we had to make too much more a month. They are the ones who told us that bankruptcy was our only option. That's hard to hear. After this is over, I am looking forward to starting a savings account.
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Today was a busy day. I started off the morning changing the alarm on the clock forward another 15 minutes. But I couldn't get back to sleep so I got up anyway. I took the beasties downstairs and let them out, then headed back upstairs to go to the bathroom. I then got dressed and let them back in. Then I got dressed and fed the animals. That left me with 15 minutes to go out, scrape the windows of the car and drive down the street to therapy. Our big ice scraper broke so I had to use the little one. It worked better than the big one used to so that worked out well.
Steve, my therapist, and I talked a little about my obsession with death and trying to savor the time left with my parents. They are in good health and exercise, keep busy and still work on the house so they aren't in any danger of dying that I know of, I just want to make sure when they do die, I don't regret not talking to them or taking advantage of them living in the same town and seeing them as much as I can. Now my sister, Laura, is a different matter. I will text her once in a while, see how she is doing, facebook her cute things that remind me of her but she is too busy raising 11 kids to go out to lunch, get together or any such thing. Maybe when a few more kids move out. My other sister, Collette, is busy going to school full time and working full time to even be reachable by phone, text, or facebook. Maybe some day they will want to appreciate each other before we get old and die too.
After therapy, I drove to the local UHaul and picked up hubby. He had taken the truck into work and had the work studies unload it, then he returned it. I picked him up and we drove to Taco Bell for lunch, Steak Soft Tacos. We went through the drive thru and took the food home. After I finished lunch, I checked my email and the lady with the 60 Workbasket magazines from the 70s and the late 60s emailed me her address and said I could pick them up at 1, so I looked up quick directions on Google and hubby and I left. The woman said her phone was not working so I had no phone to call if we got lost. And that is exactly what happened, the Google directions were wrong and we couldn't find her street. So after going down the whole street, basically in a circle, hubby had the bright idea to look up the address on my phone on Google and see what we were missing. Ta Da! There was one street we had to turn onto first before we got to her street, so we did. I got the magazines and paid her the $25 for them, which works out to 42 cents each. The pile was small so I counted them when I got in the car, sure that I had been cheated but no! There was 60 of them in the bag.
Next, we drove to Judithmary's house and I dropped off $15 for the High Tea we were going to on February 7th, a Saturday. It was a good thing I was just dropping it off, because Judithmary was in the middle of 2 other things, then her phone rang! I waved and got back in the car. Hubby and I drove home and settled in for a nap. But then I started going through our budget, checking to make sure what bills still needed to be paid and there were none! That left $250 in the account we needed to go grocery shopping with tonight so we wouldn't owe that to the courts because of the Big B. Tomorrow we were going into the attorney's office to sign the bankruptcy papers and have them filed in court. We still needed to do our Pre-Bankruptcy counselling and that is what we did when we were done with the grocery shopping. In the mist of this, we did manage to eat at home, saving ourselves from spending more money out. Got to start getting in that mode, not spending mode and eating better by eating at home. We have just enough money left in the account to go out to lunch tomorrow to transition ourselves into the new life, life after the Big B.
Steve, my therapist, and I talked a little about my obsession with death and trying to savor the time left with my parents. They are in good health and exercise, keep busy and still work on the house so they aren't in any danger of dying that I know of, I just want to make sure when they do die, I don't regret not talking to them or taking advantage of them living in the same town and seeing them as much as I can. Now my sister, Laura, is a different matter. I will text her once in a while, see how she is doing, facebook her cute things that remind me of her but she is too busy raising 11 kids to go out to lunch, get together or any such thing. Maybe when a few more kids move out. My other sister, Collette, is busy going to school full time and working full time to even be reachable by phone, text, or facebook. Maybe some day they will want to appreciate each other before we get old and die too.
After therapy, I drove to the local UHaul and picked up hubby. He had taken the truck into work and had the work studies unload it, then he returned it. I picked him up and we drove to Taco Bell for lunch, Steak Soft Tacos. We went through the drive thru and took the food home. After I finished lunch, I checked my email and the lady with the 60 Workbasket magazines from the 70s and the late 60s emailed me her address and said I could pick them up at 1, so I looked up quick directions on Google and hubby and I left. The woman said her phone was not working so I had no phone to call if we got lost. And that is exactly what happened, the Google directions were wrong and we couldn't find her street. So after going down the whole street, basically in a circle, hubby had the bright idea to look up the address on my phone on Google and see what we were missing. Ta Da! There was one street we had to turn onto first before we got to her street, so we did. I got the magazines and paid her the $25 for them, which works out to 42 cents each. The pile was small so I counted them when I got in the car, sure that I had been cheated but no! There was 60 of them in the bag.
Next, we drove to Judithmary's house and I dropped off $15 for the High Tea we were going to on February 7th, a Saturday. It was a good thing I was just dropping it off, because Judithmary was in the middle of 2 other things, then her phone rang! I waved and got back in the car. Hubby and I drove home and settled in for a nap. But then I started going through our budget, checking to make sure what bills still needed to be paid and there were none! That left $250 in the account we needed to go grocery shopping with tonight so we wouldn't owe that to the courts because of the Big B. Tomorrow we were going into the attorney's office to sign the bankruptcy papers and have them filed in court. We still needed to do our Pre-Bankruptcy counselling and that is what we did when we were done with the grocery shopping. In the mist of this, we did manage to eat at home, saving ourselves from spending more money out. Got to start getting in that mode, not spending mode and eating better by eating at home. We have just enough money left in the account to go out to lunch tomorrow to transition ourselves into the new life, life after the Big B.
Monday, January 19, 2015
Martin Luther King Day, Monday, January 19, 2015
Today was an enlightening day. People all over the country were celebrating Martin Luther King and our city held a protest that the NAACP hasn't done enough to eradicate racism. I wonder how they want them to accomplish this. I don't know. My guess would be to teach everybody tolerance for things that you wouldn't necessarily choose for yourself. And if it can't be taught at home, then it should be started in Kindergarten and preschool. But the schools are already doing that and I have no answers.
I didn't do much today except look after my poor, sick hubby. We stayed low key and pretty much stayed in our jammies all day. Took a good nap and forced fluids down him. He did roast a chicken, make stuffing and green beans, my favorite, for dinner. I watched tv and cruised craigslist. Tonight I started crocheting again. Hubby is taking the UHaul truck into work tomorrow to have the work studies unload it, then I will meet him there after therapy to take him to lunch and back to work. And maybe to the bank.
I spent a lot of time today petting Kira, my corgi without a tail. She calms me and makes me feel good. I remember when I first went to the farm to see the puppies and pick one out to be my very own. They were only 4 weeks old and she was so bright and happy. Unlike a typical corgi, she only has a little bit of white on her nose but has the full bib and white capped feet. She is delicate and has the most adorable snout. We took her outside and held her, took some pictures and tried to come up with a name for her. I mentioned Kira from Deep Space Nine and hubby jumped right on board. We went back at 6 weeks to visit and she had grown so big, but still was so little. Only two more weeks until she was going to come home with us.
Instead of driving the 3 hours out to Burlington to get Kira, the owners of the farm told us they would meet us halfway. On Halloween in 2011, we met them and picked up Kira. She was so playful and cuddly, I held her all the way home. We crated her for the first 6 months of her life, better to house break her. Then my daughter, Cassie, brought her puppy, Cookie, over and we ended up keeping her too. We had to house break her, too. But the two got along, sort of. They would fight every once in a while. We thought about breeding Kira but figured Cookie might hurt the puppies and Kira was a pet, so we had her spayed instead. Now they only fight once in a great while.
We are happy with the three dogs we have, Cookie, Kira and Baby. Baby balances out Cookie and Kira and plays with each of them. Bringing in another dog would upset that balance and overload me. Three is a handful but doable. Four tends to put me in panic. We had 4 dogs for a while, not our decision. Hubby's mom passed away and we ended up with her dog. He would get along with the other dogs but not on our bed. He used to snarl and growl and terrorized Kira, Cookie and Zues. He would sleep at the foot of my bed and Kira was a nervous wreck. It took a year after we had to put him down for Kira to sleep out from under the bed and start coming up on it. Cookie took it in stride.
I didn't do much today except look after my poor, sick hubby. We stayed low key and pretty much stayed in our jammies all day. Took a good nap and forced fluids down him. He did roast a chicken, make stuffing and green beans, my favorite, for dinner. I watched tv and cruised craigslist. Tonight I started crocheting again. Hubby is taking the UHaul truck into work tomorrow to have the work studies unload it, then I will meet him there after therapy to take him to lunch and back to work. And maybe to the bank.
I spent a lot of time today petting Kira, my corgi without a tail. She calms me and makes me feel good. I remember when I first went to the farm to see the puppies and pick one out to be my very own. They were only 4 weeks old and she was so bright and happy. Unlike a typical corgi, she only has a little bit of white on her nose but has the full bib and white capped feet. She is delicate and has the most adorable snout. We took her outside and held her, took some pictures and tried to come up with a name for her. I mentioned Kira from Deep Space Nine and hubby jumped right on board. We went back at 6 weeks to visit and she had grown so big, but still was so little. Only two more weeks until she was going to come home with us.
