Today was a good day. I got up at 10am and spent a leisurely time writing my morning pages. I had a good dream about God last night. I gave birth to God. And all I had to do was have faith in my child and everything would be fine. God would glow when He was working and I would gaze at Him adoringly. What the dream meant to me is God is inside of me, inside of all of us, and all we have to do is let Him out and He will do wonderful things. It goes along with the stuff I have been learning about in The Artist's Way. God is inside of us and wants us to be creative. When we are blocked, we are standing in His way. He wants us to feel creativity flow through us and have us design, paint, write, sculpt, create art with mixed media. Whatever way we want to express God's creative gift, that's what we should be able to do. We are standing in our own way and this book will help me get out of my way.
I got dressed in my Zoo uniform and my husband drove me out to the Zoo. I was doing my shift watching the mother orangutan and her baby girl. We document her activities and how she deals with the baby. Since she had the baby, she has never put the baby girl down. She was upset when the keepers took the baby away while they did training with her to teach her to let the keepers give the baby a bottle every two hours. They fed the baby in front of her and gave her a doll and rewarded her when she would let them feed the doll. Then a week ago they gave her back the baby. She has done great since then and had no problems letting the keepers feed her. I was there to also talk to the guests and kids and tell them about Hadiah and her little girl. At one point Hadiah was holding the baby upside down and blowing raspberries on her tummy. She was examining her feet and legs and then turned her upright and stared into her eyes. Then she leaned over and kissed the baby's head. It was a funny and tender moment.
When my shift was over, I walked down to the front of the Zoo and met my hubby who drove me home. We started working on Elroy, putting the alternator in him. Elroy is my 1983 Chevy C10 pickup. We have been working on him as money would allow us to buy the parts and the weather has held out. We finally got the alternator in, it took both of us, then the belts on and the fan in. Tomorrow we are taking a trip, so will see if we get back early enough, we can put in the radiator and the fan guard. Then the true test, filling up the antifreeze and checking for leaks. This will be the second time we have installed the water pump and the first time the gasket slipped and we had a steady leak. This time we were extra careful and got a better sealant.
Tomorrow, Sunday, we are driving up to Broomfield, CO to go visit my daughter, Cassie, and her fiance, Drew. They live with his parents so all of us are going to have lunch together. Then we will visit for a little while and come back home. My neighbors are going to watch the dogs for us and let them out a couple of times. Broomfield is only about 2 hours away. I haven't seen Cassie in a couple of months and am very excited. I am also very nervous as I have gained all this weight and feel fat and ugly. I have never met Drew's parents and I feel I might be awkward with them and have a bad first impression. I am going to take an anxiety pill when we leave the house and take my crochet so I can keep my hands busy. It will give me confidence doing something I do well.
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