Today was a filling day. Ha! As in filling in my tooth! Since it was Wednesday, hubby didn't have to go in until 1130am and my dental appointment wasn't until 1pm, so I slept in until about 1030. I was having an uncomfortable dream about something but then the Devil appeared in my dream as a human and asked me for my soul. I woke up right after that. Talk about a direct message! I tried to go back to sleep so I could tell him NO, in no uncertain terms but couldn't do it. So I just thought it. And told hubby.
That started a discussion about why a person would want to sell their soul. He told me about an experiment that a guy in college tried. He went to some busy city place and told people that if they signed a paper to agree to sell their soul to him right then, he would give them $10. Out the 100s that he asked, only a handful of people did it. Hubby, who at times claims to be an atheist, said he wouldn't sell his soul for one basic reason, you just never know. Why trade your eternal soul for a finite tangible thing that you can only use for a number of years, when there is the possibility that you will go to a fiery, torturous place for all of eternity? Good question.
So eventually we got ready and left to go to hubby's office. I hung out there for about an hour reading, then left for my dentist appointment. I got there early so read my book until it was time to go in.
I was getting a replacement filling. I had one put in in 2011 but somewhere along the way, it fell out. But it was no longer under warranty so I had to pay to have it put back in. I had the hole in my tooth for a while now and it had a little bit of decay in it so they had to drill out the hole a little deeper, closer to the nerve. The dentist told me that I have the filling in one side, a filling in the top and the start of a crack appearing in the other side, so I should start saving up for a crown in the next year or two. Wonderful! He also told me that since it was close to the nerve, the tooth might be sensitive to extreme temperatures. Good thing I don't drink arctic cold drinks or eat piping hot food, huh?
When I was done, I drove back to hubby and picked him up. Frank had just come over, getting done at work at 230pm and now and was coming to visit hubby. We gave him a ride home and put the bike in the trunk.
We ate some lasagna for lunch then hubby went back to work. I went and sat in the swing and read until it became overcast. Then went inside to get on the computer and to let the rattie boys out to play and explore. Frank went to bed about 8pm since he has to get up around 4am. Hubby came home about 930pm. I ate some cereal for dinner and he is cooking a spinach quiche and top ramen. Then we are going upstairs to watch another episode of Major Crimes.
I realized something today. I am feeling content and happy, something I have been feeling for a little while now. I rarely have thoughts about how to commit suicide now, different ways to do it or if it would hurt. I am happy with the animals we have and have no desire to add to them, thinking that we have enough for several years to come.
I still have plans to start walking again, going to try to do it tomorrow. I have plans to work on putting away the boxes of material/cloth I have sitting in the craft room. I want to do a project board to do some interior decorating in the house and figure out paint colors and designs for the rooms. Things are going well and I am in a good place mentally. Oh, we have lots of bills to pay but we do have the means to pay them, slowly we will get there. But life is good.
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