Instead of driving the 3 hours out to Burlington to get Kira, the owners of the farm told us they would meet us halfway. On Halloween in 2011, we met them and picked up Kira. She was so playful and cuddly, I held her all the way home. We crated her for the first 6 months of her life, better to house break her. Then my daughter, Cassie, brought her puppy, Cookie, over and we ended up keeping her too. We had to house break her, too. But the two got along, sort of. They would fight every once in a while. We thought about breeding Kira but figured Cookie might hurt the puppies and Kira was a pet, so we had her spayed instead. Now they only fight once in a great while.
We are happy with the three dogs we have, Cookie, Kira and Baby. Baby balances out Cookie and Kira and plays with each of them. Bringing in another dog would upset that balance and overload me. Three is a handful but doable. Four tends to put me in panic. We had 4 dogs for a while, not our decision. Hubby's mom passed away and we ended up with her dog. He would get along with the other dogs but not on our bed. He used to snarl and growl and terrorized Kira, Cookie and Zues. He would sleep at the foot of my bed and Kira was a nervous wreck. It took a year after we had to put him down for Kira to sleep out from under the bed and start coming up on it. Cookie took it in stride.
Sunday, January 18, 2015
Sunday, January 18, 2015
Today was a painful day. At least for hubby. He got up earlier than me and went downstairs to let me sleep. The darn phone kept ringing and I kept looking at it then sending it to voicemail. Finally I got a call, looked and it was my daughter, Cassie. So I sat up and took a few minutes to talk to her. We talked about her and Drew getting married, how she talked to Drew's mom, Becky and mentioned to her that she wanted to get married the same day that Drew's parents when down to the courthouse and got married. We talked about Cassie wanting to wear a special dress and have a bouquet. But Becky hasn't said anything to Cassie about when they plan on getting married or if she wants Cass and Drew to get married on the same day. So Cass doesn't know when they are going to do it. But if it doesn't work out for them to all get married at the same time, Drew and Cass will plan a day to get married soon anyway. There are a lot of benefits to getting married, one of them being Drew will get more money from the Army being married while he is going to school, and Cassie can get benefits from his plan.
We talked about getting some flowers and wrapping a ribbon around them, making a bouquet. She likes daisys and carnations. I forgot to tell her that in the State of Colorado, blood tests are no longer needed and when you go down to the courthouse to get married, all you are doing is going up to the clerk and signing the license. They don't do ceremonies here and you are not required to have witnesses. So I texted her and told her all that. Come to find out she already knew and she does want hubby and I to come up and go with her and Drew, then will allow us to take them out to lunch or dinner. I would like to make her a small wedding cake, two tiered so she can freeze the top tier for her first wedding anniversary.
Hubby has Diverticulitis and yesterday and today was feeling uncomfortable. When it started yesterday, he just kept an eye out for it. Today when the feeling in his abdomen was worse, and he was barely pooping, with an effort, we knew that we needed to go into Urgent Care for some antibiotics. See, there is the large colon and normally waste material flows smoothly down and passes out your body. Someone with Diverticulitis has little pockets or depressions in the colon walls and sometimes that waste material get stuck in there and then it gets infected, that is what causes the pain and swelling. It can make you blocked and not able to poop. That happened to hubby the first time and he was diagnosed with this. This is his 5th episode over several years. They said low fiber may affect this disease but they really don't know why people get it.
So when we were watching some more ZNation on Netflix, he mentions he is uncomfortable and we probably needed to head into Urgent Care today and they close at 3 and it was 130pm so we needed to jump into the shower now and get going. We stopped in the gas station store and picked up drinks and some nachos as we headed over. It took us 2 and a half hours before we got out of there with the antibiotic prescriptions. One of those is the antibiotic you would take if you were exposed to antrax, it's that heavy duty.
So, we drop off the script and head to the store, we were out of dog and cat food. We shopped and then I dropped hubby off at home so he could go to the bathroom and I headed back to pharmacy to pick up the script. On the way there, I passed an apartment building yard and saw there were a lot of pine cones on the ground so I stopped and picked up the good ones. There was even some small branches with pine cones still attached on the ground, so I picked those up too. I am going to see if I can make Cassie a bouquet with this like we talked about for her to get married with. It's going to be a surprise just in case it doesn't turn out. But I have a feeling it will look good. I just need to get some wire.
The rest of our evening was spent watching tv and nagging hubby to drink more. The doctor wanted him to eat soft foods and drink lots of gatorade and water. And today he barely drank anything at all. He promised to finish the bottle of gatorade before he went to sleep but didn't. Tomorrow I won't be that nice.
We talked about getting some flowers and wrapping a ribbon around them, making a bouquet. She likes daisys and carnations. I forgot to tell her that in the State of Colorado, blood tests are no longer needed and when you go down to the courthouse to get married, all you are doing is going up to the clerk and signing the license. They don't do ceremonies here and you are not required to have witnesses. So I texted her and told her all that. Come to find out she already knew and she does want hubby and I to come up and go with her and Drew, then will allow us to take them out to lunch or dinner. I would like to make her a small wedding cake, two tiered so she can freeze the top tier for her first wedding anniversary.
Hubby has Diverticulitis and yesterday and today was feeling uncomfortable. When it started yesterday, he just kept an eye out for it. Today when the feeling in his abdomen was worse, and he was barely pooping, with an effort, we knew that we needed to go into Urgent Care for some antibiotics. See, there is the large colon and normally waste material flows smoothly down and passes out your body. Someone with Diverticulitis has little pockets or depressions in the colon walls and sometimes that waste material get stuck in there and then it gets infected, that is what causes the pain and swelling. It can make you blocked and not able to poop. That happened to hubby the first time and he was diagnosed with this. This is his 5th episode over several years. They said low fiber may affect this disease but they really don't know why people get it.
So when we were watching some more ZNation on Netflix, he mentions he is uncomfortable and we probably needed to head into Urgent Care today and they close at 3 and it was 130pm so we needed to jump into the shower now and get going. We stopped in the gas station store and picked up drinks and some nachos as we headed over. It took us 2 and a half hours before we got out of there with the antibiotic prescriptions. One of those is the antibiotic you would take if you were exposed to antrax, it's that heavy duty.
So, we drop off the script and head to the store, we were out of dog and cat food. We shopped and then I dropped hubby off at home so he could go to the bathroom and I headed back to pharmacy to pick up the script. On the way there, I passed an apartment building yard and saw there were a lot of pine cones on the ground so I stopped and picked up the good ones. There was even some small branches with pine cones still attached on the ground, so I picked those up too. I am going to see if I can make Cassie a bouquet with this like we talked about for her to get married with. It's going to be a surprise just in case it doesn't turn out. But I have a feeling it will look good. I just need to get some wire.
The rest of our evening was spent watching tv and nagging hubby to drink more. The doctor wanted him to eat soft foods and drink lots of gatorade and water. And today he barely drank anything at all. He promised to finish the bottle of gatorade before he went to sleep but didn't. Tomorrow I won't be that nice.
Saturday, January 17, 2015
Saturday, January 17, 2015
Today was a restless day. Or it was at least for me. Hubby had to get up at 530am and leave the house just after 6am to be in Denver just around 730am. I woke up while he was getting ready and stayed up with him until he left, then it took a little bit for me to get back to sleep. I didn't sleep very well, we went to sleep about midnight and I woke up at 3am and took the dogs out, then again at 6am, then woke up at 1030am. Don't really remember my dreams. When hubby left I had him leave on the bathroom light and I turned on the tv for sound, I didn't want to be in the dark by myself. May have been because of the zombie show we watched the night before, may have just been him leaving so early. Either way, I had a hard time getting back to sleep. I did eat some cereal to help me go back to sleep, some Lucky Charms. Not the most healthiest of cereals, pretty much a sugar-fest, but filled a craving.
When I got up, I fed the beasties and watched tv, played on the computer and counted down the time hubby was working. He called me at noon to tell me he was not only done, but packed up already and getting ready to leave the hotel and head over to his Denver campus. Yeah, hubby works for a for-profit school. It would be a couple of hours before he would be home but he would be happy to pick up lunch when he got back to the Springs. We settled on burgers from Culvers. And a Pepsi, as I could use the caffine.
I didn't get dressed, per say, but put on some night pants and one of hubby's old t-shirts. I watched Single White Female. Never seen it before and it was pretty good. I have to say one thing, Poor Puppy! Tears came to my eyes.
When hubby arrived, he had lunch and was ready to eat then take a nap. So we did. I sat with him while he napped and watched the new Netflix series called ZNation, a new scary zombie series. We had watched the first episode the night before and I found it so scary that we had to watch a comedy after but before we went to sleep so I wouldn't have nightmares. The zombies in this series can not only be fast, but some are smart. Now is when you say "No wonder you didn't sleep well!" I know, but it's so much fun to dream about these fatalistic worlds.
We spent the rest of the time after hubby woke, watching Apprentice UK on YouTube and Robot Chicken. The mailman came and delivered a welcomed package of a comic book series that hubby had bought but then found it was missing two issues. After we verified both in the packing slip and online that the order did, indeed, was including these two missing issues, hubby sent a message to the seller. We expect the problem to be resolved soon.
I started working on my cowl scarf for Cassie's friend and expect it to be done by Monday evening. Since I am unable to find lilac to go with the royal purple, I have decided to use while. I think they will like it. And that is what I will be doing until we go to sleep in the coming hours. Tomorrow I expect we will put the Christmas stuff in the garage and vacuum the craft room. Then lots of crocheting!
When I got up, I fed the beasties and watched tv, played on the computer and counted down the time hubby was working. He called me at noon to tell me he was not only done, but packed up already and getting ready to leave the hotel and head over to his Denver campus. Yeah, hubby works for a for-profit school. It would be a couple of hours before he would be home but he would be happy to pick up lunch when he got back to the Springs. We settled on burgers from Culvers. And a Pepsi, as I could use the caffine.
