Good evening! It has been a full day and I accomplished much. This morning I got and wrote a shortened morning pages, I was in a bit of a hurry and didn't get up early enough to write them out fully. My friend and her one year old came over to play and crochet. It has been a while since we have gotten together so it was a nice little reunion. Abbey has grown! It only took a little while for her to warm up to me and let me interact with her. Remember I put up my white Christmas tree but hadn't decorated it yet? Well, I got out the shatter proof (as Walmart calls them, plastic is what I call them) ornaments and would hand Abbey one with a hook on it and her mom would say, Where do you want to put it? Abbey would hand her mom the ornament and point to where on the tree she wanted it. We hung a lot of ornaments about two feet high. I am not sure if we are going to rearrange the ornaments later or just leave them as she decorated.
I got in some crocheting on the mutant bulldog, I got all the ears made, whip stitched together and whip stitched onto the dog. Now the mutant bulldog looks like a seal with ears. Making the chin is next then the wrinkle for over the snout. It is currently put away in the closet because it is a present for my parents and they are coming over tomorrow for Thanksgiving Dinner. So away it went and out came the florescent yellow yarn. I balled it and started another lightweight cowl scarf for my daughter, Sarah. I can work on it tomorrow when the parents are here and work on it when I need a break from the mutant bulldog.
I swept the kitchen floor and arranged for the carpet cleaners to come today to redo a couple of spots. I cleaned up the dirty dishes from last night and this morning and I worked on putting more stuff on the craft table either away in a box to go out to the garage, into the trash or put away. I must admit that it is getting harder to deal with some of the stuff. I had to stop because I was getting anxious. I didn't have time to go through all the papers and read them. I was afraid if I put them in a box for the garage that they were something I might need so I stopped before it became an anxiety attack. We have to clean the bathroom for when my parents visit tomorrow, and it needs to be cleaned anyway but I was unable to bring myself to do it. I went in the bathroom and stood there, trying to bring myself to visualize what to do. I was doing that when the anxiety got to be too much, I had to leave the room. I have faced my fears and failed. Maybe tomorrow, when the pressure of my parents coming, will give me the strength to take a broom to the floor, spray the Windex on the mirror and wipe it, put the chemicals in the toilet and scrub it, scrub the sink. It doesn't sound so bad when I type it out but even now, in the safety of my own bed, I am getting a heaviness in my chest, my breathing has escalated and my heart is beating faster. I can't think about his anymore. Baseball, falcons, dolls, french fries, McDonalds, kitty litter, cars, cats, dogs, dogs, dogs, dogs. I need my Kira, my corgi. When I get anxious petting her calms me down.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and we are having my parents over. Early in the morning, my hubby will get up and put the turkey in the oven. Later we will bake the ham, and adding for dinner, corn, french cut green beans, yams, jelly rolls, mashed potatoes, gravey, brownies, gingerbread, blueberry muffins, peach pie and pumpkin pie. There will be a lot to do but a lot to celebrate. Unfortunately none of the children can be with us today but we are celebrating they are all well (except for Cassie, who has the flu), with the ones they love and celebrating on their own. We will be going up to see Cassie later this weekend, she lives only 3 hours away.
God bless and have a good Thanksgiving!
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