Saturday, November 15, 2014

     Today started of cold!  When my husband got up very early this morning, he said that is was nice out and offered to leave the back door open for the dogs but I said no.  I knew it was going to be chilly, just over 30 today but I also had my bedroom window open a crack.  I told him to turn off the heat, said good bye and Happy Birthday.  Today is his 52nd birthday.  He had to work today so off he went and I went back to sleep.  I woke up freezing!  I immediately got up, shut the window and turned the heat back on, what was I thinking?  I climbed back under the covers until it warmed up a bit.
     While shivering under the covers, I wrote my morning pages.  It was pretty hard this morning because the cold drove out any thoughts or dreams I had.  I struggled with is and it took twice as long as it usually had.
     After it warmed up and I finished the morning pages, I decided to do something I have been putting off for quite a while now.  I took off my nightgown and went to stand in front of the mirror.  It was time to take a good, hard look at what I looked like naked.  It was hard.  My body was a mass of curves and bumps with skin sagging in places I didn't expect.  Along my C-section scar, I have a fold of skin from outer hip to outer hip.  It's ugly.  I am very thick in the middle and my tummy extrudes so far.  My breasts are bigger (I'm now a DD) and still sag like sacks of grain.  I was not happy with what I saw.  It was ugly but I had to do it.  Now I know.
     I still got dressed and went downstairs.  I stayed in the living room watching Project Runway All Stars season 3 and season 1 of Buffy.  I took the day off crocheting on the mutant bulldog.  I wrapped the presents I got for my husband, nothing like putting things off until the last minute, right?  Do you know how hard it is to wrap a toolbox and a bath shelf?  It took me awhile but it was worth it.  When my hubby came home, he was excited to see the two big presents waiting for him.  And we had made dinner in the crockpot, beef roasts with potatoes, carrot, celery and onion.  Yum!  With pumpkin pie for dessert!
     I got on the treadmill for 20 minutes and I am hoping by doing what I call "Body Inspections" I can keep up the incentive to exercise.  I need to find my jump rope.