I didn't get dressed, per say, but put on some night pants and one of hubby's old t-shirts. I watched Single White Female. Never seen it before and it was pretty good. I have to say one thing, Poor Puppy! Tears came to my eyes.
When hubby arrived, he had lunch and was ready to eat then take a nap. So we did. I sat with him while he napped and watched the new Netflix series called ZNation, a new scary zombie series. We had watched the first episode the night before and I found it so scary that we had to watch a comedy after but before we went to sleep so I wouldn't have nightmares. The zombies in this series can not only be fast, but some are smart. Now is when you say "No wonder you didn't sleep well!" I know, but it's so much fun to dream about these fatalistic worlds.
We spent the rest of the time after hubby woke, watching Apprentice UK on YouTube and Robot Chicken. The mailman came and delivered a welcomed package of a comic book series that hubby had bought but then found it was missing two issues. After we verified both in the packing slip and online that the order did, indeed, was including these two missing issues, hubby sent a message to the seller. We expect the problem to be resolved soon.
I started working on my cowl scarf for Cassie's friend and expect it to be done by Monday evening. Since I am unable to find lilac to go with the royal purple, I have decided to use while. I think they will like it. And that is what I will be doing until we go to sleep in the coming hours. Tomorrow I expect we will put the Christmas stuff in the garage and vacuum the craft room. Then lots of crocheting!
Wednesday, January 14, 2015
Wednesday, January 14, 2015
Today was a busy day. This morning I woke up 5 seconds before the alarm went off. Hubby had accidentally set the timer on the alarm clock when he turned off the alarm. So I laid there and watched it count down, then turned it off when it reached zero. I did my morning pages, which I haven't done in 10 days. Kind of got out of the habit, so tomorrow I am going to get out The Artist's Way and start working on that again. Time to get back into a routine. I had to get up and get dressed so that I could take hubby to the U-Haul place as he rented a truck for work. He loaded it up today and will be driving to Denver tomorrow and Saturday for a conference. When he does this, he works pretty long hours but then I do have the car so I will go over to my parents' place to visit. I have a gift for my mom anyway so I have that planned. Anyway, I dropped hubby off there and went back home.
When I got home, I ate some yogurt for breakfast and drank some V8 and took my pills. I sat in the kitchen and watched tv, then I brought down my computer. The mail had come early in the morning and my cousin's package came. It was the fingerless gloves that she knitted for me and my mom. She did a great job and they look really nice. I think they will protect my mom's forearms from her dogs' nails. Her skin tears very easily and she catches her arms on boxes and the counter corners and things. After I finished with the computer, I went down to the family room and watched tv and read for a while. I was good until it was time to get ready for my Red Hat Social.
I got dressed in black slacks and a royal purple shirt and my hiking boots since there was still snow and ice on the ground. I got in the car and drove over to my Queen's house so we could car pool over to the mall. We arrived at the mall and met up with the rest of the group. We decided to eat first at the mall food court then go to the indoor mini-golf course under the black light called Glow Golf.
Glow Golfing was so much fun! It was rather warm and I did break out in a sweat while we went through the 18 holes. We had the chance to play another 18 holes but were pretty knackered by the end and said no, thanks. We took a group photo at the end and I made sure my new Raccoon tote got in the picture too.
I got home in the late evening and found out that hubby had gotten home about half an hour before me and had already feed the beasties. We got to retire upstairs to watch some more Apprentice UK on YouTube.
When I got home, I ate some yogurt for breakfast and drank some V8 and took my pills. I sat in the kitchen and watched tv, then I brought down my computer. The mail had come early in the morning and my cousin's package came. It was the fingerless gloves that she knitted for me and my mom. She did a great job and they look really nice. I think they will protect my mom's forearms from her dogs' nails. Her skin tears very easily and she catches her arms on boxes and the counter corners and things. After I finished with the computer, I went down to the family room and watched tv and read for a while. I was good until it was time to get ready for my Red Hat Social.
I got dressed in black slacks and a royal purple shirt and my hiking boots since there was still snow and ice on the ground. I got in the car and drove over to my Queen's house so we could car pool over to the mall. We arrived at the mall and met up with the rest of the group. We decided to eat first at the mall food court then go to the indoor mini-golf course under the black light called Glow Golf.
Glow Golfing was so much fun! It was rather warm and I did break out in a sweat while we went through the 18 holes. We had the chance to play another 18 holes but were pretty knackered by the end and said no, thanks. We took a group photo at the end and I made sure my new Raccoon tote got in the picture too.
I got home in the late evening and found out that hubby had gotten home about half an hour before me and had already feed the beasties. We got to retire upstairs to watch some more Apprentice UK on YouTube.
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
Today was a thinking day. Hubby stayed home in the morning to drive me to my therapist and pick me up because of all the snow and ice on the roads. When we got out to the main roads, they were wet but clear. Silly me! Neighborhood roads are still packed with snow and ice but it is slowly melting. He was so sweet to do this for me!
The subject that has been plaguing me as of late is mortality. Both for my parents and for me. Now my parents are in great health, exercise and try to eat right. They stay active and have outside interests, no stay at home and do nothing retirees! But my father is 70 and my mother is 69 and they have outlived their parents, I believe. So I worry about them, how much more time we have together. I have tried to be conscious about this and I have thought about what haven't I done or said that if my parents were to pass away, what would I regret? I would regret not making the most of having my parents live in town, just 15 minutes away and not visiting them as much as possible and not calling and speaking to my mom and sometimes my dad. So I try to talk to my parents every day, every other day at the most. I listen to my parents' stories and jokes and enjoy listening to them prattle. If they were to die tonight, I wouldn't feel any regrets. But the idea that someday they won't be here is still hard for me and I have dewelled on it. When talking to Steve about this, it finally came out that I didn't want to be left alone. Abandoned. He explained that since our parents are part of us, I will never truly be alone. I listened to his advice and agreed to think about it.
I did take Steve's advice to go on doing what I have been doing and make the most of having my parents around and called them when I got home and invited them out to lunch. The only catch? They would have to drive and pick me up. So they agreed and they picked me up at 1230. I asked them where they wanted to go and we went to one of their favorite restaurants, The Train. Mom and Dad know the history of the place and quite a few people in there. Mom got a philly cheesesteak with fries, Dad got The Sloppy which is a hamburger smothered in red chilli. I ordered the large chef salad and I swear they used a whole head of lettuce! Meat was piled high and the cheese was processed but still good. I ate some of it but them brought the rest home. When the waitress brought out my salad dressing, I did ask for it on the side, she bought out a bowl of it! My parents and a couple they are best friends with eat there often and the man of the couple eats salad dressing on everything, including his cottage cheese (YUCK!) so they are used to bringing out a bowl of salad dressing for him. So when I ordered the salad, they just did the same for me. Don't worry, I took all that salad dressing home with me for the leftover salad! And in Weight Watchers, they teach you to dip your empty fork in the salad dressing first, then pick up food. That way you get the taste of the dressing without drowning your food in it!
After we finished lunch, we went to do our favorite thing, shop at the thrift store! Mom and I each found good bread makers for only $10 each! And I found some sweaters for myself, hubby and Cassie. I found a cute pig statue with wings I got for Cassie too, as she really wants to buy a teacup pig but can't at the moment. I think she will like this. I also got 2 cooking books and a Robin Cook mystery.
After that, mom and dad dropped me off at home with my stuff and I stayed downstairs until 6pm, when hubby called. I had just taken off my boots and was sitting on the bed contemplating a nap when hubby said he wanted to take me out to dinner. I told him no, I have already taken off my shoes and I was still full from lunch. So I sent him to the store to see if they had their whole chickens back in stock for 88 cents a pound with the orders if they did, buy 10 of them. But no, they had gotten some in but they were sold out again so we got a rain check. Hubby came home and we spent a nice evening, after he ate a spinach souffle and a chicken kiev, watching Apprentice UK on YouTube. I really love this guy!
I also was reminded by my friend that Groupon has some really good deals so I went and signed up for their emails. I took a couple of minutes and went through some of their current offerings and found online guitar lessons for 3 years for only $35! So I bought it! I have always wanted to learn the guitar. So that is a new skill I have decided to learn.
The subject that has been plaguing me as of late is mortality. Both for my parents and for me. Now my parents are in great health, exercise and try to eat right. They stay active and have outside interests, no stay at home and do nothing retirees! But my father is 70 and my mother is 69 and they have outlived their parents, I believe. So I worry about them, how much more time we have together. I have tried to be conscious about this and I have thought about what haven't I done or said that if my parents were to pass away, what would I regret? I would regret not making the most of having my parents live in town, just 15 minutes away and not visiting them as much as possible and not calling and speaking to my mom and sometimes my dad. So I try to talk to my parents every day, every other day at the most. I listen to my parents' stories and jokes and enjoy listening to them prattle. If they were to die tonight, I wouldn't feel any regrets. But the idea that someday they won't be here is still hard for me and I have dewelled on it. When talking to Steve about this, it finally came out that I didn't want to be left alone. Abandoned. He explained that since our parents are part of us, I will never truly be alone. I listened to his advice and agreed to think about it.
I did take Steve's advice to go on doing what I have been doing and make the most of having my parents around and called them when I got home and invited them out to lunch. The only catch? They would have to drive and pick me up. So they agreed and they picked me up at 1230. I asked them where they wanted to go and we went to one of their favorite restaurants, The Train. Mom and Dad know the history of the place and quite a few people in there. Mom got a philly cheesesteak with fries, Dad got The Sloppy which is a hamburger smothered in red chilli. I ordered the large chef salad and I swear they used a whole head of lettuce! Meat was piled high and the cheese was processed but still good. I ate some of it but them brought the rest home. When the waitress brought out my salad dressing, I did ask for it on the side, she bought out a bowl of it! My parents and a couple they are best friends with eat there often and the man of the couple eats salad dressing on everything, including his cottage cheese (YUCK!) so they are used to bringing out a bowl of salad dressing for him. So when I ordered the salad, they just did the same for me. Don't worry, I took all that salad dressing home with me for the leftover salad! And in Weight Watchers, they teach you to dip your empty fork in the salad dressing first, then pick up food. That way you get the taste of the dressing without drowning your food in it!
After we finished lunch, we went to do our favorite thing, shop at the thrift store! Mom and I each found good bread makers for only $10 each! And I found some sweaters for myself, hubby and Cassie. I found a cute pig statue with wings I got for Cassie too, as she really wants to buy a teacup pig but can't at the moment. I think she will like this. I also got 2 cooking books and a Robin Cook mystery.
After that, mom and dad dropped me off at home with my stuff and I stayed downstairs until 6pm, when hubby called. I had just taken off my boots and was sitting on the bed contemplating a nap when hubby said he wanted to take me out to dinner. I told him no, I have already taken off my shoes and I was still full from lunch. So I sent him to the store to see if they had their whole chickens back in stock for 88 cents a pound with the orders if they did, buy 10 of them. But no, they had gotten some in but they were sold out again so we got a rain check. Hubby came home and we spent a nice evening, after he ate a spinach souffle and a chicken kiev, watching Apprentice UK on YouTube. I really love this guy!
I also was reminded by my friend that Groupon has some really good deals so I went and signed up for their emails. I took a couple of minutes and went through some of their current offerings and found online guitar lessons for 3 years for only $35! So I bought it! I have always wanted to learn the guitar. So that is a new skill I have decided to learn.
Monday, January 12, 2015
Monday, January 12, 2015
Today was a snowy day. This morning I woke up nicely to a world full of snow. The tree just outside of my window had all the branches outlined with the snow from the previous day and night. It turned the world into black and white and it was beautiful. I love real winter and we had gotten 5 inches of snow. The dogs were eager to go out and play in it. When I let them back in, they had snow on their noses from burrowing into it. I fed the beasties and made the bed, and had gotten dressed. I felt good! I had intended to crochet today but got busy watching Apprentice UK on YouTube. I got a call from hubby that he had decided to take half a day off and was coming home. He asked if he needed to pick anything up on his way in and I asked him to please pick me up some real lemonade. See, I take 2 family sized tea bags and put them in a glass gallon jar I have with a metal screw on lid, then fill it with cold water. We put it in the fridge for 12 to 24 hours before we pull the bags out. I fill up my glass with tea and add about an inch of lemonade to it. Mom calls it an Arnold Palmer, which is technically half tea and half lemonade. That's too strong for me. I like just a little bit of lemonade with my tea. My tea is kind of weak also, I don't like strong. I did have a glass of Pepsi today but by the time I finished it, I was ready to be done.
Hubby came home and finished shoveling the walk. The neighbor had used his snow blower and cleaned our public sidewalk and our driveway. All hubby had to do was shovel our private walkway. Unfortunately when walking backwards to lay down the ice melt, his foot hit our steps and he fell on his back. Poor baby! He was quite sore when he came in. I made him take his pain pills and have a lie down.
I got my Living on a Dine cookbook called Dining on a Dime in the mail the other day and started reading it. 1200 recipes and tips for money saving budgets. I am trying to get back to cooking dinner and cut out the eating out, learn to live on a budget and still like what we eat, make it healthy. Now my problem is I have forgotten how to make a lot of things and unlike most cookbooks, this is daily, everyday fare. I can take these recipes and use them as they are or embellish them a little and make them my own. There is a lot of good things in there and some of it we will take a pass. The Living on a Dime newsletter I get every week gives me tips on how to cut down my heating bill (close off the guest room since no one is staying in there, turn the heat down and put on a sweater) and dirty dishes can actually cost you money (if the kitchen is dirty you are more likely to go pick up fast food or eat out).
We ate lunch in, roast beef sandwiches. I added bread and butter pickles to mine and I only ate half of it. Tomorrow I will have lunch already made! When the mailman came, the insurance check we were expecting was in it, so I sent hubby to the bank to deposit it. We had borrowed $300 to shop for food so we had to pay that back. Now we just need to pay a bill or two then we can go to the attorney's and sign the paperwork for the bankruptcy. The question is whether we can get 2 new tires for the Saturn with what we have left.
The rest of the day went by quickly. I made dinner, defrosted some of my chicken pot pies with biscuits, cooked in the oven til the biscuit was nice and brown. We ordered biscuits from Schwan's and we tried out the cheese and garlic ones. The biscuits are individually frozen so you just take out what you need and bake. Not sure if this is cheaper than buying a whole can of biscuits to use two of them for pot pie and then having left over biscuits that will be eaten in the days to come. But we will see. The Dining on a Dime cookbook does have a biscuit recipe and I think I will try to make them and freeze them to see if I can do it cheaper than Schwan's.
You know, it felt good today to be up, dressed, have the bed made and cook dinner. I am looking forward to my therapy tomorrow, coming home and baking a ham and crocheting. I feel like by doing this stuff, I have a purpose, and that feels good. I have managed to push my fruit and veggie intake up to 5 servings today and I got close to 8 glasses of liquid today. Yeah!
Hubby came home and finished shoveling the walk. The neighbor had used his snow blower and cleaned our public sidewalk and our driveway. All hubby had to do was shovel our private walkway. Unfortunately when walking backwards to lay down the ice melt, his foot hit our steps and he fell on his back. Poor baby! He was quite sore when he came in. I made him take his pain pills and have a lie down.
I got my Living on a Dine cookbook called Dining on a Dime in the mail the other day and started reading it. 1200 recipes and tips for money saving budgets. I am trying to get back to cooking dinner and cut out the eating out, learn to live on a budget and still like what we eat, make it healthy. Now my problem is I have forgotten how to make a lot of things and unlike most cookbooks, this is daily, everyday fare. I can take these recipes and use them as they are or embellish them a little and make them my own. There is a lot of good things in there and some of it we will take a pass. The Living on a Dime newsletter I get every week gives me tips on how to cut down my heating bill (close off the guest room since no one is staying in there, turn the heat down and put on a sweater) and dirty dishes can actually cost you money (if the kitchen is dirty you are more likely to go pick up fast food or eat out).
We ate lunch in, roast beef sandwiches. I added bread and butter pickles to mine and I only ate half of it. Tomorrow I will have lunch already made! When the mailman came, the insurance check we were expecting was in it, so I sent hubby to the bank to deposit it. We had borrowed $300 to shop for food so we had to pay that back. Now we just need to pay a bill or two then we can go to the attorney's and sign the paperwork for the bankruptcy. The question is whether we can get 2 new tires for the Saturn with what we have left.
The rest of the day went by quickly. I made dinner, defrosted some of my chicken pot pies with biscuits, cooked in the oven til the biscuit was nice and brown. We ordered biscuits from Schwan's and we tried out the cheese and garlic ones. The biscuits are individually frozen so you just take out what you need and bake. Not sure if this is cheaper than buying a whole can of biscuits to use two of them for pot pie and then having left over biscuits that will be eaten in the days to come. But we will see. The Dining on a Dime cookbook does have a biscuit recipe and I think I will try to make them and freeze them to see if I can do it cheaper than Schwan's.
You know, it felt good today to be up, dressed, have the bed made and cook dinner. I am looking forward to my therapy tomorrow, coming home and baking a ham and crocheting. I feel like by doing this stuff, I have a purpose, and that feels good. I have managed to push my fruit and veggie intake up to 5 servings today and I got close to 8 glasses of liquid today. Yeah!
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Today was a dreaming day. This morning I woke up in the middle of pushing my hubby away as he tried to lean down and kiss me goodbye. I suddenly realized what I was doing and called him to come back to give him a proper kiss goodbye, then went back to sleep. I had been having a dream in which my daughter was pushing me away, over and over again, and woke up to find me doing the same to hubby! When I went back to sleep, it was only for about 20 minutes because the dogs decided they wanted to go out. It was a beautiful day, warmer than the previous day here in the Springs. The sun was out and the snow and ice was melting. The dogs were feeling pent up from the day before and were feeling their oats. I tried letting them out and then in and going back to bed but they wanted to play the in and out game. Breakfast was dry frosted mini-wheats and a glass of milk. It's funny but I can't see putting the milk on the mini-wheats and eating them that way.
I spent a couple of hours in bed watching Apprentice UK on YouTube, then was tired so took a nap. I was dreaming about being a teenager, living in a rural area. I was supposed to leave with another kid and go walking...somewhere. But I was afraid. It was getting late and the shadows were growing. At first, I was at my house, outside in the front yard, but by this time I was alone in the woods, surrounded by nature. I was supposed to follow a path and go but then again, the thought it was late and I was afraid went through my mind again. I woke up confused and disorientated. Hubby called at that time and our conversation was disjointed.
I spent the rest of the day watching YouTube and Hulu. Hubby finished working and doing the printing of our manual for the Docents for my Zoo. He does printing for Charities and the Zoo manuals for the Docent training is one. The classes to training the new Docents starts next Saturday on the 17th. The manual is 371 pages long and needs to be copied as single pages. They need to be 3 hole punched and shrink wrapped too. Hubby did all this on his own time today, after he finished work for his company. Tomorrow I need to call the Docent in charge of the manual and let her know she can pick them up. Hubby always makes me a copy of the manual so I will have the latest version.
When hubby got home today, his back was spasming and he took some pain pills and went to soak in the tub. After he got out, I massaged it for him for a little bit. Then he made me a grilled cheese sandwich for dinner. Later, when he was hungry, he made both of us peanut butter and peach jelly sandwiches.
Since I know the name of the Catholic church I want to attend, Monday I will call and see if I can schedule an appointment with the Padre for Tuesday. I would like to see if they will allow me to come back to the church since I have been divorced 3 times, married 4. If they say I have to get married in the Church, I am willing to do that. I don't know but I am hoping with my mental illness, they will discount the previous marriages. I have thought long and hard about this and would like to try to join the Church again. When I was in high school, I was Catholic and was in the choir with my Vice Principle. In choir, I called him by his first name but at school I had to call him Mr. so and so. I even had talked to a nun about becoming a nun, it was something I felt called to do but she said if I really wanted to be a nun, I should go to collage first and then I would be useful to them. Biggest mistake of my life, as my life took a definite downward spiral after that. True, if I had joined the church at that time I wouldn't have had my daughter or my step-daughters. But I can't help but wonder what my life would have been like, how my mental illness would have developed and been treated. How I would have fared.
I spent a couple of hours in bed watching Apprentice UK on YouTube, then was tired so took a nap. I was dreaming about being a teenager, living in a rural area. I was supposed to leave with another kid and go walking...somewhere. But I was afraid. It was getting late and the shadows were growing. At first, I was at my house, outside in the front yard, but by this time I was alone in the woods, surrounded by nature. I was supposed to follow a path and go but then again, the thought it was late and I was afraid went through my mind again. I woke up confused and disorientated. Hubby called at that time and our conversation was disjointed.
I spent the rest of the day watching YouTube and Hulu. Hubby finished working and doing the printing of our manual for the Docents for my Zoo. He does printing for Charities and the Zoo manuals for the Docent training is one. The classes to training the new Docents starts next Saturday on the 17th. The manual is 371 pages long and needs to be copied as single pages. They need to be 3 hole punched and shrink wrapped too. Hubby did all this on his own time today, after he finished work for his company. Tomorrow I need to call the Docent in charge of the manual and let her know she can pick them up. Hubby always makes me a copy of the manual so I will have the latest version.
When hubby got home today, his back was spasming and he took some pain pills and went to soak in the tub. After he got out, I massaged it for him for a little bit. Then he made me a grilled cheese sandwich for dinner. Later, when he was hungry, he made both of us peanut butter and peach jelly sandwiches.
Since I know the name of the Catholic church I want to attend, Monday I will call and see if I can schedule an appointment with the Padre for Tuesday. I would like to see if they will allow me to come back to the church since I have been divorced 3 times, married 4. If they say I have to get married in the Church, I am willing to do that. I don't know but I am hoping with my mental illness, they will discount the previous marriages. I have thought long and hard about this and would like to try to join the Church again. When I was in high school, I was Catholic and was in the choir with my Vice Principle. In choir, I called him by his first name but at school I had to call him Mr. so and so. I even had talked to a nun about becoming a nun, it was something I felt called to do but she said if I really wanted to be a nun, I should go to collage first and then I would be useful to them. Biggest mistake of my life, as my life took a definite downward spiral after that. True, if I had joined the church at that time I wouldn't have had my daughter or my step-daughters. But I can't help but wonder what my life would have been like, how my mental illness would have developed and been treated. How I would have fared.
Friday, January 9, 2015
Friday, January 9, 2015
Today was a sunny day. At least it was for the first half of the day. This morning hubby and I got up and out of the house by 8am. Well, we tried. In heading out of the house, we saw that we did have freezing drizzle the night before and there was a quarter of an inch of ice as a shell around the car. Scraping didn't do it, we had to warm up the car for 20 minutes before you could scrape the stuff off. We finally got going, stopped briefly at the gas station for drinks and then headed south and west, going up the mountain to Woodland Park.
The roads were slippery and going was slow as we made our way up the mountain. I laid back and talked to Cookie, our dog, as we headed towards the vet. We were on our way to the vet hospital so Cookie could get a full dental procedure of cleaning and teeth extractions. See, we had the dogs on Beneful dog food and it gave them cavities. It caked on their teeth and cause some of Cookies to go bad. So we did get them switched off that and on to a better food with meat as the first ingredient. Cookie had several loose teeth and several rotted ones. The estimate was $300 - $350. It had taken us awhile to get the money for the procedure but here we finally were.
We got Cookie checked into the vet and then headed down the road to one of my parent's favorite restaurants, The Hungry Bear. The menu was varied and the prices were moderate. After we were served, we found out that the food was good too.
We next drove to the movie theater to see what times the movies were playing but we found out that they were running too late for us to see any, so we headed over to Goodwill. Mom had said they had things that were unique to the area and recommended we stop. We found a set of sheets, 2 shirts for my hubby, a pair of high heels for my daughter and a book for me. We came in under our budget of $30 that we set.
Hubby wanted to go driving to explore the area so while he did that, I laid back in the seat and took a nap. After a while we ended back up in Woodland Park and we found a nice parking lot and pulled over. It was noon so we called and checked on Cookie. Vet said she was doing fine and we could pick her up in an hour. So hubby and I laid our seats back and took a nice rest in the sunshine.
We picked Cookie up at 1pm, then headed back down the mountain. As we rounded a curve, we could see the tops of the clouds covering The Springs. Into the doom and gloom we descended, dreading the return to the overcast and palling day. We made it home by 2, where hubby then proceeded to sleep for the rest of the afternoon. Cookie also.
We spent the rest of the night snuggling and watching Hulu and YouTube.
The roads were slippery and going was slow as we made our way up the mountain. I laid back and talked to Cookie, our dog, as we headed towards the vet. We were on our way to the vet hospital so Cookie could get a full dental procedure of cleaning and teeth extractions. See, we had the dogs on Beneful dog food and it gave them cavities. It caked on their teeth and cause some of Cookies to go bad. So we did get them switched off that and on to a better food with meat as the first ingredient. Cookie had several loose teeth and several rotted ones. The estimate was $300 - $350. It had taken us awhile to get the money for the procedure but here we finally were.
We got Cookie checked into the vet and then headed down the road to one of my parent's favorite restaurants, The Hungry Bear. The menu was varied and the prices were moderate. After we were served, we found out that the food was good too.
We next drove to the movie theater to see what times the movies were playing but we found out that they were running too late for us to see any, so we headed over to Goodwill. Mom had said they had things that were unique to the area and recommended we stop. We found a set of sheets, 2 shirts for my hubby, a pair of high heels for my daughter and a book for me. We came in under our budget of $30 that we set.
Hubby wanted to go driving to explore the area so while he did that, I laid back in the seat and took a nap. After a while we ended back up in Woodland Park and we found a nice parking lot and pulled over. It was noon so we called and checked on Cookie. Vet said she was doing fine and we could pick her up in an hour. So hubby and I laid our seats back and took a nice rest in the sunshine.
We picked Cookie up at 1pm, then headed back down the mountain. As we rounded a curve, we could see the tops of the clouds covering The Springs. Into the doom and gloom we descended, dreading the return to the overcast and palling day. We made it home by 2, where hubby then proceeded to sleep for the rest of the afternoon. Cookie also.
We spent the rest of the night snuggling and watching Hulu and YouTube.
Thursday, January 8, 2015
Thursday, January 8, 2015
Today was a nice day! This morning I got to get up semi-early and get dressed to go out and help my friend while she was in a therapy session with my therapist. She has an 18 month old girl who they never have babysitters for and she allowed me to watch her while she was in session. Now you can imagine how Abbey would act being left for the third or forth time with someone else other than the other parent. Yes, she cried and cried her little heart out. For about 20-30 minutes. I took her out to the foyer and we walked and I rocked her. I finally got her distracted enough to start playing with stacking the bark and playing with her plastic Christmas ornaments. Boy, watching an 18 month old and entertaining her takes a lot out of me. I tried to take a nap when I got home but to no avail.
Wednesday, January 7, 2015
Wednesday, January 7, 2015
Today was an unexpected day. This morning I had planned on get up, getting dressed, dropping hubby off at work early and then picking up my mom. We were then going to take the dog, Cookie, and drive up the mountain to Woodland Park to the vet. But as hubby and I were putting on our coats to leave, the leash was on Cookie, I got a call from hubby's office. Someone had just come down the mountain and told Dawn that it very very slippery going up the mountain and lots of car will sliding all over the place and if we could, we should postpone. So I called the vet and set the appointment up for Friday, when the weather will be much nicer and hubby will be off, then we could go together.
Since we were already up and dressed, I suggested we go out to breakfast, so we did. Hubby and I unleashed the dog and went to Village Inn. I had a Denver Omelette and french toast and hubby had scrambled eggs, bacon and toast. It was nice and pleasant.
After breakfast, hubby dropped me back off at home and went on to work. I picked up my computer and phone charger and settled in downstairs. For the rest of the day, I played on the computer and watched tv. I didn't do another thing all day but I did stay downstairs until now, 11pm at night. I didn't walk on the treadmill but I did play with the dogs and get up and down a lot letting the dogs out to play in the snow.
Since we were already up and dressed, I suggested we go out to breakfast, so we did. Hubby and I unleashed the dog and went to Village Inn. I had a Denver Omelette and french toast and hubby had scrambled eggs, bacon and toast. It was nice and pleasant.
After breakfast, hubby dropped me back off at home and went on to work. I picked up my computer and phone charger and settled in downstairs. For the rest of the day, I played on the computer and watched tv. I didn't do another thing all day but I did stay downstairs until now, 11pm at night. I didn't walk on the treadmill but I did play with the dogs and get up and down a lot letting the dogs out to play in the snow.
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
Today has been a thinking and reflecting day. I have therapy today with Steve. I paid him his money I owed him for December 2014 and paid for all of January's session. We talked about how, right now, I don't feel like I have accomplished much so we took a good look at what I have done up to 2 weeks ago. The house refinance, the paperwork for The Big B, all those cowl scarves I made and all the other presents I figured out for our daughters, parents, and sister. So I have done a lot and there is nothing wrong with taking it easy and doing nothing for the last two weeks. At least that is what Steve says. And we talked about how I haven't done any housework, creative or otherwise, since I was getting ready for the carpets to be cleaned. We decided I need to take it in chunks, like today. Today I took off the ornaments and candy canes from the Christmas tree. Tomorrow, after I get home from the vet, I am going to take down the tree it's self and put it back in the garage, or will probably let hubby put it away in the garage.
Then I will break out the vacuum and vacuum the floor on the craft room floor only. Not to say that the rest of the floors don't need vacuuming but when I start thinking about it, it becomes too overwhelming, so I will just plan on doing one floor, and if I feel like it, then I will do more. But a simple, small thing once a day is a good plan, don't you think? I do.
I meant to walk on the treadmill today but got caught up on watching tv and playing on the computer. When I thought of it, it was too late, cause now is when I just thought about it. And I have already taken my meds and in my jammies while I am writing this. Getting back into a routine is hard work! Tomorrow will be better!
Tomorrow I have to get up early, around 8, and then take hubby to work and go pick up my mom. We are going to take one of my dogs, Cookie, to the vet for a full dental cleaning and have a couple of teeth extracted. I have to drive up the mountain to get to the vets. Mom and I will take Cookie to the vet then go have lunch at mom's favorite cafe. You get to spin a wheel there and possibly get your food free! Then we will go shopping until the vet calls and tells me that Cookie is out of anesthesia and waking up and ready to go home. I wasn't able to get my mom a present for her birthday so I am taking her out to lunch.
Tomorrow is going to be about 30 degrees colder than it was today, maybe hit 30. And we are expecting a light snow and possibly freezing rain so driving will be interesting. I am leaving with plenty of time to get hubby dropped off early and pick up mom and get up the mountain to David's, the vet. Depending on how much walking around we will be doing, I may not walk on the treadmill when I get home but I will see how I feel. When Cookie is done, I have to come down the mountain and drop mom off at her house. Then I have to go pick up hubby and have him drive Cookie and me back home, then he can take the car.
I'm going to sleep earlier tonight, around midnight. Good night, Puss!
Then I will break out the vacuum and vacuum the floor on the craft room floor only. Not to say that the rest of the floors don't need vacuuming but when I start thinking about it, it becomes too overwhelming, so I will just plan on doing one floor, and if I feel like it, then I will do more. But a simple, small thing once a day is a good plan, don't you think? I do.
I meant to walk on the treadmill today but got caught up on watching tv and playing on the computer. When I thought of it, it was too late, cause now is when I just thought about it. And I have already taken my meds and in my jammies while I am writing this. Getting back into a routine is hard work! Tomorrow will be better!
Tomorrow I have to get up early, around 8, and then take hubby to work and go pick up my mom. We are going to take one of my dogs, Cookie, to the vet for a full dental cleaning and have a couple of teeth extracted. I have to drive up the mountain to get to the vets. Mom and I will take Cookie to the vet then go have lunch at mom's favorite cafe. You get to spin a wheel there and possibly get your food free! Then we will go shopping until the vet calls and tells me that Cookie is out of anesthesia and waking up and ready to go home. I wasn't able to get my mom a present for her birthday so I am taking her out to lunch.
Tomorrow is going to be about 30 degrees colder than it was today, maybe hit 30. And we are expecting a light snow and possibly freezing rain so driving will be interesting. I am leaving with plenty of time to get hubby dropped off early and pick up mom and get up the mountain to David's, the vet. Depending on how much walking around we will be doing, I may not walk on the treadmill when I get home but I will see how I feel. When Cookie is done, I have to come down the mountain and drop mom off at her house. Then I have to go pick up hubby and have him drive Cookie and me back home, then he can take the car.
I'm going to sleep earlier tonight, around midnight. Good night, Puss!
Monday, January 5, 2015
Monday, January 5, 2015
Today was a tiring day. I started out the morning by getting up early. I had to get dressed and drop hubby off at work then head over to my friend's house to help her organize her craft room. She had just gotten some plastic bins and we were separating everything into their own drawers. She does a couple of different crafts, like filo dough and sewing and things with buttons and beads. She will need to get one more drawer to get everything put away but we got a majority of the stuff organized. It was nice to help someone do this and I look forward to doing more of this to my things. I worked hard for several hours and was sweating by the time I was done! My hair was wet!
After I was done, I just drove home and tried to take a nap but couldn't sleep. When lunch time rolled around, I headed back to hubby's work to pick him up so we could exchange the car. After he dropped me off with lunch, I spent the rest of the day relaxing and playing with the dogs. My daughter called and told me that she had two friends that wanted cowl scarves just like her's so I told her sure! Tomorrow I will buy the yarn and start working on them. Yippie! They like my design! And she said more of her friends want them too so she is going to put up a sign up sheet to see how many. That's a lot of work but I'm up for it! And I loved working hard crocheting for Christmas presents and this is just as good. They are going to pay for the yarn so I can do it.
I ate a good dinner and had a salad and two pieces of pizza. I drank a good amount of liquid today and plan on really pushing it tomorrow. The workout at Judithmary's this morning got my heart rate up so I didn't walk on the treadmill but mostly I just forgot about it so tomorrow I will do better.
After I was done, I just drove home and tried to take a nap but couldn't sleep. When lunch time rolled around, I headed back to hubby's work to pick him up so we could exchange the car. After he dropped me off with lunch, I spent the rest of the day relaxing and playing with the dogs. My daughter called and told me that she had two friends that wanted cowl scarves just like her's so I told her sure! Tomorrow I will buy the yarn and start working on them. Yippie! They like my design! And she said more of her friends want them too so she is going to put up a sign up sheet to see how many. That's a lot of work but I'm up for it! And I loved working hard crocheting for Christmas presents and this is just as good. They are going to pay for the yarn so I can do it.
I ate a good dinner and had a salad and two pieces of pizza. I drank a good amount of liquid today and plan on really pushing it tomorrow. The workout at Judithmary's this morning got my heart rate up so I didn't walk on the treadmill but mostly I just forgot about it so tomorrow I will do better.
Sunday, January 4, 2015
Sunday, January 4, 2015
Today was a lax day. I got woken up by the dogs whining at 9am. I got up, let them out and went back to bed. Then I heard them scratching at the door so I went down and let them in, then came back up nad went back to bed. then 20 minutes later, they were whining again so I woke up, got up and let them outside. When I came back up I decided to do my morning pages, which I haven't done since the 31st of December. I had a very vivid dream about my husband leaving me. I didn't know why and I was looking for clues in this software program. It was old fashioned video game screen, like Nitendo Zelda or something. He was lost in the program but not like in Tron where he was sucked into the program.
The next thing I know I am at a warehouse, looking for people and there is evidence that people were there and just left. There was an ironing board in use, all the way up on a shelf, very high. It had an iron and books on it. I was wondering how it got up there. It was really bothering me. The people came back in the warehouse, they had escaped the monster that was going to eat them. They thought about hiding on top of the garage door (way up higher than the ironing board shelf) but knew the monster could smell them and would eat them. They had a baby, too, and couldn't depend on her to be quiet either.
I finally found out how they got the ironing board up there, there is a chain you pull and it raises the shelf up and down. The chain was hid behind other stuff so you couldn't see it. A secret way to raise things. I was greatly relieved.
Next I was going into a strippers house, a working house where strippers lived and entertained. I can;t remember why I was sneaking in there but it was me and another woman. We were trying to find something out. I never did find out what happened to my husband, kind of forgot about him. The ironing board was something that bothered me the most, how it got up there.
I finished another cowl scarf today, a bright yellow yarn that is washable and can be dried in the dryer. I think it is a good job and I enjoyed making it. Crocheting helps me do something with my hands and helps calm me. I feel lazy just sitting here and watching tv, so crocheting helps me do something. And hubby is going to list my scarf on his Etsy shop at a price of $30 to see if anyone is interested in buying one. Tomorrow I will start on a new bulldog for my parents, and hopefully I will be able to do it better this time. If I still can't do it and have it come out right, I will give my mom the pattern. This time I know how to correctly do all the stitches and will not overstuff the body. And I will make sure to stuff all the pieces of the face. I am determined to get the face on right this time. I do have to go and buy another pound of white yarn and will do so tomorrow, on Monday, after I finish with my Red Hat Queen, helping her organize her crafting supplies. Hubby is starting the beginning of the semester for his school and will be working from 9am to 9pm Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Hopefully he will be able to break away and exchange the car. but maybe not as he got a call this afternoon from one of his ladies, she had fallen on some ice at her church in the parking lot and broken her arm. The doctors in the ER did not put a cast on it, they immobilized it and said she needed to see the specialist in the morning. So she will not be returning to work for the foreseeable future. That will make it harder on hubby and the other lady at work. Boy, are their workstudies going to be running!
Tomorrow will be the return of a normal schedule. Since we didn't get the Christmas stuff taken down this weekend, I will have to do it tomorrow. I know where all the boxes are and will try to get it done by myself since hubby will be exhausted by the time he gets home. And I am going to try to walk on the treadmill in the late afternoon. I think I know where I have some notebooks stored and will be looking for one to act as my food tracker, which is another goal of mine to do.
The next thing I know I am at a warehouse, looking for people and there is evidence that people were there and just left. There was an ironing board in use, all the way up on a shelf, very high. It had an iron and books on it. I was wondering how it got up there. It was really bothering me. The people came back in the warehouse, they had escaped the monster that was going to eat them. They thought about hiding on top of the garage door (way up higher than the ironing board shelf) but knew the monster could smell them and would eat them. They had a baby, too, and couldn't depend on her to be quiet either.
I finally found out how they got the ironing board up there, there is a chain you pull and it raises the shelf up and down. The chain was hid behind other stuff so you couldn't see it. A secret way to raise things. I was greatly relieved.
Next I was going into a strippers house, a working house where strippers lived and entertained. I can;t remember why I was sneaking in there but it was me and another woman. We were trying to find something out. I never did find out what happened to my husband, kind of forgot about him. The ironing board was something that bothered me the most, how it got up there.
I finished another cowl scarf today, a bright yellow yarn that is washable and can be dried in the dryer. I think it is a good job and I enjoyed making it. Crocheting helps me do something with my hands and helps calm me. I feel lazy just sitting here and watching tv, so crocheting helps me do something. And hubby is going to list my scarf on his Etsy shop at a price of $30 to see if anyone is interested in buying one. Tomorrow I will start on a new bulldog for my parents, and hopefully I will be able to do it better this time. If I still can't do it and have it come out right, I will give my mom the pattern. This time I know how to correctly do all the stitches and will not overstuff the body. And I will make sure to stuff all the pieces of the face. I am determined to get the face on right this time. I do have to go and buy another pound of white yarn and will do so tomorrow, on Monday, after I finish with my Red Hat Queen, helping her organize her crafting supplies. Hubby is starting the beginning of the semester for his school and will be working from 9am to 9pm Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Hopefully he will be able to break away and exchange the car. but maybe not as he got a call this afternoon from one of his ladies, she had fallen on some ice at her church in the parking lot and broken her arm. The doctors in the ER did not put a cast on it, they immobilized it and said she needed to see the specialist in the morning. So she will not be returning to work for the foreseeable future. That will make it harder on hubby and the other lady at work. Boy, are their workstudies going to be running!
Tomorrow will be the return of a normal schedule. Since we didn't get the Christmas stuff taken down this weekend, I will have to do it tomorrow. I know where all the boxes are and will try to get it done by myself since hubby will be exhausted by the time he gets home. And I am going to try to walk on the treadmill in the late afternoon. I think I know where I have some notebooks stored and will be looking for one to act as my food tracker, which is another goal of mine to do.
Saturday, January 3, 2015
Saturday, January 3, 2015
Today was an early day! I had to get up at 7am to get ready for a Docent meeting at the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo, for which I am one. I the Zoo as a Docent two years ago, going through training for 3 months. Every Saturday from 9 til 4, and I will tell you it was a little hard to stay awake during the lectures, it's been a long time since I have been in school. Today, since I had to be at the Zoo by 9 so I can walk to the meeting site and be settled by the start of 930, I required a Pepsi, which I had in gallons. We had gotten two different messages about where the meeting was being held and I started walking toward our normal meeting space at Safari Cabin. I hadn't gotten very far when I stopped to see where this other woman was walking and then we both stopped and watched the deer casually stroll down the road. Then James to the rescue! He had a large golf cart and asked me if I was going to the Docent's meeting and I answered in the affirmative, so he offered me a ride to the other meeting site at the top of the hill. I was so glad I didn't have to walk up the cold and icy road to get to Moose Lodge! We picked up Docents on the way.
I have devised a method for staying awake at meetings, I crochet. Today I was working on a bright yellow cowl scarf and my neighboring Docent asked me if I made them for sale and I said yes. I described what mine look like, how they are are right up against the neck loosely and tall, so they can also be worn over your head like a hood while still covering your neck. She asked how much they were and I told her $35, which I thought was quite reasonable but she reacted like I said they were $100! If there was a sale to be made, I didn't get it, but oh well, I did stay awake during the meeting and during the lecture by an animal intern. We learned a little about the giraffes and their training for hoof care and how to tell the different giraffes apart by looking at their chest spots. She had pictures of a couple and told us who they were and how to recognize them. It was quite interesting.
We broke up sooner than I expected, at 1115 instead of 1145am and I proceeded out to my car in Guest parking. Then I drove back to hubby's work and waited 2 hours while he finished working. I crocheted a little and played on FaceBook. Wrote my cousin a letter. She is feeling a little down as her ex is getting remarried today and though she was the one to want the divorce, she was feeling a little inadequate, that everyone there would think his new wife was better. I told her to stop thinking that and get out of the house! Do something that you will enjoy and know that you made the right decision for you! Both her sons went to the wedding. Her ex planned that for his honeymoon they would be gone to Florida for a month. A month? Yes, a whole month. That is more than he did for my cousin. When they were married they never traveled for vacation, he never wanted to go anyplace. Oh well, she is much better shed of him.
I was so tired by the time we go done with hubby's work, he dropped me off at home then ran his errand and picked up some lunch at Popeye's. After we ate, we both laid down for a nap and slept for 3 hours! I wasn't quite done when we woke up and slept for another 2 hours! Needless to say, we were late feeding the beasties their dinners.
This weekend is a last ditch, have fun and do whatever we want, but still pack up and put away the Christmas stuff tomorrow. After this weekend, I will plan on how to proceed to get my exercise and get the dogs some exercise. And start my food diary. And plan on something productive every day, like doing some small bit of creative housekeeping.
I have devised a method for staying awake at meetings, I crochet. Today I was working on a bright yellow cowl scarf and my neighboring Docent asked me if I made them for sale and I said yes. I described what mine look like, how they are are right up against the neck loosely and tall, so they can also be worn over your head like a hood while still covering your neck. She asked how much they were and I told her $35, which I thought was quite reasonable but she reacted like I said they were $100! If there was a sale to be made, I didn't get it, but oh well, I did stay awake during the meeting and during the lecture by an animal intern. We learned a little about the giraffes and their training for hoof care and how to tell the different giraffes apart by looking at their chest spots. She had pictures of a couple and told us who they were and how to recognize them. It was quite interesting.
We broke up sooner than I expected, at 1115 instead of 1145am and I proceeded out to my car in Guest parking. Then I drove back to hubby's work and waited 2 hours while he finished working. I crocheted a little and played on FaceBook. Wrote my cousin a letter. She is feeling a little down as her ex is getting remarried today and though she was the one to want the divorce, she was feeling a little inadequate, that everyone there would think his new wife was better. I told her to stop thinking that and get out of the house! Do something that you will enjoy and know that you made the right decision for you! Both her sons went to the wedding. Her ex planned that for his honeymoon they would be gone to Florida for a month. A month? Yes, a whole month. That is more than he did for my cousin. When they were married they never traveled for vacation, he never wanted to go anyplace. Oh well, she is much better shed of him.
I was so tired by the time we go done with hubby's work, he dropped me off at home then ran his errand and picked up some lunch at Popeye's. After we ate, we both laid down for a nap and slept for 3 hours! I wasn't quite done when we woke up and slept for another 2 hours! Needless to say, we were late feeding the beasties their dinners.
This weekend is a last ditch, have fun and do whatever we want, but still pack up and put away the Christmas stuff tomorrow. After this weekend, I will plan on how to proceed to get my exercise and get the dogs some exercise. And start my food diary. And plan on something productive every day, like doing some small bit of creative housekeeping.
Friday, January 2, 2015
Friday, January 2, 2015
Today was an adjustment day. Hubby had to work today so I woke up around 6am, after not being able to get to sleep until around 230am. I tried to go back to sleep until a decent hour but to no avail. So I started watching Apprentice UK Season 1 again and then watched the rest of Northern Exposures Season 2. And while I watched these shows, I started crocheting another cowl scarf of my own design. I made some good progress on it today, it's a bright yellow yarn and looks so cheerful. It will be very pretty when it is done. Hubby is going to put it on his Etsy shop when it is done. I make the crafts as therapy and he sells them so we don't have a bunch of stuff cluttering up the place. At least that is how we plan on doing things, in theory.
I never did take a nap today but got very frustrated from our old mail order prescription company, hubby's company changed them to another company as of the first of the year. The old ones called me today saying they have my prescription sitting there, it has been sitting there for over a week and it would cost me $460 for a 3 month supply. How did I want to pay for it? I said you are not our company anymore and should have called me last week when I could have done something about it. I thought I had paid enough on my account for the payment to be made and no one corrected me when called and paid my bill. Now I have to call my shrink to reissue prescriptions and I am going to be out in 3 days. Brother!
Hubby got off and back home before 6 and we talked and visited about our days. He did some chores around the house and later in the evening, he made us some chef salads with french dressing. We ate it and lazed about the rest of the evening. I told him after this weekend I would have to adjust to being past the holidays. Start tracking my food, every morsel that went in my mouth. Make sure I was drinking 8 glasses of fluid a day. Start walking either with the dogs or inside on the treadmill. It's time to get healthy.
I never did take a nap today but got very frustrated from our old mail order prescription company, hubby's company changed them to another company as of the first of the year. The old ones called me today saying they have my prescription sitting there, it has been sitting there for over a week and it would cost me $460 for a 3 month supply. How did I want to pay for it? I said you are not our company anymore and should have called me last week when I could have done something about it. I thought I had paid enough on my account for the payment to be made and no one corrected me when called and paid my bill. Now I have to call my shrink to reissue prescriptions and I am going to be out in 3 days. Brother!
Hubby got off and back home before 6 and we talked and visited about our days. He did some chores around the house and later in the evening, he made us some chef salads with french dressing. We ate it and lazed about the rest of the evening. I told him after this weekend I would have to adjust to being past the holidays. Start tracking my food, every morsel that went in my mouth. Make sure I was drinking 8 glasses of fluid a day. Start walking either with the dogs or inside on the treadmill. It's time to get healthy.
Thursday, January 1, 2015
New Year's Day, Thursday, January 1, 2015
Today was a restful day. Hubby and I slept in until 11am and then I woke up slowly and he woke up in pain. He always wakes up in pain but he slept in more than 6 hours and his back was in spasms. Hubby had a disc herniate in his neck and start to bulge out sideways and was damaging the nerve for his arm. They had to slice down his neck and back to remove the muscles attached to the shoulder to get to the disc. This has caused him to be in pain if he sleeps more than 6 hours. He takes ibuprofen and prescription pain pills to help him be able to do anything.
I stayed in my jammies all day and played on the computer, downloaded a virus, and then read Flea Market Style magazine. Hubby got dressed and went to the store to get the ingredients to make rubens for a late lunch. Since it had been snowing all day, after he got back from the store, he shoveled the walks for us and our neighbors on both sides. Our neighbor to the north is an older couple, the wife is house-bound, and the neighbors to the south moved out. They are in the process of selling the house.
Eventually hubby came back inside and then cleaned up the kitchen, emptied the dishwasher then cooked the rubens. By now I was past the point of hungry and on the verge of nausea. But the rubens were worth the wait. We had them with tater tots. Now my mom had brought us up to believe that you eat poor on the first day of the year and then you will each well all the rest. Rubens are poor food, aren't they? By the same thinking, if you are lazy on the first day of the year, you will be productive on all the rest. Right?
After making our late lunch, early dinner, of which we both could only eat half of our sandwiches, we settled upstairs and watched Thursday night television. It was a quiet day and very restful. Tomorrow hubby has to work so I will be able to balance our checking account and see how much money we have left for all the spending I had done. We also picked up a pizza from the take and bake place for dinner tomorrow.
I stayed in my jammies all day and played on the computer, downloaded a virus, and then read Flea Market Style magazine. Hubby got dressed and went to the store to get the ingredients to make rubens for a late lunch. Since it had been snowing all day, after he got back from the store, he shoveled the walks for us and our neighbors on both sides. Our neighbor to the north is an older couple, the wife is house-bound, and the neighbors to the south moved out. They are in the process of selling the house.
Eventually hubby came back inside and then cleaned up the kitchen, emptied the dishwasher then cooked the rubens. By now I was past the point of hungry and on the verge of nausea. But the rubens were worth the wait. We had them with tater tots. Now my mom had brought us up to believe that you eat poor on the first day of the year and then you will each well all the rest. Rubens are poor food, aren't they? By the same thinking, if you are lazy on the first day of the year, you will be productive on all the rest. Right?
After making our late lunch, early dinner, of which we both could only eat half of our sandwiches, we settled upstairs and watched Thursday night television. It was a quiet day and very restful. Tomorrow hubby has to work so I will be able to balance our checking account and see how much money we have left for all the spending I had done. We also picked up a pizza from the take and bake place for dinner tomorrow.
New Year's Eve, Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Today is the last day of the year. I woke up late and did my morning pages. I did get dressed in some leggings and my hubby's dress shirt. I expected hubby to work late, maybe to 7 or later but he surprised me by showing up at home before 5! He said he was sitting there with hours of work ahead of him, he had end of the year inventory and all sorts of reports to do. But he said that since he had to work Friday, he would just do the reports then and he was crazy to take me out to dinner. I dressed in some jeans and a nice top and we headed out. At first we were going to go to Hu Hot, which is a Mongolian BBQ. Yeah, I didn't know what that was either until hubby took me there a year ago. It is buffets full of different veggies and meats that you pile up high on a bowl, as much as you want of anything. Then you go over to the sauce station and choose from all these sauces, just one or a combination of sauces. I add 7 ladles full to my bowl, then you stand in line to the grill. There is the chefs and they take your bowl of stuff and put it on the grill, which is a big circle. They cook your meal and then when it is ready, they plate it and give it back to you. I love it! But it wasn't quite what I wanted, so we talked on the way there and decided to keep heading up the road and go to Cracker Barrel, another of our favorites. Good food at good prices. And plenty of it!
We got there at 530pm and got seated right away. There was a good crowd there already, families and older couples, but still plenty of seating available. We ordered and then played the game they had on the table. Our food arrived shortly after. Hubby had the rib eye steak rare and I had the Apple and chicken salad on a bed of greens. They offer salad dressing so I tried on that had an onion name but I didn't like it so I asked her to bring me some french. But by the time she brought it, I had finished my chicken salad and was full. We had a nice dinner and then perused the store in front. We always buy our favorite old fashioned candy here and then I went a little shopping crazy and picked out some clothes for our granddaughters, the one year old and the unborn one, due February 22nd. Then I had to have a miniature toy pig that you add batteries to and it will walk around, scrunch up it's snout and oink.
We bought all our stuff and then got back into the car. Hubby wanted to go to the book store and look at some graphic novels and I wanted to look at some crochet books but the store was closed, so we drove home and checked out the used book store but it was closed also. Since it was right next to Target, who was open, we went in there to look at the books and dvds. We found several movies we wanted and I found 6 Debbie MacComber books I haven't read yet so I bought those. Now here is where my desire to spend money took over and I decided we would take a walk around the store the long way to get back to the registers, hence more chances of spending money. We found some clearence infant clothes and got some pants and onesies for the soon to be born girl granddaughter. Our total there was almost $150! Oh boy, so glad we were done! We headed home.
We got home, fed the beasties and let them out, then retired upstairs to watch movies. Wanted to watch What about Bob with Bill Murrary but watched a couple of the movies we bought instead. I looked up and realized it was 1159pm and we turned on NBC just in time to see the ball drop for the last 24 seconds. We counted down, holding up celebratory beers. When the ball touched the bottom and it was midnight, we kissed. So romantic!
Daughter Cassie called and then we skyped. She was with her fiance, Drew, his parents and his sister with her boyfriend. We passed congratulatory Happy New Years around, they were all dressed up nicely and we were in jammies, and then said our good byes. Cassie and I always talk after midnight on NYE to tell each other Happy New Year's!
Hubby and I stayed up until 130am, just watching tv and then drifted off peaceably to sleep.
We got there at 530pm and got seated right away. There was a good crowd there already, families and older couples, but still plenty of seating available. We ordered and then played the game they had on the table. Our food arrived shortly after. Hubby had the rib eye steak rare and I had the Apple and chicken salad on a bed of greens. They offer salad dressing so I tried on that had an onion name but I didn't like it so I asked her to bring me some french. But by the time she brought it, I had finished my chicken salad and was full. We had a nice dinner and then perused the store in front. We always buy our favorite old fashioned candy here and then I went a little shopping crazy and picked out some clothes for our granddaughters, the one year old and the unborn one, due February 22nd. Then I had to have a miniature toy pig that you add batteries to and it will walk around, scrunch up it's snout and oink.
We bought all our stuff and then got back into the car. Hubby wanted to go to the book store and look at some graphic novels and I wanted to look at some crochet books but the store was closed, so we drove home and checked out the used book store but it was closed also. Since it was right next to Target, who was open, we went in there to look at the books and dvds. We found several movies we wanted and I found 6 Debbie MacComber books I haven't read yet so I bought those. Now here is where my desire to spend money took over and I decided we would take a walk around the store the long way to get back to the registers, hence more chances of spending money. We found some clearence infant clothes and got some pants and onesies for the soon to be born girl granddaughter. Our total there was almost $150! Oh boy, so glad we were done! We headed home.
We got home, fed the beasties and let them out, then retired upstairs to watch movies. Wanted to watch What about Bob with Bill Murrary but watched a couple of the movies we bought instead. I looked up and realized it was 1159pm and we turned on NBC just in time to see the ball drop for the last 24 seconds. We counted down, holding up celebratory beers. When the ball touched the bottom and it was midnight, we kissed. So romantic!
Daughter Cassie called and then we skyped. She was with her fiance, Drew, his parents and his sister with her boyfriend. We passed congratulatory Happy New Years around, they were all dressed up nicely and we were in jammies, and then said our good byes. Cassie and I always talk after midnight on NYE to tell each other Happy New Year's!
Hubby and I stayed up until 130am, just watching tv and then drifted off peaceably to sleep.
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